B/A Friday 6/24 LONG

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HI.

I am scheduled for breast implant surgery this Friday at 6AM. I have

done research for a couple of years on andoff since I stopped

breastfeeding my first child and found that I was unhappy to a

distraction at the breasts that I was left with after weaning. I had

my second child a couple years later (I knew we wanted another child

so I wasn't thinking about doing anything surgery wise until after I

had her and breastfed and weaned her) and after my second daughter

weaned at about 18 months I was ready to get serious about looking

inton doing something about my breasts. I was a perky " B " cup before

my babies and after I am a very deflated - wrinkled - stretchmarked

barely " A " . I could deal with the size , but my breasts look exactly

like those of a small breasted 80 or 90 year old women. They are

effecting my sexual life with my husband as well as my social life

as I hate the way I look in clothing and won't wear a bathing suit

because you can see the wrinkles over the top of a suit and you can

see the concave areas in a full piece. My life is fashion as I am a

designer and wearing the clothing that I love or design makes me

feel wonderful and that is also missing from my life right now.

Padded bras help under clothing but can only be worn with certain

clothing. This is my background as to why I am at this point about

to undergo surgery on Friday morning and I wanted you to understand

that it is beyond a size or simple vanity issue.

I am a very thorough person as far as research is concerned and even

when women warn not to look at " anit-implant " sites I am never one

to ignore the other half of the story. I have seen may mnay explant

sites and support siters and the such but I am in a quandry. I

haven't found enough information about problems apart from those

well known (CC, bottoming out, infection, rejection, mammogram

difficulties, rippling, heaviness, hematomas, stigma attatched to

larger breasts (I had " D " cups when I was breastfeeding and I

honeslty didn't get any more attention than I already do) and other

actual surgical complications. I haven't actually found anything to

really give me an idea about " SALINE poisoning " plenty on silicone

and I understand the outer shell is silicine but I'm looking for

information on women that have has systemic, autoimmune, chronic

fatigue, arthritic problems etc... with SALINE implants that have

never had silicone. I don't have much longer to back out if I feel

as if I need to and I have looked through the messages here and of

course you have been talking to eachother for a long time so I am

not finding the original stories.

Is there anything you can tell me about being sick from saline

implants? Now I have to say that my sister in law died from

scleroderma (systyemic not external) a few years after getting

saline implants. Her doctor is the top scleroderma doctor in our

country and he said that from all the testing that he has done he

can say with assurity that her disease was beginning to manifest

before she had her implants. In other words I do understand from a

medical and logical standpoint that " sometimes " these diseases are

going to happen anyway - but I am open to the stories that you have

in which you really feel as if it had everything to do with the

implant.

I really truly appreciate you time and help in assisting me in

making the most informed decision I can.

Thank you sincerely -