Re: Re: My story-to Janice

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Janice.........Might be off subject a bit...But..MY mother lives in Georgia, about 2 hours i think south of Atlanta..Also my friend lives about 20 minutes outside of Atlanta. I went down there twice and fell in love with Georgia..I wanted so bad to move down there, it's a beautiful place and totally different from where i live (Jersey). Janice R.

> I live 60 miles from Atlanta, Georgia so I'm hoping there is a competent doctor nearby. I found Dr. Kolbs name from the groups website yesterday and went to her website. TBH, I had a positive feeling about it for several reasons I just wasn't sure if it was too good to be true, if that makes sense..? Lynda responded a few minutes ago with her name so I'm feeling more confident. Did you interview several doctors or do you just take the leap of faith. Has anyone on the list used Dr. Kolb? I want to make sure this time I make a good choice and find an excellent doctor---it's going to be a long enough road healing from all my other problems--> > I'm very happy to hear that you are 90% on your way to recovery--from reading your stories it's pretty clear there will be life long consequences--hopefully we will all be lucky enough to be able to recover and manage

the problems. It's motivating to know that yes, just maybe, I'll eventually be able to participate in my childrens lives fully and perhaps pick up a tennis racket and play again. It's been a downhill road for so long it's almost unimagineable. > > Thanks again for your time and insight> Janice> > > Re: My story> > > Janice,> > Welcome to the group. I am so glad that you found us. Kacey is doing a great job at informing women like you who had no idea that there (safe implants) could be making them sick.> We have all been where you are now. So you are safe here with expressing your feelings.> You need to get those poison

bags out of you as soon as you can. That is the only way that you will be able to regain your heath. Where in the South are you from? Someone on the group my have a doctor for you. > I can tell you that I had no trouble with my self esteem after removing the implants. Your focus will be on healing and one of the side effects is you will join the group in helping others. Nothing does more for your self esteem , as helping others. When your body starts healing and you have your life back you will be a different person than before all this happened. Thats not to say that every once in a while I will look at women with implants and think to my self . I wish I had theses but no sooner than I think it, I start worrying if they are sick , do they know that there implants can make them sick , should I tell them, etc. etc. > Your husband and three children need you healthy

again. The best gift you can give them is to get those things out and get healthy. Getting healthy is a long hard road but we will be here to help you. I was ex-planted 14 months ago and I can say that I am 90% better. A month before my implants were removed I thought I was going to die. I couldn't get out of bed and was in so much joint pain and my skin was on fire. I am still dealing with joint pain on and off, but not bad enough to take anything for it. And because the implants destroyed the fuction of my thyroid I have to take thyroid meds the rest of my life, But I can live with that.> > Well I'm going on and on here. Just wanted to let you know that you are in good hands here. And we are here to help you through your journey.> > Did you go to the file section and read some of our stories on implant and ex-plant? If not that would be a good place for you to

start.> > Love Cricket> > > > > anice Duarte <jandu5@b...> wrote:> Hi everyone,> > My saline implant nightmare began 10 years ago. I was 28 and had given birth to my second child. I had always been an A cup (if that) and loved how I looked "post baby"---I was happily married and thought it was the perfect time to follow through on a dream. Little did I realize this dream would slowly take away my body, my happiness and my sanity not to even minimize the trauma to my husband and 3 children. I did not realize this of course until I saw Kacey on GMA 3 days ago that it is my implants. You see, I've always thought is was post partum. All my problems began "after the baby" I had NO clue or thought it could be my implants. I've been waiting these ten years for my breast to become

hard --that was all I was told that could be a side effect. > > > I have lived the last ten years jumping from dr. to dr. for "little things" like scalp sensitivity plus my newly acquired bald spot, migraines, sinus infections, severe arthritis in my neck, upper and lower back, bumping into walls, losing my balance, weakness in my feet, arms and hand/arm tremors, I'm always dropping things and my right shoulder is in constant pain-nothing helps. I've been to my ob/gyn; chiropractors, orthopedist, psychologist, allergist and lastly(I'm sure I've missed a few drs) an orthopedic surgeon who diagnosed me as having a narrowing of my spine in my neck along with all the arthritis--(my spine as a 38 year old woman is now as a 60+ year olds).. I asked why--he says, "I don't know, unlucky I guess." I had two surgeries two years ago to take the pressure off my spinal cord and

