Re: Xanax and sleep.. Marie

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Marie,

I have 1mg pills and I take 2-3 and keep another one handy if I need

it...That does it for me, but I have serious health problems

(leukemia) also you guys who still have 1/2 of their health...

It's funny, I try to lead a rather chemical free life now, but I

won't go without my drugs! ;-) Well, it's better than lying there and

wishing I could fall asleep, right?? I didn't sleep for 30 years?!!

Really!! Now, I say, just bring on the drugs.....

xxx in Ca

> > > > I've been reading all the posts about sleep and ladies, I

feel

> > for

> > > > ya! I've had terrible problems with sleep ever since getting

> > those

> > > > # & %*!*%*@@@!+!$@$* implants. (was that enough cussing??!!)

> > > Anyway,

> > > > I've tried just about everything. One of the latest was

Xanax.

> > At

> > > > first it seemed ok and it did help me to relax and fall

asleep,

> > but

> > > > didn't really keep me asleep. After a week or so I noticed I

> was

> > > > crying all the time. It was mostly when I was by myself at

> > first,

> > > > then I just started crying no matter where I was or what I

was

> > > > doing. I didn't think of myself as depressed, so I couldn't

> > > > understand why I was crying all the time. I finally decided

it

> > was

> > > > coming from the Xanax and I weaned myself off of it. I'm not

> > > crying

> > > > anymore!

> > > >

> > > > It seems that for some people (me - definitely) that Xanax

type

> > > meds

> > > > make you even more depressed than you already are or just

flat

> > out

> > > > cause depression. I remember now that I tried it about 10

years

> > > ago

> > > > after hurting my neck in a car accident. The same thing

> > happened -

> > > I

> > > > cried non-stop! It took a long time to figure out it was from

> > the

> > > > Xanax back then too. Anyway, I'm glad I'm off of it. I don't

> > want

> > > > to just walk around and cry for no reason. It's no fun!

> > > >

> > > > I'm taking lots of Magnesium now - especially at bed-time.

I'm

> > > also

> > > > taking some St. 's Wort (I think Rogene suggested that).

At

> > > > night I've tried some over the counter stuff - Unisom - and

it

> > > seems

> > > > to work pretty well. I also got some earplugs! I used to be

> > able

> > > to

> > > > sleep through a tornado but since getting implants, I can't

> sleep

> > > if

> > > > there is the slightest bit of noise. The earplugs really

help.

> > > Now

> > > > if I could just make my husband stop moving at night, I'd be

> > fine!

> > > > We have a waterbed, so he can't move without rocking me! O

> well,

> > > one

> > > > thing at a time.

> > > >

> > > > Hope you all get some rest. It's so important for those of us

> > with

> > > > FMS. I flare big time when I have a bad night.

> > > >

> > > > Love to all of you.

> > > >

> > > > Pam

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

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:

Sorry to hear about your leukemia. Are you undergoing treatment for this, how it it coming along?

LMlindabones9 <lindabones9@...> wrote:

Marie,I have 1mg pills and I take 2-3 and keep another one handy if I need it...That does it for me, but I have serious health problems (leukemia) also you guys who still have 1/2 of their health...It's funny, I try to lead a rather chemical free life now, but I won't go without my drugs! ;-) Well, it's better than lying there and wishing I could fall asleep, right?? I didn't sleep for 30 years?!! Really!! Now, I say, just bring on the drugs.....xxx in Ca> > > > I've been reading all the posts about sleep and ladies, I feel > > for >

> > > ya! I've had terrible problems with sleep ever since getting > > those > > > > # & %*!*%*@@@!+!$@$* implants. (was that enough cussing??!!) > > > Anyway, > > > > I've tried just about everything. One of the latest was Xanax. > > At > > > > first it seemed ok and it did help me to relax and fall asleep, > > but > > > > didn't really keep me asleep. After a week or so I noticed I > was > > > > crying all the time. It was mostly when I was by myself at > > first, > > > > then I just started crying no matter where I was or what I was > > > > doing. I didn't think of myself as depressed, so I couldn't > > > > understand why I was crying all the time. I finally decided it > > was > > > > coming from the Xanax and I weaned myself off of it. I'm

not > > > crying > > > > anymore! > > > > > > > > It seems that for some people (me - definitely) that Xanax type > > > meds > > > > make you even more depressed than you already are or just flat > > out > > > > cause depression. I remember now that I tried it about 10 years > > > ago > > > > after hurting my neck in a car accident. The same thing > > happened - > > > I > > > > cried non-stop! It took a long time to figure out it was from > > the > > > > Xanax back then too. Anyway, I'm glad I'm off of it. I don't > > want > > > > to just walk around and cry for no reason. It's no fun!> > > > > > > > I'm taking lots of Magnesium now - especially at bed-time. I'm > > > also > > >

> taking some St. 's Wort (I think Rogene suggested that). At > > > > night I've tried some over the counter stuff - Unisom - and it > > > seems > > > > to work pretty well. I also got some earplugs! I used to be > > able > > > to > > > > sleep through a tornado but since getting implants, I can't > sleep > > > if > > > > there is the slightest bit of noise. The earplugs really help. > > > Now > > > > if I could just make my husband stop moving at night, I'd be > > fine! > > > > We have a waterbed, so he can't move without rocking me! O > well, > > > one > > > > thing at a time.> > > > > > > > Hope you all get some rest. It's so important for those of us > > with > > > > FMS. I flare big time when I

have a bad night. > > > > > > > > Love to all of you.> > > > > > > > Pam> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >

[Guest guest]

:

Sorry to hear about your leukemia. Are you undergoing treatment for this, how it it coming along?

