Re: Marie and others of course

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Hi! This is a very good post! Thanks Dear!

Hugs,

LMnaturalbeauty38 <naturalbeauty38@...> wrote:

Oh my dear girl we have been through so much together, fighting, friendship mostly, and I love you and have come to see you for what you are, a very smart woman indeed who is not unlike me in many ways, fiesty, spirited, and very independant. I also know that your in pain, emotion and spiritual pain, and that can lead to a pain in the heart that can cause us to react to so many things! BEEN THERE DONE THAT and at times still do. My dear dear friend I want you to know I am here for you. I cannot believe how many times I saw my name in the headers I thought, at first, dear lord what have I done now I have not even been on line a few days, what with my 40th birthday EEEK, and so many things going on, happy things mostly but some pain issues and health problems to be sure.I cannot figure out why in CA my hands did not hurt, and when I

talked to my new sweet kind of cute young male dr he did mention altitude. I wonder what winter will be like good heavens it scares me to death! Anyhow, we sit at almost 5,000 ft above sea level here and in CA your at sea level so I do not know if that could possibly be it or what.Anyhow girl, I am not going to get into the whole debate and the reason why is I am just not in the mood and don't want to rehash it all. I do want you to know that we all have our moments, each one of us has done it at some point, esp me, but , Lynda, none of us are immune to some emotional drama and it is not fair to put the finger on any one person and say it is all them or whatever, try to let it all go. I know your a seriously great debater and I love listening to you because you always to me, make a great point and I often times will do that too, I call it playing the devils advocate and I do it often just because ya know, i mean I am

that way i like to see what people will say when faced with the oppositioun. Maybe you and i were cut out for politics hee hee, NO I WON"T GO THERE DON"T WORRY! ha ha,seriusly dear friend I thank you for the kind things you said about me, they were having me all teary eyed, and you remembered my B day and so did a few others who sent me cards (e cards) and that was sweet. I had some nice times with my hubby all weekend we spoiled each other to death and then of course I had a nice time with a girlie friend of mine, being naughty and drinking butterscotch shcnopps, OH MY GOSH IS THAT STUFF YUMMY! eek, we had a nice time. She gave me a card that was so perfect it had me in tears, she knows my quest for perfection, the way I diet and work out and am tiny and how I wanted the boobs and the card just talked about how we as women seek perfection and that sometimes the most perfect thing is what we are inside. It was beautiful,

and she is a beautiful person and she of course does not see it either. We never see ourselves as we are. She is bigger than me, curvey, with natural C cup breasts and yeah a bit more butt and thighs but gosh she is amazingly gorgeous and I try to tell her that and all she sees is my tiny ass and I thnink how screwed up we all are, we all want what we dont have. I remind her of my tiny boobs and she is like envious of my tiny body and I am envious of her curves, so go figure it out, I cannot figure any of it out really.LM your a special person, when you came to me with your apolgoiy that took a big woman(not size wise either hee hee) just that underneath all that toughness and hardshell with so much intelligence i am envious of you, and inside there is a soft heart and a beautiful person with a lot of pain inside. I wish others could see you the way I do. They would know you don't start debates to hurt only to educate.

Everyone has their own way and I am learning so much through my prayer and my introspectiveness lately, learning not to be so self centerd, not to be so set on being right, learning to give a little more than I get, and be happy with all that.I feel that turning 40 was a good thing for me, that I have grown up a little in just one day, that this is the beginning of the best decade of my life so far, as my 20's were all about having fun at others expense, my 30's were often times the me years, losing weight, geting plastic surgery trying to find a man, now I can focus on helping others and tyring to help myself to be a better friend, a better person. So what if I have a little more lines on my forehead than I used to, Not one person thinks I look 40 and I think a BIG part of that is that attitude! I hope to carry that attitude into my 50's and 60's and well we will see beyond that, no ha ha LM and others lets all just try to see

beyond the words, lets all try to love eachother for the differences we all have the lovely souls we are the beautiful and strong women we are, the voices we are not afraid to share and to speak out with.We are more than our breasts and we have learned that.I don't have allot of time to continue to answer everyones posts but I want you all to know how much i love this group and even if we are somewhat arguing or whatever we are doing, it does not really matter, it is still the best damn support group around.hugs girls