still have all these problems, it's a daily challenge to get up and do for my family. I say two surgeries because the initial one the doctor put in a metal door and metal plates in> my neck--I was deathly ill for 3 weeks unable to hold my head up and walk; I started to get somewhat better and he says you have an infection we've got to go in and remove the metal and put donor bone in. They did; I felt 1000% great the day after surgery-I couldn't believe it-it was night and day from the first surgery it wasn't an infection; it was an allergic reaction to the metal--foreign object in body--it should of been a clue.> > I think I have lived so long trying to accept myself "post baby" that I forgot how active, happy and pain free I was before. Now that I've had a few days to think back and really look at it ---I'm 100% sure what I need to do. Although, knowing doesn't make it

easier; there's the fear of surgery, recovery and dealing with the feelings prior to having the implants. Will my self esteem hit rock bottom; (somehow I'd like to think I"m older and wiser)--of course my health comes first but there's a twinge of wishing it not be my implants. Plus how do I deal with not looking back and blaming myself --did I do this to me--or did the medical community let me down--I guess it's a little of both.> > So, I turn to ya'll (yes, I'm a southern girl) hoping to find support to point me in the right direction of where to start. How do I go about finding the right doctor to remove my implants but also how to find someone who will listen and find out exactly ALL the damage that has been done. Any words of advice would be greatly appreciated. I look forward to being a part of the group and helping you along your journeys.> > Thanks for

listening,> Janice> > > >

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Good morning,

You and Beth have made my day! Knowing Beth had a successful explant with Dr. Kolb and reading your email gives me hope. I must say, I couldn't sleep Friday night and ran across an article by a woman who had her implants removed by Dr. Kolb and they were black due to all the fungus--she had them in for a few years.. Anyway, I freaked out knowing these have been in my body for 10 years. I woke my husband up at 3:30 just crying my eyes out--if hers were like that after a couple of years; what can mine look like after 10! For the first time, I started looking at my breasts in an entirely different way.

Hearing that you had yours for 13 years and able to see progress is very inspiring. If you don't mind me asking can you tell me what changes you noticed immediately and what you are still struggling with? I guess it's different for everyone-- I'm trying not to pin all my hopes on removal and instantly feeling better but it's been such a long time coming.

I see why this group is a blessing to you--- I can already feel the depth of love, concern and compassion. We are all very lucky to be here supporting each other. Thanks for sharing your story and welcoming me.

Janice D.

-----Original Message-----From: daryljean35 [mailto:daryljean@...]Sent: Sunday, June 27, 2004 3:25 AM Subject: Re: My story-to Janice

Janice-I'm so happy that you found this group-I had been in a fibromyalgia support group for 4 yrs. and was the youngest person there by 20 yrs.-I thought why do I have to be a 32 yr. old girl in a 96 yr. old body?? I hated waking up in the morning!I was told by dozens and dozens of Dr.s that I need to accept my illness and stop looking for a cure. I had a new baby that I couldn't take care of and was angry at the world.I found Patty's group on the internet one night and my whole life changed for the better.These women have been there for me more than my own family.I had my implants in for 13 yrs. when I had them removed last year. I am slowly getting better am trying to put my life back together! I have spent thousands of dollars on trying to heal myself and getting those nasty bags out of me is the only things that made a difference!If you ever need a friend my # is 702-361-6442 in Las Vegas-God bless you! Love, Daryl> Hi everyone,> > My saline implant nightmare began 10 years ago. I was 28 and had given birth to my second child. I had always been an A cup (if that) and loved how I looked "post baby"---I was happily married and thought it was the perfect time to follow through on a dream. Little did I realize this dream would slowly take away my body, my happiness and my sanity not to even minimize the trauma to my husband and 3 children. I did not realize this of course until I saw Kacey on GMA 3 days ago that it is my implants. You see, I've always thought is was post partum. All my problems began "after the baby" I had NO clue or thought it could be my implants. I've been waiting these ten years for my breast to become hard --that was all I was told that could be a side effect. > > > I have lived the last ten years jumping from dr. to dr. for "little things" like scalp sensitivity plus my newly acquired bald spot, migraines, sinus infections, severe arthritis in my neck, upper and lower back, bumping into walls, losing my balance, weakness in my feet, arms and hand/arm tremors, I'm always dropping things and my right shoulder is in constant pain-nothing helps. I've been to my ob/gyn; chiropractors, orthopedist, psychologist, allergist and lastly(I'm sure I've missed a few drs) an orthopedic surgeon who diagnosed me as having a narrowing of my spine in my neck along with all the arthritis--(my spine as a 38 year old woman is now as a 60+ year olds).. I asked why--he says, "I don't know, unlucky I guess." I had two surgeries two years ago to take the pressure off my spinal cord and still have all these problems, it's a daily challenge to get up and do for my family. I say two surgeries because the initial one the doctor put in a metal door and metal plates in> my neck--I was deathly ill for 3 weeks unable to hold my head up and walk; I started to get somewhat better and he says you have an infection we've got to go in and remove the metal and put donor bone in. They did; I felt 1000% great the day after surgery-I couldn't believe it-it was night and day from the first surgery it wasn't an infection; it was an allergic reaction to the metal--foreign object in body--it should of been a clue.> > I think I have lived so long trying to accept myself "post baby" that I forgot how active, happy and pain free I was before. Now that I've had a few days to think back and really look at it ---I'm 100% sure what I need to do. Although, knowing doesn't make it easier; there's the fear of surgery, recovery and dealing with the feelings prior to having the implants. Will my self esteem hit rock bottom; (somehow I'd like to think I"m older and wiser)--of course my health comes first but there's a twinge of wishing it not be my implants. Plus how do I deal with not looking back and blaming myself --did I do this to me--or did the medical community let me down--I guess it's a little of both.> > So, I turn to ya'll (yes, I'm a southern girl) hoping to find support to point me in the right direction of where to start. How do I go about finding the right doctor to remove my implants but also how to find someone who will listen and find out exactly ALL the damage that has been done. Any words of advice would be greatly appreciated. I look forward to being a part of the group and helping you along your journeys.> > Thanks for listening,> Janice> > > >

