LT trip go well? Ours did!

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Hi LT. We went on school trip to OuterBanks and had a great time.

R has now been 40mg for 14 days and I see good results!! trip went well

mainly I only had to push/rush her along. No emotional explosions.

(which she had had befor the 40mgs) typical worries from her OCD, but

nothing dehabilitating.

We were suppose to do Homework with OCD but she kept avoiding the

issue. she may be in an avoidance mode, I'm tring to figure this out.

She says her thoughts of bad words has come back. (this was her first

sign that I could identify as OCD as far a trying to pin-point a time

when it started) Got to ask her therapist if this is a good sign or not.

You know like going backwards to the beginning. So far, now back at

home, things haven't been unbearable. She is wanting to go back to

school and Sunday was a more stressful day for her.(she says Sundays

are bad for her. ???)

Want to know how you guys did on your trip?? and now back at home how's

it going?

Laurie.

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In a message dated 4/18/2006 10:45:30 A.M. Eastern Standard Time,

lvanhoy35@... writes:

..(she says Sundays

are bad for her. ???)

Want to know how you guys did on your trip?? and now back at home how's

it going?

Laurie -

You are so sweet to think of us. Our trip went well - everyone had fun.

It's been really rough with my daughter though. After such a great day in the

shower before we left.. things just went downhill for her. I don't know if

it was the trip itself (not being at home -- " safe " ) that did it or what.

I've been horribly depressed about the whole thing, so I just haven't been much

in the mood for reading/writing about it. Truthfully though, I was avoiding

posting because I don't want to do a rush job on it & I just haven't had

time. There is so much going on right now for us (which doesn't help matters

dealing with the OCD issues), that sitting & doing email & message board is

just

a luxury I haven't been able to do in the last week or so.

In a nutshell -- things have just gotten so bad. I thought she was going to

actually throw up in the shower last night. It was horrible. Maybe I'm

choosing the WRONG ritual to deal with right now. It's gotten so that she

can't

do anything at all in the shower by herself without completely freaking out.

At this point, she almost starts to cry if I even SAY " I'll be right back "

when she's going to the bathroom. I must stay there EVERY second & talk her

through it. Everything just seems to have taken a 'dump' as far as progress.

I'm going to call her psychiatrist today and see if we can up her to 50mg

without coming in. I still have some 10mg capsules left from the last RX (now

she's getting 20mg caps, so I can just add one of the 10's to her dose).

Anyway, I'm finding myself getting depressed. I'm trying SO hard to be

understanding, and actually I think I'm doing pretty good. She's just SO

pathetic & lost -- I couldn't get even get upset with her anyway.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR NEXT TUESDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know I'm probably putting

too much stock in this new doctor & starting therapy and am probably setting

myself for a big disappointment, but I can't help it. I need something to

look forward to & hope for.

My mom is visiting for 2 weeks starting May 2nd. I've brought up to my

daughter, several times, how we should say something to my mom as soon as she

gets here -- or before she arrives. I told her there is no way we can possibly

hide this from her & she WILL ask what's going on. I told her that I'm not

going to try & make up lies for 2 weeks about what I'm doing in the bathroom

with you. It's impossible not to overhear what's going on when she's in the

shower - impossible!!!

Anyway, I have to go. I'm working at my old office for a just couple hours

this morning & tomorrow to train a new person & I'm late already. Sorry

about the " mega-dump " in this email.

As for your daughter & Sunday's being a hard day for her..... most likely

it's because school starts the next day??? I know my daughter hates Sundays

because of that. Just a thought.

More later

LT

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LT -

Hate to hear she went downhill on you. I know you just hate the situation, we

want so bad to understand what is going on with our kids and can really get

beside ourselves trying so hard to fix things. I know I do; cause that's how I

feel my duty as the " Mother " is - " the fix it person " .

There is hope and that is what we've got to hold on to! I know just talking

helps so much and this group has shared a lot. Even talking to others who don't

understand helps some.

I encourage you to share with your mom about your daughter. It will take

educating her about OCD. No one can understand what is going on unless they

learn about it in some way. To pretend nothing is happening is just added

pressure. It is so much easier for all involved, for others to know and

understand at least a little; than for them to not know and wonder why.

Oh and everyone says take care of yourself. yes, this is GREAT advice, but hard

for me too. I have been dealing with anxiety and depression before my R was dx.

I want to believe my trials have been for a purpose and maybe they were to be

able to recognize when my R would need help. I believe the meds are there to

help and yes I hate having to take them. two sided sword. but with out this

knowledge/understanding I would be no help to my R.

gtg. hang on! We will " all " get through this!

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