feeling hopeless... once again

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hello ladies,

i realize i don't write as much as i should, but i do try and keep up

and read when i can. i'm recently a grad student back in school and

it is really kicking my butt!

anyways, i'm hoping to get some feedback from anyone who might be

reading.

i was explanted two months ago and since then it's been all downhill

as far as my pain symptoms - that's all i had going into the explant,

(i didn't have the other brain, skin, hair, etc... problems).

anyways the pain has definitely worsened in all areas (elbow and

knees and wrist) and most recently in my breasts! i sent a desperate

email out 6 weeks ago and i got so much support saying to hang in

there... but i'm wondering now that i've reached two months, if it's

still too early to expect any improvement? and also, did any of you

who have similar fibromylagia-like pain never improve at all? is it

something we might have to live w/ forever? i'd much rather face the

reality, than go on hoping for something that will never be.

my faith has been my saving grace as i'm trying to find strength to

overcome this and not let it ruin my life. my relationships have

already suffered and i've given up on lots of my dreams in regards to

my personal life. i know that's a very unhealthy way of thinking,

but it's where i'm at right now. i am looking into seeing a

psychiatrist for all this and also my sleep problems.

thanks for listening...

lisa