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Hi Janice D.

I just wanted to jump in here and tell you that you have gotten throught the harderst part all ready. (Finding out what has been making you sick ) Now the healinng can start.

Don't worry to much about whats in the saline, a lot of women have had there's removed without finding the fungus and mold inside. So yours could be clean too. It doesn't seem to make a difference in how long they were in. We are not sure way some our contamiated and some aren't.

If I haven't already said so WELCOME TO THE GROUP.

Love Cricketjandua2000 <jandu5@...> wrote:

Good morning,

You and Beth have made my day! Knowing Beth had a successful explant with Dr. Kolb and reading your email gives me hope. I must say, I couldn't sleep Friday night and ran across an article by a woman who had her implants removed by Dr. Kolb and they were black due to all the fungus--she had them in for a few years.. Anyway, I freaked out knowing these have been in my body for 10 years. I woke my husband up at 3:30 just crying my eyes out--if hers were like that after a couple of years; what can mine look like after 10! For the first time, I started looking at my breasts in an entirely different way.

Hearing that you had yours for 13 years and able to see progress is very inspiring. If you don't mind me asking can you tell me what changes you noticed immediately and what you are still struggling with? I guess it's different for everyone-- I'm trying not to pin all my hopes on removal and instantly feeling better but it's been such a long time coming.

I see why this group is a blessing to you--- I can already feel the depth of love, concern and compassion. We are all very lucky to be here supporting each other. Thanks for sharing your story and welcoming me.

Janice D.

-----Original Message-----From: daryljean35 [mailto:daryljean@...]Sent: Sunday, June 27, 2004 3:25 AM Subject: Re: My story-to Janice

Janice-I'm so happy that you found this group-I had been in a fibromyalgia support group for 4 yrs. and was the youngest person there by 20 yrs.-I thought why do I have to be a 32 yr. old girl in a 96 yr. old body?? I hated waking up in the morning!I was told by dozens and dozens of Dr.s that I need to accept my illness and stop looking for a cure. I had a new baby that I couldn't take care of and was angry at the world.I found Patty's group on the internet one night and my whole life changed for the better.These women have been there for me more than my own family.I had my implants in for 13 yrs. when I had them removed last year. I am slowly getting better am trying to put my life back together! I have spent thousands of dollars on trying to heal myself and getting those nasty bags out of me is the only things that made a

difference!If you ever need a friend my # is 702-361-6442 in Las Vegas-God bless you! Love, Daryl> Hi everyone,> > My saline implant nightmare began 10 years ago. I was 28 and had given birth to my second child. I had always been an A cup (if that) and loved how I looked "post baby"---I was happily married and thought it was the perfect time to follow through on a dream. Little did I realize this dream would slowly take away my body, my happiness and my sanity not to even minimize the trauma

