To: Barby- the working girl!

[Guest guest]

Kacey,

I do feel like each day I have a purpose now even though I am exhausted. At first it was tough to get my hair and makeup done but its getting easier. It was a big decision to go back and I was frightened and never thought I would go back but when I had a meeting with my bosses they encouraged me to try it and that I was too young to be at home. I am glad I did try it and hope I can continue on. I was so depressed last year I didnt have any interest in anything at all and had lost all hope. I think I am just learning to deal with my issues now and try to ignore them as best as I can. I have days where I feel like how am I going to make it through but God gives me the strength. I am just thankful that I feel a little better, I was so weak and desperate after explant and was losing all hope. You are very fortunate to have such a wonderful and supportive boyfriend , there arent too many men like that . You have done so much to help get the word out and we are all so proud of you. I hope the pain in your hands subsides and you start to feel better and better. I dont post much on this site because I dont have the knowledge that everyone else has and dont know many answers to peoples questions but everyone on this site is in my pray list and I am so thankful to finding this site in July 2003 and would have never made it through explant without everyones help. Please keep us informed on dates of upcoming articles and shows, etc.

Love ,

Barby

[Guest guest]

Barby,

That's so wonderful that you are working part-time! And that your

company held your job for you! You are one lucky woman And you

give us all much hope if you can go from barely driving one year, to

part-time working the next Doesn't it make you feel " normal " to

get dressed up and leave the house with a functioning purpose?!

I wish it didn't tire me out so much to fix myself up....as it

really does help me to feel " normal " . I've got to get myself " photo-

ready " in the next day or so...and I'm panicking because my

arms/hands hurt so bad (The Washington Post is coming to photograph

me for an article). However, I mentioned this to my wonderful

boyfriend, Danny, and he's already agreed to help me with my hair

that day!!!! He's a life saver and not to mention a pretty good

hair stylist (he's a home builder, train service worker by

trade...but man is he artsy When he does my hair, I always get

compliments

Hope you're having fun and feeling better! Congrats for being able

to join the land of the living! I can't wait til I'm there!

Kacey

> Pam,

> Yes last year at this time I couldnt even drive. Yes I work 4 hrs

a day now

> and I am fortunate they held my job for 2 yrs and are letting me

do the part

> time. I must admit I am exhausted when I get home but it feels

good to dress

> up and get out of the house. Its about 1 yr after explant and I am

better than

> I was but I dont ever think I will be back to my old self. But I

am thankful

> that I can do things now last year I was housebound. If you get

free time

> while your in Boston let me know .

> Barby

[Guest guest]

Patty,

Yes they are wonderful people, I couldnt have nicer bosses and can you believe that are Judges!

Barby