finally have a possible diagnosis of dyspraxia

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I've known in my heart for 5 mos that my daughter

probably had apraxia and now that an SLP has confirmed

it, I'm wondering why I'm feeling all these mixed

emotions. On one hand, I feel that Kaeli and I

finally have a partner to help her overcome this.

But, at the same time, I guess there was part of me

wanting to hear that this wasn't the problem, that she

is just a late-bloomer.

I'm also having all these mixed emotions about the

diagnosis. I have full confidence in this SLP,

especially since she actually knew more about apraxia

than I did. I know that sounds strange, but the last

2 SLP's I've come in contact with didn't even realize

verbal apraxia could occur in the absence of oral

apraxia. Not even sure they realized there was a

difference. This therapist has been doing speech

therapy in children for 8 yrs and has sevaral children

with the apraxia diagnosis on her caseload now. The

reason I say this is because there is a little part of

me saying, " but what if she just thinks it's apraxia

because I do? " I don't know why I'm letting that

thought even haunt me since I've suspected it and

since Kaeli has so many of the characteristics. But,

maybe this is just the part of me that still can't

accept that my daughter probably has a disorder? I

mean, she did hear and see everything Kaeli is capable

of. Kaeli was far more cooperative for this SLP than

most anyone she comes in contact with. In fact, the

SLP spent 2 hrs with us since Kaeli continued to do so

well.

Ughhh, see I'm doing it now. Trying to convince

myself that I can trust the diagnosis since there's a

part of me still not accepting it.

I do want to say thank you to this group!! I learned

so much from reading posts and learned a lot of

therapy techniques. The SLP thinks the only reason

Kaeli is doing so well and making so many attempts is

because of all the work we've been doing at home for

the past 4 mos. I'm so looking forward to the day my

daughter can put syllables together to form words.

I really can't say enough thank you's to those people

that are working so hard to make apraxia more known.

I know for a fact my daughter would not be where she

is right now if not for the hard work of so many

people that I don't even know. I would still be

waiting for her to " just start talking in sentences

one day " like everyone tried to convince me of.

Thank you!!!

Bridget

mom to Kaeli (almost 2)

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