to my husband and 3 children. I did not realize this of course until I saw Kacey on GMA 3 days ago that it is my implants. You see, I've always thought is was post partum. All my problems began "after the baby" I had NO clue or thought it could be my implants. I've been waiting these ten years for my breast to become hard --that was all I was told that could be a side effect. > > > I have lived the last ten years jumping from dr. to dr. for "little things" like scalp sensitivity plus my newly acquired bald spot, migraines, sinus infections, severe arthritis in my neck, upper and lower back, bumping into walls, losing my balance, weakness in my feet, arms and hand/arm tremors, I'm always dropping things and my right shoulder is in constant pain-nothing helps. I've been to my ob/gyn; chiropractors, orthopedist, psychologist, allergist and

lastly(I'm sure I've missed a few drs) an orthopedic surgeon who diagnosed me as having a narrowing of my spine in my neck along with all the arthritis--(my spine as a 38 year old woman is now as a 60+ year olds).. I asked why--he says, "I don't know, unlucky I guess." I had two surgeries two years ago to take the pressure off my spinal cord and still have all these problems, it's a daily challenge to get up and do for my family. I say two surgeries because the initial one the doctor put in a metal door and metal plates in> my neck--I was deathly ill for 3 weeks unable to hold my head up and walk; I started to get somewhat better and he says you have an infection we've got to go in and remove the metal and put donor bone in. They did; I felt 1000% great the day after surgery-I couldn't believe it-it was night and day from the first surgery it wasn't an infection; it was an allergic reaction to

the metal--foreign object in body--it should of been a clue.> > I think I have lived so long trying to accept myself "post baby" that I forgot how active, happy and pain free I was before. Now that I've had a few days to think back and really look at it ---I'm 100% sure what I need to do. Although, knowing doesn't make it easier; there's the fear of surgery, recovery and dealing with the feelings prior to having the implants. Will my self esteem hit rock bottom; (somehow I'd like to think I"m older and wiser)--of course my health comes first but there's a twinge of wishing it not be my implants. Plus how do I deal with not looking back and blaming myself --did I do this to me--or did the medical community let me down--I guess it's a little of both.> > So, I turn to ya'll (yes, I'm a southern girl) hoping to find support to point me in the right direction of where to start.

How do I go about finding the right doctor to remove my implants but also how to find someone who will listen and find out exactly ALL the damage that has been done. Any words of advice would be greatly appreciated. I look forward to being a part of the group and helping you along your journeys.> > Thanks for listening,> Janice> > > >

[Guest guest]

I agree, some have fungus and some do not. Just getting them removed and

starting on the healing process is the way to go. And I think you will be

happy with Dr. Kolb.

Lynda

At 08:12 AM 6/28/2004, you wrote:

>Good morning,

>

>You and Beth have made my day! Knowing Beth had a successful explant with

>Dr. Kolb and reading your email gives me hope. I must say, I couldn't

>sleep Friday night and ran across an article by a woman who had her

>implants removed by Dr. Kolb and they were black due to all the

>fungus--she had them in for a few years.. Anyway, I freaked out knowing

>these have been in my body for 10 years. I woke my husband up at 3:30

>just crying my eyes out--if hers were like that after a couple of years;

>what can mine look like after 10! For the first time, I started looking

>at my breasts in an entirely different way.

>

>Hearing that you had yours for 13 years and able to see progress is very

>inspiring. If you don't mind me asking can you tell me what changes you

>noticed immediately and what you are still struggling with? I guess it's

>different for everyone-- I'm trying not to pin all my hopes on removal

>and instantly feeling better but it's been such a long time coming.

>

>I see why this group is a blessing to you--- I can already feel the depth

>of love, concern and compassion. We are all very lucky to be here

>supporting each other. Thanks for sharing your story and welcoming me.

>

>Janice D.

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

>

> Re: My story-to Janice

>

>Janice-I'm so happy that you found this group-I had been in a

>fibromyalgia support group for 4 yrs. and was the youngest person

>there by 20 yrs.-I thought why do I have to be a 32 yr. old girl in

>a 96 yr. old body?? I hated waking up in the morning!

>

>I was told by dozens and dozens of Dr.s that I need to accept my

>illness and stop looking for a cure. I had a new baby that I

>couldn't take care of and was angry at the world.

