Guest guest Posted June 9, 2002 Report Share Posted June 9, 2002 Hi - hope everyone is doing okay today. I needed to come here & vent as I always feel better after I do. (You might need to send me that pity party bus for this one!) I am feeling really abandoned right now. As I mentioned, I have no extended family who desires to help me out here. My husband says he loves me, will be there for me, etc. but that fluctuates in both his word and action. I have a son with significant special needs who I am trying my best to take care of and I am doing this all alone this weekend. Knowing I have been in extreme pain for about a month (I see my rheumatologist for the first time this week) my husband went on a fishing trip out of state with the guys from work for the weekend. I layed in bed last night feeling like my shoulder was broken & wanting so badly to just talk to someone - so I talked to God. My son is 13 and still wets his bed everynight and is not yet capable of making it himself. I almost cried this morning when I found out he wet it agin last night after just stripping it yesterday. It hurts so bad on my wrist. And even though he cannot help it, I know he could feel my anguish at having to do this once again. I just found out Thursday night that my husband has started smoking cigarettes again after having quit for 5 years. I noticed the smell on him & mentioned it - he never told me. He sd he has been ssmoking for about a month now & as he is feeling very stressed out. He sd he didnt want to tell me as I had enough on my plate. First I was angry at him and then just felt devastated. I couldnt believe that after working SO hard to quit, he would pick them back up after all this time. Not to mention the expense! I told him I am worried about his health and I truly am. I am now fearful about his health and worried about being left alone financially, which may sound self-centered but is true. part of me feels guilty for this - even though I know I didnt cause him to start smoking again - I now feel like I cant or shouldnt say anything about how I am feeling since he is resorting to self-destructive ways of coping and is obviously having a hard time himself. My neighbor asked me when the trip was to Nova Scotia this year. I said I knew nothing about it. I asked my husband & he told me he has planned a seven day trip to Nova Scotia with the next door neighbor on their motorcycles in July. (they went last year for 5 days) They want to re-do the trip again ,but felt 5 days wasnt long enough last time so are now planning 7 days. And - oh - he thought for sure he had mentioned all of this to me!! I never knew a thing about it! I sure better feel differnet physically in July than I do now as just this weekend is killing me. Not to mention, I am feeling very emotionally abandonded. I cant even call my mom- she doesnt want to talk about it or call me back. Part of me says - it's better that my husband does these things if he cant cope with things at home as they are & he needs these outlets to deal. part of me is pissed as all hell (pardon me) for feeling like he is being very self-centered. But if he doesnt want to be here to help me - what's the point in forcing it? I tossed aside my fear of his feelings around ordering a walker (which I need ) and got on the internet and ordered myself a walker and a wrist brace last night. I had been worried he'd be embarressed to be with me using these or that he would think I was feeling sorry for myself. But as I lay in bed, alone, crying in pain, while he is sitting around the campfire smoking cigartettes and looking at the stars, I said - screw it and purchased myself a much needed walker and wrist brace. I dont want to take his call when he calls today before he leaves for home. I feel like I cant say anything to him about how I really am feeling as he cant cope and it may send him off on a more self- destructive path. Dont know if any of this made sense, but I had to get it out!! thanks to anyone who took the time to read this long post. Blessings, C. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 9, 2002 Report Share Posted June 9, 2002 Dearest ...please know that you & your family are in my heart & in my prayers. I hear your pain & discouragment. I am glad to read whatever you post...your feelings are VERY important, and you certainly have MUCH going on in your life. Sending many, many hugs of understanding... Tess Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 9, 2002 Report Share Posted June 9, 2002 >, I hate to hear that you are hurting not only physically but emotionally. Hopefully when you see the rheumatologist they will find out what is going on and you will be able to find ways to deal with it, not knowing is hard. So hang in there it is almost here. Maybe after you know what your dealing with your husband will realize what he must do to help you out. As for your mother the women you expect to be there for you, Shame on her. I am a mom of grown children and if my children need me know one and nothing would stop me from being there. Hope that also gets better. in WA Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 10, 2002 Report Share Posted June 10, 2002 Dear , I feel so bad that you are in such pain. I am afraid that I have no magic words of wisdom. The only thing that I can offer you is to know that you and your family will be in thoughts and prayers and that God gives you the strength to get thru these most difficult days. Very gentle, tender, angel hugs, Debs in FL Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 20, 2011 Report Share Posted April 20, 2011 > > Hello Bee and others, > I am at about the 2-year stage of following this program. Candidiasis is no longer a problem for me and I have seen improvement in some other areas. > > I am, however, having problems that seem major to me and I am waivering in my commitment to this program. The first big problem was that I have developed a head tremor that occurs when I use my arms. I wrote about that earlier. > > The next problem is pain and limited mobility in my right shoulder. I wrote about this earlier as well. I believe I may have sustained an injury to my shoulder last summer/fall while struggling with a heavy wheelbarrow. However, the problem has become much worse and I have suffered (and am suffering) a lot of pain and even greater limitation in using my arm. > > And then last week I noticed that at times I now have a hand tremor when I am using that same right arm. > > I need some advice and encouragement to avoid going completely off track here. +++Hi , Maybe you need to find out what is going on first. I suggest you see your doctor. As far as encouragement, all I can write is what I've written many times before about the disease processes and healing processes, as follow: All disease processes are exactly the same as healing and detoxifying processes created by the body itself in an effort to maintain its health, in spite of poor nutrition, toxins, etc. As Taubes writes in his book Good Calories, Bad Calories, p. 142: " . . .the fundamental feature of all living organisms is the interdependence of the parts of the body to the whole . . . " " . . .all physiological systems [body processes] have to work together to assure survival. " " . . all of the vital mechanisms [processes], however varied they may be, have only one object, that of preserving constant the conditions of life in the internal environment. " However, the medical industry labels each and every " sign " of poor health as separate dis-eases, illnesses, symptoms, syndromes, etc. which are actually normal body reactions and processes. In other words, they are simply " signs " the body is attempting to restore its own balance. As Florence Nightengale, the famous nurse, says: " There are no specific diseases; there are [only] specific disease conditions. " People on this healthy program are giving their bodies what they need to become healthy, so they are now able to progress towards health rather than become more and more unhealthy, or dis-eased. To feel more secure read the Success Stories and more about how the body heals itself naturally: http://www.healingnaturallybybee.com/articles/menu1_2.php Healing hugs, Bee Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 20, 2011 Report Share Posted April 20, 2011 Thanks, Bee. I will consider your suggestion to see a doctor, and I will do some more reading. H. > > > > Hello Bee and others, > > I am at about the 2-year stage of following this program. [snip] Problems: head tremor that occurs when I use my arms pain and limited mobility in my right shoulder at times I now have a hand tremor when I am using that same right arm. H. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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