Depression & Food

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Hello...

I been poz since Nov.95

I been taking Combivir & Kaletra...and I've been doing very well on

it.

My VL is zero, & my CD4 count is over 600.

My problem is dealing with the depression. I feel " STUCK "

I'm having trouble moving forward. Every time I have to take this

medicine, all it does is remind

me of what I have. I have to eat it with a big meal or the meds make

me feel sick afterwards,

so I have been eating out for a long time... " restrants " I feel like

I'm having to eat around the medication,

and its getting to the point I just cant stand to EAT!

Its like when people get depressed, it takes on different forms.

Some people do drugs to deal with the pain, others over-eat.

With me, I get so depressed, (I just can't eat.) It feels like my

throat is closing up.

Its getting to the point to all I do is sleep all morning, & eat 1

big meal in the afternoon " around 3pm "

and maybe snack on something small late at nite. Eating to me just

feels like a chore

" ...like cleaning the house or washing the car " ...its not fun to

eat, it just feels like something I have to do. :-\

Note: please dont think I'm anorexic or throughing up my food wanting

to be THIN.

" I dont want to be thin, in fact, I cant stand it. "

I'm a 34 male, 5'-4 " 103 lbs. I'm 20-30 lbs. under weight.

I think I'm writing this to see if anyone else is depressed & having

trouble with food & eating.

~sam~