>

>I found Patty's group on the internet one night and my whole life

>changed for the better.These women have been there for me more than

>my own family.

>

>I had my implants in for 13 yrs. when I had them removed last year.

>I am slowly getting better am trying to put my life back together! I

>have spent thousands of dollars on trying to heal myself and getting

>those nasty bags out of me is the only things that made a difference!

>If you ever need a friend my # is 702-361-6442 in Las Vegas-God

>bless you! Love, Daryl

>

>

>

>

>

>

> > Hi everyone,

> >

> > My saline implant nightmare began 10 years ago. I was 28 and had

>given birth to my second child. I had always been an A cup (if

>that) and loved how I looked " post baby " ---I was happily married and

>thought it was the perfect time to follow through on a dream.

>Little did I realize this dream would slowly take away my body, my

>happiness and my sanity not to even minimize the trauma to my

>husband and 3 children. I did not realize this of course until I

>saw Kacey on GMA 3 days ago that it is my implants. You see, I've

>always thought is was post partum. All my problems began " after

>the baby " I had NO clue or thought it could be my implants. I've

>been waiting these ten years for my breast to become hard --that was

>all I was told that could be a side effect.

> >

> >

> > I have lived the last ten years jumping from dr. to dr.

>for " little things " like scalp sensitivity plus my newly acquired

>bald spot, migraines, sinus infections, severe arthritis in my neck,

>upper and lower back, bumping into walls, losing my balance,

>weakness in my feet, arms and hand/arm tremors, I'm always dropping

>things and my right shoulder is in constant pain-nothing helps.

>I've been to my ob/gyn; chiropractors, orthopedist, psychologist,

>allergist and lastly(I'm sure I've missed a few drs) an orthopedic

>surgeon who diagnosed me as having a narrowing of my spine in my

>neck along with all the arthritis--(my spine as a 38 year old woman

>is now as a 60+ year olds).. I asked why--he says, " I don't know,

>unlucky I guess. " I had two surgeries two years ago to take the

>pressure off my spinal cord and still have all these problems, it's

>a daily challenge to get up and do for my family. I say two

>surgeries because the initial one the doctor put in a metal door and

>metal plates in

> > my neck--I was deathly ill for 3 weeks unable to hold my head up

>and walk; I started to get somewhat better and he says you have an

>infection we've got to go in and remove the metal and put donor bone

>in. They did; I felt 1000% great the day after surgery-I couldn't

>believe it-it was night and day from the first surgery it wasn't an

>infection; it was an allergic reaction to the metal--foreign object

>in body--it should of been a clue.

> >

> > I think I have lived so long trying to accept myself " post baby "

>that I forgot how active, happy and pain free I was before. Now

>that I've had a few days to think back and really look at it ---I'm

>100% sure what I need to do. Although, knowing doesn't make it

>easier; there's the fear of surgery, recovery and dealing with the

>feelings prior to having the implants. Will my self esteem hit rock

>bottom; (somehow I'd like to think I " m older and wiser)--of course

>my health comes first but there's a twinge of wishing it not be my

>implants. Plus how do I deal with not looking back and blaming

>myself --did I do this to me--or did the medical community let me

>down--I guess it's a little of both.

> >

> > So, I turn to ya'll (yes, I'm a southern girl) hoping to find

>support to point me in the right direction of where to start. How

>do I go about finding the right doctor to remove my implants but

>also how to find someone who will listen and find out exactly ALL

>the damage that has been done. Any words of advice would be greatly

>appreciated. I look forward to being a part of the group and

>helping you along your journeys.

> >

> > Thanks for listening,

> > Janice

> >

> >

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

Janice, welcome to the group. Im gonna be short, as I have 350 emails to read! Arg! (I was on vacation) Please read my story "s letter to Oprah" .I went to Dr Kolb, all the way from Illinois, and couldn’t be happier! My explant was a success, and I loved her. She worked wonders for me, and also had a great detox program I followed. I still talk to her via email and phone, for tips and new info-almost 2 years post explant. Very helpful, and knowledgable... Love,

RE: Re: My story-to Janice

Good morning,

You and Beth have made my day! Knowing Beth had a successful explant with Dr. Kolb and reading your email gives me hope. I must say, I couldn't sleep Friday night and ran across an article by a woman who had her implants removed by Dr. Kolb and they were black due to all the fungus--she had them in for a few years.. Anyway, I freaked out knowing these have been in my body for 10 years. I woke my husband up at 3:30 just crying my eyes out--if hers were like that after a couple of years; what can mine look like after 10! For the first time, I started looking at my breasts in an entirely different way.

