Sue - Blaming yourself

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Sue- the theory behind the shot thing- The thermosal was in the combined shots as a preservative. There is NO POSSIBLE WAY that you could have 3 kids in the spectrum and have it do to the thermosal. Reason being- every bottle of MMR shots has X amount of the thermosal and the rests is the shots. Every bottle contains - say 50 shots. If EVERY time the nurse gives the shot she does not mix it long enough or well enough there could be extra thermasol levels in the bottle. If your child is the 45th kid to get the shot out of this vial you are more likely to have extra thermasol in the vial. The odds of getting the last of the bottle with all 3 kids are astronomical!! NOW let me say - I also have 3 kids in the spectrum. It turns out it was genetics's. I have a rare genetic disorder called Isodicentric 15 (IDIC15) as do all three of my kids. I had NO WAY of knowing that I am a carrier- didn't find out myself until 38 when the neurologist did a CVS looking for causes of the Autism. AND we found it! NOW- if I don't blame myself (AND I DON'T!) how can you blame yourself??? Hind sight is always 20/20. I am a Christian and I believe there is a reason for everything and that this is just a test for bigger things to come. God gave those children to YOU for a reason. Because HE knew you would do the very best by them. Just the fact that you feel guilty about something you had no control over tells me that you a wonderful Mother and those kids are lucky to have you! Now back to my story: My boys had seizures (common trait with this disorder) for 2 years before I found out!!! I had a lousy Dr. that wouldn't listen to me- told him something was wrong with the boys (twins) at 8mths!!! We got our Autism dx at 3 and the IDIC15 at 4. Since then I have

joined a support group () and my kids are thriving!!! I was told when they were 3 to look in to placement because the were going to be big-6'4" and to put them on Ritalyn (sp?) I told them to stick it!!! NO DRUGS for my babies!!! I joined Mass. General Posting Board for Autism and started to educate myself on natural things. Every night before bed I grind up a mix of vitamins/mineral/supplement and mix it with juice and they take it with a dropper. My point- there are MANY possible reasons for Autism. As of now the only theory prooven is genetics. I don't know for sure of not if Autism can be caused by a shot. BUT I do know that my boys seizures started just after their first set! I don't think this is a coincidence. Here is one of my favorite web sites on Autism- It has links to EVERYTHING you can think of having to do with Autism. http://www.danasview.net/recover.htm If you would like more info on certain things I have a HUGE collection. You can e-mail me at Twinteror1@.... Best of luck! Deb C. autism wrote: There are 2 messages in this issue.Topics in this digest:1. Re: Vaccination Guilt question??From: "Zkema" 2. AITFrom: rob ________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________Message: 1 Date: Sat, 28 Jan 2006 13:44:49 -0600From: "Zkema"

Subject: Re: Vaccination Guilt question??Sue, if t his were true, every child who has had all their recommended immunizations would have autism but the fact is they don't. We just can't really know the whys of their diagnosises always. All we can deal with is the here and now, and go from there in helping them the best way we can. That's the only thing that will be helpful to our children.Karin Vaccination Guilt question??I have been having a problem with guilt lately and I wanted opinions please? I feel in my heart that all three of my sons have autism, adhd and development delays because of the vaccinations they received with the mercury and thermosol. How do I get past the guilt of poisoning my children unknowingly so bad that they are damaged for life? I feel so bad

especially with my son that has severe nonverbal autism. My two younger sons are progressing well and hopefully will adjust to life with their disorders and be ok..but I feel so guilty about my oldest son, especially when I see kids his age doing stuff he will never do...like drive, have relationships, graduate high school with a regular education diploma, get married, have kids..attend college, go into the military whatever he wanted to with his life, simple stuff like go bowling with friends.. that because I listened to my doctors, I gave him poison and it hurt him for life. How do I get past the guilt? Thank you for any advise or suggestions that you have! Hugs and Happiness,Sue.."Some people believe in destiny, some believe in faith, I believe that Happiness is something we create with both Faith and Destiny!"