Losing my mind: Opinions

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Alright... I think i might be going a little crazy and I need your guys' expert

opinions!!!

For those who don't know, I have Lupus (SLE). Dr has me on steroids that I can't

seem to wean off of. If I go below 15mg my joints swell up and go apeshmuck.

I'm on Plaquenil (yuck) which isn't working so he doubled my dose yesterday.

And I'm on Methotrexate (TRIPLE yuck!) that I take once a week and knocks me on

my butt for 3 days. I can't get out of bed and I hurt all over and it SUCKS! My

teeth hurt. My vision goes down the crapper. It is KILLING ME.

I'm also on 1800mg of Gabapentin to stop the nerve spasms/pain. I started on

300mg and in 2 months I've jumped that much because it's getting WORSE! And I'm

starting to get rashes. From the meds? Or the lupus? Who knows!?

Anyways... I'm going crazy. I feel like I'm gonna die most days, have NO energy

and I know these meds are messing me up good. My joints are so weak I can barely

pick up a box of envelopes at work. It's messing with my job, my home life, I

have NO social life....

I was planning to wait til this flareup stopped and then start the Gerson

Therapy.

Well I can't take it anymore.

Here's where I need your opinion. Feel free to tell me that I'm losing my mind

and this is a dumb idea. Or that I'm brilliant (ha ha).

I would like to STOP taking my meds and do a liver cleanse/juice fast this

weekend and into next week. Enemas every 6 hours to clear toxins and get the

meds out of my system. I have lots of herbs for inflammation and pain. Should I

keep taking my steroids???

Any thoughts? I don't know what happens if you go off steroids when your body is

dependent on them!? Would a juice fast help get my adrenals working again or

would I end up laying in bed for a week unable to move again!?!?

I don't know what to do. The lupus is killing me and the drugs are killing me

and I'm DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't want to wait and

see which one kills me first!

Candace