LMlindabones9 <lindabones9@...> wrote:

Marie,I have 1mg pills and I take 2-3 and keep another one handy if I need it...That does it for me, but I have serious health problems (leukemia) also you guys who still have 1/2 of their health...It's funny, I try to lead a rather chemical free life now, but I won't go without my drugs! ;-) Well, it's better than lying there and wishing I could fall asleep, right?? I didn't sleep for 30 years?!! Really!! Now, I say, just bring on the drugs.....xxx in Ca> > > > I've been reading all the posts about sleep and ladies, I feel > > for >

> > > ya! I've had terrible problems with sleep ever since getting > > those > > > > # & %*!*%*@@@!+!$@$* implants. (was that enough cussing??!!) > > > Anyway, > > > > I've tried just about everything. One of the latest was Xanax. > > At > > > > first it seemed ok and it did help me to relax and fall asleep, > > but > > > > didn't really keep me asleep. After a week or so I noticed I > was > > > > crying all the time. It was mostly when I was by myself at > > first, > > > > then I just started crying no matter where I was or what I was > > > > doing. I didn't think of myself as depressed, so I couldn't > > > > understand why I was crying all the time. I finally decided it > > was > > > > coming from the Xanax and I weaned myself off of it. I'm

not > > > crying > > > > anymore! > > > > > > > > It seems that for some people (me - definitely) that Xanax type > > > meds > > > > make you even more depressed than you already are or just flat > > out > > > > cause depression. I remember now that I tried it about 10 years > > > ago > > > > after hurting my neck in a car accident. The same thing > > happened - > > > I > > > > cried non-stop! It took a long time to figure out it was from > > the > > > > Xanax back then too. Anyway, I'm glad I'm off of it. I don't > > want > > > > to just walk around and cry for no reason. It's no fun!> > > > > > > > I'm taking lots of Magnesium now - especially at bed-time. I'm > > > also > > >

> taking some St. 's Wort (I think Rogene suggested that). At > > > > night I've tried some over the counter stuff - Unisom - and it > > > seems > > > > to work pretty well. I also got some earplugs! I used to be > > able > > > to > > > > sleep through a tornado but since getting implants, I can't > sleep > > > if > > > > there is the slightest bit of noise. The earplugs really help. > > > Now > > > > if I could just make my husband stop moving at night, I'd be > > fine! > > > > We have a waterbed, so he can't move without rocking me! O > well, > > > one > > > > thing at a time.> > > > > > > > Hope you all get some rest. It's so important for those of us > > with > > > > FMS. I flare big time when I

have a bad night. > > > > > > > > Love to all of you.> > > > > > > > Pam> > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >

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Thanks LM. THere is alway so much support on this site--for every

kind of problem we are going through. I really love the way we all are

there for each other! It was very hard coping with mike's death. It

was sudden and very unexpected. Yet, looking back, I can really see

how God protected me and brought me through. I think the thing that I

learned most is that life is hard --very hard--for alot of people.

And we are just not taught coping skills in this country. In

countries torn by devastation, starvation, war, etc, I think children

get tough very young. Here, we try to protect our children and make

them think " you grow up, get married, and live happily ever after " .

Then when things get tough, we immediately want it to end. But it

doesn't. I remember when he died the hardest thing was knowing that

there was no fix. I always believed there was a way to change things

if you didn't like them. NOt only could I not change the situation, I

knew that going through it was going to be hell. Not like waiting out

the flu. Or any other bad thing that had happened up to that point.

It is a very humbling experience to go down into that pit of

despair and not know when, if ever, you were ever going to come out of

it.

Before I could recover from that loss, this illness took off. Another

thing beyond my control and endlessly painful. And then the

depression became chronic and severe. So many times I wanted to give

up and thought I could stand it no more. Days, weeks, years went by.

I would have never believed that I could stand it--but as you

know--you have no choice. You just keep hanging on well after you are

sure you can't hang on any longer. And in it all, God always just

kept me from the brink. I think I was a pretty weak person who didn't

know how to depend on God. This taught me alot. I think I have

learned I have a much greater capacity to endure whether I want to or

not. And when I was in my greatest pain, God brought someone into my

life that brought me alot of joy. Never have I been more sure of

anything in my life that God brought my current husband to me. I

never thought I could love again, or would find someone I loved as

much as mike. In fact, I was never intending on looking. But I met

Dale in my grief support group, and he is the most compassionate,

loving, caring man I have ever met. He has supported me through

everything. He took such loving care of his wife while she was dying

of colon cancer. Just about every day I thank God for him and for the

blessing he is in my life. So I have found that I can love two men

equally. And there is always hope for all of us who are alone that

God sees our hearts and knows what we need before we even ask Him. I

love the verse " For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord,

" plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and

a future " . Things in my life are far from perfect, but I still feel

vey blessed. Geez, I am sorry, to write a book. I know you didn't

really even expect a reply. I just wanted to share that we are alot

stronger than we can possibly imagine and that life always has the

possibility for change. I loved a line in this one movie where the

girl says " life can change with every breath we take " . It is so true.

I hope and pray for all of us on this site that life changes for the

better!

Hugs, kathy

-- In , Jane Doe <oceanlilly_csu@y...>

wrote:

> Hi Kathy!

> I feel so bad for what you have been through too. How do you cope

with loosing your husband? This must be so hard.

> Hugs,

> -Marie

>

>