Re: how did you get over the shock-I feel very guilty!

[Guest guest]

When I moved out here to Las Vegas to marry my husband 7 yrs. ago,

I was the happiest girl in the world. I had been in the dating scene

for 15 yrs. in Ft. Lauderdale, FL, where I'm from.

After a year was when the abdominal pain started (endometriosis-from

the implants) then the vaginal pain (dry and irritated all the time-

my tissue would tear if we tried to make love-went to 3 diff. gynos,

nothing helped) after that the all over body aches and the fatigue

took over. My muscles felt like cars had run over me every day. I

was a flight attendant, so I could fly for free. I flew all over the

country looking for a Dr. or hosp. that could help me. I kept

hearing I had fibromyalgia and that I would be in pain for the rest

of my life. I just couldn't accept that.

After 3 yrs. of spending thousands of $s on products that didn't

help, I found this group on the internet. My husb., thought I

was obsessed with getting better, and told me just to live with it,

and stop talking about it. His parents thought I was a hypocondriac

(sp?) and his Dad told me on X-mas day (last yr.) that he thought

that I was manipulating his son so that I could get waited on hand

and foot. was sitting next to me, and didn't defend me at all.

Things have been so awkward with his parents since then. I asked his

Dad if he liked me before I got sick, and he said that he didn't

remember me not being sick. (I was healthy for a full year when we

1st got married)

Meanwhile, I had a baby during this whole mess and my pain got much

worse during my pregnancy. I feel like I have caused my husb. so

much worry and pain and have put a huge strain between him and his

family. We have been on the verge of divorce since I found out that

he had an affair that lasted 5 months. He said that it happened

because I have changed so much since we got married. My 2 yr. old

son watches TV all morning because I have to lie on the floor and

stretch due to terrible pain.

I am slowly getting better, but I have alot of work to do on my

attitude. I feel like I'm angry at the world. Try to stop blaming

yourself-you did nothing wrong!! If you ever need to vent, my # is

702-361-6442-We should try to be grateful that we got these poison

things out of us! Do you have any health problems now? I'll pray for

you- Love, Daryl

--- In , " ness19712001 " <yagoob94@a...>

wrote:

> iam having such a hard time with all that has happened to me .i

keep

> thinking why, why did i get them . i had a decent chest, not the

best

> but look ok. i was working out every day some times 2times day .

had

> good family, the worest was all i put my family through, i feel

alful

> about everything ,the money lost, the kids seeing mom sooo sick,

them

> worring if i would be ok.i was very insecure about my self and my

> body perticularly my chest .now it seems as thou im more insecure.

> horriable feeling. someone said wait a while and try it again if

its

> important to you ..... but gosh i cant do that implant thing

again.i

> cant take the risk that it would happened again. just trying hard

to

> move forward. i know there is a leeson in this for me . did anyone

> feel guilty

[Guest guest]

Daryl

You need to stop blaming yourself and YES attitude is a huge thing in

this illness. I firmly believe without the right attitude healing

will not happen, at least not very easily. I know that I have been up

and down with doing healing therapy but one thing I always have had

is a good positive attitude. I know that will help you if you can

just get that positive vibe going on!

I want to help, so answer that phone on TUESDAY GIRL! seriously I

want to talk. I have the number but you have to answer or we cannot

communicate, hee hee.

I love you girlie

In , " daryljean35 " <daryljean@c...>

wrote:

> When I moved out here to Las Vegas to marry my husband 7 yrs.

ago,

> I was the happiest girl in the world. I had been in the dating

scene

> for 15 yrs. in Ft. Lauderdale, FL, where I'm from.

>

> After a year was when the abdominal pain started (endometriosis-

from

> the implants) then the vaginal pain (dry and irritated all the time-

> my tissue would tear if we tried to make love-went to 3 diff.

gynos,

> nothing helped) after that the all over body aches and the fatigue

> took over. My muscles felt like cars had run over me every day. I

> was a flight attendant, so I could fly for free. I flew all over

the

> country looking for a Dr. or hosp. that could help me. I kept

> hearing I had fibromyalgia and that I would be in pain for the rest

> of my life. I just couldn't accept that.

>

> After 3 yrs. of spending thousands of $s on products that didn't

> help, I found this group on the internet. My husb., thought I

> was obsessed with getting better, and told me just to live with it,

> and stop talking about it. His parents thought I was a hypocondriac

> (sp?) and his Dad told me on X-mas day (last yr.) that he thought

> that I was manipulating his son so that I could get waited on hand

> and foot. was sitting next to me, and didn't defend me at

all.

> Things have been so awkward with his parents since then. I asked

his

> Dad if he liked me before I got sick, and he said that he didn't

> remember me not being sick. (I was healthy for a full year when we

> 1st got married)

>

> Meanwhile, I had a baby during this whole mess and my pain got much

> worse during my pregnancy. I feel like I have caused my husb. so

> much worry and pain and have put a huge strain between him and his

> family. We have been on the verge of divorce since I found out that

> he had an affair that lasted 5 months. He said that it happened

> because I have changed so much since we got married. My 2 yr. old

> son watches TV all morning because I have to lie on the floor and

> stretch due to terrible pain.

>

> I am slowly getting better, but I have alot of work to do on my

> attitude. I feel like I'm angry at the world. Try to stop blaming

> yourself-you did nothing wrong!! If you ever need to vent, my # is

> 702-361-6442-We should try to be grateful that we got these poison

> things out of us! Do you have any health problems now? I'll pray

for

> you- Love, Daryl

>

>

>

>

>

> > iam having such a hard time with all that has happened to me .i

> keep

> > thinking why, why did i get them . i had a decent chest, not the

> best

> > but look ok. i was working out every day some times 2times day .

> had

> > good family, the worest was all i put my family through, i feel

> alful

> > about everything ,the money lost, the kids seeing mom sooo sick,

> them

> > worring if i would be ok.i was very insecure about my self and my

> > body perticularly my chest .now it seems as thou im more

insecure.

> > horriable feeling. someone said wait a while and try it again if

> its

> > important to you ..... but gosh i cant do that implant thing

> again.i

> > cant take the risk that it would happened again. just trying hard

> to

> > move forward. i know there is a leeson in this for me . did

anyone

> > feel guilty