Re: Re: Depressed and Scared-EVERYONE

[Guest guest]

Share your thoughts.  It is very healthful.  I too have depression issues that

kick in late       Oct/Nov.  I just recently took myself off Lexapro(wonderful

drug) because my lifes circumstances have gotten better.  I guess that is  why

when we are born we come out crying getting ready for the challenges we have

ahead.  Have a good one 

From: seloew12 <seloew12@...>

Subject: Re: [ ] Re: Depressed and Scared-EVERYONE

Date: Wednesday, July 9, 2008, 7:17 AM

Rattle on! Thanks for sharing your concerns and for bothering with an

explanation.

RE: [ ] Re: Depressed and Scared-EVERYONE

Dear Group,

Thank you so much for all your replys, care and concern. I really do

appreciate it and I am feeling alot better. Just writing it down to real

people took a load off my mind. I have struggled all my life with the

religious stuff, I was raised Pentecostal, " teethed on a pew " . I love my

religion with all my heart and would not trade it for one thing this world

has to offer, although it has caused me more then one moment of

terror....lol. ....I have not always lived up to the standards of the

holiness church but I have tried. I just think it was everything at once. I

felt so overwhelmed and I can't and won't talk to my mom cause she is " dyed

in the wool " and all doomsday at times. Dale, God love him, is the most

devoted husband I could wish for, but, he can not handle it when I talk to

him about my fears with CML or about this knott in my breast so I pretty

much keep it to myself. I was always good at hiding stuff from people. about

20 years ago I had a psychiatrist tell me I either was a very good actress

or there was nothing wrong with me. 24 hours later when he was admitting me

to a psych unit for trying to kill myself he informed me I was a very good

actress. I spent most of that next year in one psych unit or another, by the

end of the year he had me on 13 differant medications. I could not carry on

a conversation or make an appearance in public unless my parents were there

for me to hold on to and hide behind. The last three months of his treatment

I cried for about 18 hours a day! If I was awake I was crying. One day I

heard my dad say something about Mind Altering drugs, now for months I

couldnt remember anything you said to me after five minutes, but that stuck

with me. My last appointment with the Psychiatrist was June 3rd of 1997. I

told him I wanted my medicine cut in half, I wanted off of it. He replied

ooooh nooo we cant do that. So guess what?? I did it myself (Of course with

the help of God) , I went home grabbed my bootstraps pulled myself up,

stopped taking everyone of those pills and put my mask back on....and guess

what??? I survived! So , since that time I have no faith in antidepressants

or psychiatrists. I did have a councelor that I went to for 17 years and I

adored him. He was more then a therapist he was my friend. But he retired.

So now, I deal with it alone. When it becomes to much I explode all over

paper, If and only if that doesnt help I will ask for a antidepressant but

only take it till I feel better then I leave it alone. There is one thing I

learned during that year......NO ONE has the answer but me.....there is NO

PILL that makes everything all better.....and last but not least, If I can

just hold on until the sun comes up, it is a new day and things will be

better. And that works for me. I am not saying by any means that anyone who

takes antidepressants or see's a councelor is wrong, if it works for you

then great, I just wanted to explain myself so that ya'll wouldnt think,

well we gave her good advice and she just doesnt want help, I do and

appreciate all of you I really do. But if you can stand every once in a

while for me to get on here and rattle for a bit and get things off of my

chest.....THAT is the best medicine I could recieve. I love you all and

appreciate the private email and the offers of phone calls, you are very

sweet and kind. I hope I have not rattled to long here I just wanted to

explain.

Hugs!

Katy aka.....

____________ _________ _________ _________ _________ _________ _

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[Guest guest]

,

Feel free to vent anytime:)

Terry

On Wed, Jul 9, 2008 at 7:20 AM, Christa Boyd <simon19632000@...>

wrote:

> Share your thoughts. It is very healthful. I too have depression

> issues that kick in late Oct/Nov. I just recently took myself off

> Lexapro(wonderful drug) because my lifes circumstances have gotten better.