Hearing that you had yours for 13 years and able to see progress is very inspiring. If you don't mind me asking can you tell me what changes you noticed immediately and what you are still struggling with? I guess it's different for everyone-- I'm trying not to pin all my hopes on removal and instantly feeling better but it's been such a long time coming.

I see why this group is a blessing to you--- I can already feel the depth of love, concern and compassion. We are all very lucky to be here supporting each other. Thanks for sharing your story and welcoming me.

Janice D.

-----Original Message-----From: daryljean35 [mailto:daryljean@...]Sent: Sunday, June 27, 2004 3:25 AM Subject: Re: My story-to Janice

Janice-I'm so happy that you found this group-I had been in a fibromyalgia support group for 4 yrs. and was the youngest person there by 20 yrs.-I thought why do I have to be a 32 yr. old girl in a 96 yr. old body?? I hated waking up in the morning!I was told by dozens and dozens of Dr.s that I need to accept my illness and stop looking for a cure. I had a new baby that I couldn't take care of and was angry at the world.I found Patty's group on the internet one night and my whole life changed for the better.These women have been there for me more than my own family.I had my implants in for 13 yrs. when I had them removed last year. I am slowly getting better am trying to put my life back together! I have spent thousands of dollars on trying to heal myself and getting those nasty bags out of me is the only things that made a difference!If you ever need a friend my # is 702-361-6442 in Las Vegas-God bless you! Love, Daryl> Hi everyone,> > My saline implant nightmare began 10 years ago. I was 28 and had given birth to my second child. I had always been an A cup (if that) and loved how I looked "post baby"---I was happily married and thought it was the perfect time to follow through on a dream. Little did I realize this dream would slowly take away my body, my happiness and my sanity not to even minimize the trauma to my husband and 3 children. I did not realize this of course until I saw Kacey on GMA 3 days ago that it is my implants. You see, I've always thought is was post partum. All my problems began "after the baby" I had NO clue or thought it could be my implants. I've been waiting these ten years for my breast to become hard --that was all I was told that could be a side effect. > > > I have lived the last ten years jumping from dr. to dr. for "little things" like scalp sensitivity plus my newly acquired bald spot, migraines, sinus infections, severe arthritis in my neck, upper and lower back, bumping into walls, losing my balance, weakness in my feet, arms and hand/arm tremors, I'm always dropping things and my right shoulder is in constant pain-nothing helps. I've been to my ob/gyn; chiropractors, orthopedist, psychologist, allergist and lastly(I'm sure I've missed a few drs) an orthopedic surgeon who diagnosed me as having a narrowing of my spine in my neck along with all the arthritis--(my spine as a 38 year old woman is now as a 60+ year olds).. I asked why--he says, "I don't know, unlucky I guess." I had two surgeries two years ago to take the pressure off my spinal cord and still have all these problems, it's a daily challenge to get up and do for my family. I say two surgeries because the initial one the doctor put in a metal door and metal plates in> my neck--I was deathly ill for 3 weeks unable to hold my head up and walk; I started to get somewhat better and he says you have an infection we've got to go in and remove the metal and put donor bone in. They did; I felt 1000% great the day after surgery-I couldn't believe it-it was night and day from the first surgery it wasn't an infection; it was an allergic reaction to the metal--foreign object in body--it should of been a clue.> > I think I have lived so long trying to accept myself "post baby" that I forgot how active, happy and pain free I was before. Now that I've had a few days to think back and really look at it ---I'm 100% sure what I need to do. Although, knowing doesn't make it easier; there's the fear of surgery, recovery and dealing with the feelings prior to having the implants. Will my self esteem hit rock bottom; (somehow I'd like to think I"m older and wiser)--of course my health comes first but there's a twinge of wishing it not be my implants. Plus how do I deal with not looking back and blaming myself --did I do this to me--or did the medical community let me down--I guess it's a little of both.> > So, I turn to ya'll (yes, I'm a southern girl) hoping to find support to point me in the right direction of where to start. How do I go about finding the right doctor to remove my implants but also how to find someone who will listen and find out exactly ALL the damage that has been done. Any words of advice would be greatly appreciated. I look forward to being a part of the group and helping you along your journeys.> > Thanks for listening,> Janice> > > >