Guest guest Posted January 9, 2004 Report Share Posted January 9, 2004 Hey Sierra: We are all human and therefore subject to fear, sadness, trepidation. One of the hardest things about dealing with a chronic disease is seeing one's mortality and fraility. It is a frightening thing. But there is great strength in accepting it and moving on with life - dealing with it as best you can, allowing yourself moments of sadness and fear. Life is a constantly changing landscape as are your emotions. I always hope that no matter how bad I feel today, that tomorrow might be better. And I am blessed with a very short memory - so that when things are good, I don't remember how bad they were. Good luck with your appt! Let us know how it goes. gloira Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 9, 2004 Report Share Posted January 9, 2004 You had me worried at first when all I read was the negative possibilities. You can actually cause yourself medical problems (depression for example) by concentrating too much on the negatives. I was relieved to see that you also recognize the positive potential. I'll be praying that only the positives show up tomorrow. God bless. ----- Original Message ----- From: snowdrift52003 Rheumatoid Arthritis Sent: Thursday, January 08, 2004 5:59 PM Subject: New Rheumy tomorrow Hello,Tomorrow I meet a rheumy who may win the honor of being selected asmy new rheumatologist:) I did not forward any medical records to heryet, but will be bringing copies of my last two lab tests as well asthe historical "first lab" (the worst) from 1999. I have written downmy Rx history. I have spent some time collecting my thoughts. I amnervous! You'd think this was a hot date or an important jobinterview!My biggest fear is that she'll give me some bad news. What if thefirst doctor missed something that she'll pick up? Something terrible?Next fear: The bad news goes in the chart and to the insurancecompany, affecting how I'm viewed in the future.Next fear: I'll emotionally fall apart. I discovered that she islisted as one of the top 100 doctors in my large metro area (mycurrent rheumy is not) in a magazine poll.What if she's kind and gentle and sensitive and I just lose it?I haven't had my "I don't want this condition" cry yet. It's coming.What if she, like the first rheumy, seems threatened by someone whocomes in with lab reports under her arm and a list of intelligentquestions?Whew! On the flip side, I have hopes:Hope that she'll be a wonderful help to meHope that she'll be kind and respectful, enabling me to better acceptthe conditionHope that she'll have insights that the other doc did notGuess that's it for now. I feel better; thanks! (I'll let you knowhow it goes.)Sierra Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 9, 2004 Report Share Posted January 9, 2004 Best of luck Sierra. Jay > Hello, > Tomorrow I meet a rheumy who may win the honor of being selected as > my new rheumatologist:) I did not forward any medical records to her > yet, but will be bringing copies of my last two lab tests as well as > the historical " first lab " (the worst) from 1999. I have written down > my Rx history. I have spent some time collecting my thoughts. I am > nervous! You'd think this was a hot date or an important job > interview! > > My biggest fear is that she'll give me some bad news. What if the > first doctor missed something that she'll pick up? Something terrible? > > Next fear: The bad news goes in the chart and to the insurance > company, affecting how I'm viewed in the future. > > Next fear: I'll emotionally fall apart. I discovered that she is > listed as one of the top 100 doctors in my large metro area (my > current rheumy is not) in a magazine poll. > What if she's kind and gentle and sensitive and I just lose it? > I haven't had my " I don't want this condition " cry yet. It's coming. > > What if she, like the first rheumy, seems threatened by someone who > comes in with lab reports under her arm and a list of intelligent > questions? > > Whew! On the flip side, I have hopes: > > Hope that she'll be a wonderful help to me > Hope that she'll be kind and respectful, enabling me to better accept > the condition > Hope that she'll have insights that the other doc did not > > Guess that's it for now. I feel better; thanks! (I'll let you know > how it goes.) > > Sierra Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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