bad expereince vent

May 29, 2002

Hi,

I'm new here this week & waiting to see my rheumatologist for the 1st time

on 6/13.

Today was especially hard for me & I just needed to vent.

I went food shopping and as I was lifting items of the shelves, I was

getting in more and more pain. I was finding it hard to walk & didnt know

what to do with my cart full of groceries. This is all new to me. At the

register I asked the cashier to please pack the bags lightly as I was in a

lot of pain. (by this point I thought I was going to be stuck standing

there) She asked me what was wrong & I told her I had RA. She sd she did too

& she asked who my doctor was. I told her I hadnt seen him yet but told her

who I was going to. She told me he used to be her doctor and she thought he

was awful! She sd he didnt do a thing for her & never helped her. I just

wanted to cry right then in the store. I had been expected to wait by my pcp

until Aug. to go see one, as she didnt " feel it was an emergency " So, I

fired her, opened the yellow pages, got a new pcp and an appt with a

rheumatologist for 2 wks from now. I was proud of myself for taking matters

into my own hands & speeding up the process as I cant even walk. Now I hear

this doctor is awful as I am standing there in severe pain.

I already had all my records forwarded to him. I just told myself, " well

that is her experience, maybe mine will be different. " I am trying to hold

onto hope for today. She sd her new dr. has her on 12 pills a day & has been

a great help. <sigh>

By the time I drove home I was in so much pain that I couldnt walk. I had to

page my husband at work & tell him there was a carload of groceries that I

couldnt unload. I felt awful. I laid on my bed & I honestly didnt care if

they all rotted in the heat. I couldnt do it.

Thank you God, he works close by & came home and did it. I cant food shop

again until I receive some treatment. And now I feel so depressed hearing

about this woman's experience with the doctor that I am counting down the

days to see.

Thanks for listening.

Blessings,

C.

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