> I guess that is why when we are born we come out crying getting ready for

> the challenges we have ahead. Have a good one

>

>

>

> From: seloew12 <seloew12@... <seloew12%40cox.net>>

> Subject: Re: [ ] Re: Depressed and Scared-EVERYONE

> <%40>

> Date: Wednesday, July 9, 2008, 7:17 AM

>

>

> Rattle on! Thanks for sharing your concerns and for bothering with an

> explanation.

>

>

> RE: [ ] Re: Depressed and Scared-EVERYONE

>

> Dear Group,

> Thank you so much for all your replys, care and concern. I really do

> appreciate it and I am feeling alot better. Just writing it down to real

> people took a load off my mind. I have struggled all my life with the

> religious stuff, I was raised Pentecostal, " teethed on a pew " . I love my

> religion with all my heart and would not trade it for one thing this world

> has to offer, although it has caused me more then one moment of

> terror....lol. ....I have not always lived up to the standards of the

> holiness church but I have tried. I just think it was everything at once. I

>

> felt so overwhelmed and I can't and won't talk to my mom cause she is " dyed

>

> in the wool " and all doomsday at times. Dale, God love him, is the most

> devoted husband I could wish for, but, he can not handle it when I talk to

> him about my fears with CML or about this knott in my breast so I pretty

> much keep it to myself. I was always good at hiding stuff from people.

> about

> 20 years ago I had a psychiatrist tell me I either was a very good actress

> or there was nothing wrong with me. 24 hours later when he was admitting me

>

> to a psych unit for trying to kill myself he informed me I was a very good

> actress. I spent most of that next year in one psych unit or another, by

> the

> end of the year he had me on 13 differant medications. I could not carry on

>

> a conversation or make an appearance in public unless my parents were there

>

> for me to hold on to and hide behind. The last three months of his

> treatment

> I cried for about 18 hours a day! If I was awake I was crying. One day I

> heard my dad say something about Mind Altering drugs, now for months I

> couldnt remember anything you said to me after five minutes, but that stuck

>

> with me. My last appointment with the Psychiatrist was June 3rd of 1997. I

> told him I wanted my medicine cut in half, I wanted off of it. He replied

> ooooh nooo we cant do that. So guess what?? I did it myself (Of course with

>

> the help of God) , I went home grabbed my bootstraps pulled myself up,

> stopped taking everyone of those pills and put my mask back on....and guess

>

> what??? I survived! So , since that time I have no faith in antidepressants

>

> or psychiatrists. I did have a councelor that I went to for 17 years and I

> adored him. He was more then a therapist he was my friend. But he retired.

> So now, I deal with it alone. When it becomes to much I explode all over

> paper, If and only if that doesnt help I will ask for a antidepressant but

> only take it till I feel better then I leave it alone. There is one thing I

>

> learned during that year......NO ONE has the answer but me.....there is NO

> PILL that makes everything all better.....and last but not least, If I can

> just hold on until the sun comes up, it is a new day and things will be

> better. And that works for me. I am not saying by any means that anyone who

>

> takes antidepressants or see's a councelor is wrong, if it works for you

> then great, I just wanted to explain myself so that ya'll wouldnt think,

> well we gave her good advice and she just doesnt want help, I do and

> appreciate all of you I really do. But if you can stand every once in a

> while for me to get on here and rattle for a bit and get things off of my

> chest.....THAT is the best medicine I could recieve. I love you all and

> appreciate the private email and the offers of phone calls, you are very

> sweet and kind. I hope I have not rattled to long here I just wanted to

> explain.

>

> Hugs!

> Katy aka.....

>

> ____________ _________ _________ _________ _________ _________ _

> The i'm Talkaton. Can 30-days of conversation change the world?

> http://www.imtalkat hon.com/? source=EML_ WLH_Talkathon_ ChangeWorld

>

>