I'd like to share My visit to the GYN

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Today I went to a new GYN. Seems like I am always at the GYN. I am

there so often, I wish I was dating one! LOL Anyway, I suspected an

infection of some sort. Before the exam, he asked me of my problem,

diseases, ect. I told him I had FMS, he did not know what it was, so

I said it is an 'autoimmune type disorder', that effects my muscles

and joints with fatigue. I kept it simple. He had asked me if I ever

had SURGERY. I said NO, hoping he would not do a breast exam

(sometimes they don't). Anyway, he did a breast exam, and asked if I

had a reduction(that is a bit of an understatement, scince I look

like a 12 year old, lying down.LOL). Anyway, I said I had implants

removed with a lift(again, I kept it simple). He asked did you have

problems? And I said yes( I did not state what kind) I figured that

would be that. WELL, he went into this whole speech. 'you know that

there is no scientific evidence that implants cause autoimmune

disorders'. Then he asked 'what kind did I have salines or

silicone? " . I said salines. He repeated well there is no scientific

data that Silicone gels or salines give woman autoimmune

diseases'. 'They took the gels off the market with no Scientific

data, just by 'hearsay'. " It is like this women get these autoimmune

diseases because when they get them, they are in their childbearing

years, and that is when women get autoimmune illness'. I was

like 'yeah'. I basically just " yessed him to death', and tuned him

out. I DID not even say, I think I got sick because of implants, for

all he knows, I could of had capsular contraction. I just wanted my

exam and meds for my crotch, I was NOT there to talk about the

politics of implants! I was not even thinking implants! I thought I

was being the better person 'by tuning his stupidity out'. BUT now I

am finding myself very hostile and bitter over the whole thing. 'I

think that VERY unprofessional of him to start talking about that???

Who the hell is he??? I feel like I should have said 'don't you feel

that this is off the subject, and isn't your department vaginal????

What is up with that? I am trying to 'let go of my anger', I needed

to vent, so I came here. Sorry I really needed to get this out, and

come to a place where people may understand. I don't know why it

really got to me after I got home. I almost said to myself, maybe I

never did get sick from the implants, maybe I would have gotten sick

anyway? I mean how many times have I heard 'it was not my implants'

that made me sick????? Sometimes I feel like I am crazy, or should I

say the world is crazy, and I am 'sane'. Anyway, I feel a bit better

venting, and I guess I am kind of proud of myself for not going 'off

on him' and wasting my energy. If I were well, and it was 5 years

ago, well, that could have been a scene. I wish I had an outlet for

my anger at times. I used to box and kickbox, and if something or

someone bothered me, a few hours in the gym and I would be ok. I

guess as my boyfriend would say 'Anger is really just fustration'. I

think he is right. I would say, 'anger is one letter short of

danger'. Anyway, thanks for letting me come here. Sometimes I feel

so alone. peace,hugs and health to everyone TERRY PS. On a good

note, he did a swab test, and I had a high bacteria count. So I got

my meds for a bacterial infection.