Re: For --and Susi--Long-sorry! :(

[Guest guest]

Susi!

Thankyou for sharing that with the Board..

It is a Similar Thing that happened to me..I had Post natal

Depression

with my 1st child---Oh! They called it the Blues--But at 6 weeks old

I

had her looked at Becaused I was sure The Gas men Had abused her--Go

Figure! You would have thought the doctors would have Sussed

something

wrong then heh?

When was 10 months old I found I was Pregnant with

vanessa,and

so Had The Most Peculiar pregnancies ever--In My Opinion..

When V was Born--I had a Marvellous Home Birth BTW!...So! again I

got-- " You had a Great Birth why are you Blue? " Mentality, off

everyone---But I spiralled,down ,down!

Luckily! I had a Good Health Visitor-and Espescially a GREAT

Partner..And I got help--

Skip 7 years---I decided to Quit smoking--as You all Know I did this

and have been Off cigs for almost 3 years Now---

BUT! -My Hubbie--didn't really want me too-as I got so Darn

Nasty...

Bear with me--I am Getting there--It is relevant! Honest!

Anyway! I QUIT---JUST LIKE THAT--NO Supplements or Patches--Just That

is IT-I Am NO LONGER A smoker!

it was HELL--For all---That was In the July of 97--By the August-I

had

Ballooned 15 lbs--and felt so ill---Off to the Doctors--And he Put Me

On Anti-Depressants...and put on a Further 28lbs

Now! I too---am VERY Good at My Job-I am A CATERING MANAGER IN

Education,and Had Struggled to " Get My Authority " over these women

who

had been there so long--MY Assistant Cook Is My Pre-descessors

Daughter and For some reason had ASSUMED She would get this

Job---so I had To win her over as well..and she is a STRONG

Charcter.

But! I got the Respect and didn't want to lose it

I felt If They Knew I was Depressed they would USE It against Me--I

was Extremely Paranoid,And although at Home My Life was In

Tatters...I

don't know how we all Stayed together--At work I was Strong and

composed and ALLTOGETHER!!!

I WAS FRIGHTENED To be off sick though!

By The January of 98--i FELL Big time--I had been having Wierd

paranoid Illusions for a while,and Had taken to Writing to a guy in

Amsterdam,where I had Expressed my Thoughts on Life--

that This life was an Existence and that Only when we died did LIFE

Really

Begin--That all the suffering we had to endure was Gods Test to

Decide

our worthiness--and so On--

I won't Bore you with anymore..anyway!

was Driving me to work one day-and we Got within 2 miles of

work when

i

suddenly couldn't do it--I literally Said-Stop the car-I cannot go-I

cannot cope anymore..and he Turned around and Took Me Home and to the

Doctors.

Other Incidents Involved the Day I Got him to stop the car In The

Town--Dark night,Raining and windy and I Just got out and

walked--Don't know where to---all Because The Children were talking

too Loudly--Depression seems to Amplify Noise with me!

another time--Crossing a Carriageway--I deliberatly Slowed down

hoping

the Oncome Car would hit us all--Yes! We were all in the car--I feel

Ashamed now But at the time I wanted out so bad and That Big car gave

me the answer--- Pulled the wheel!

There were Lots of other silly Incidents too

I worry what affect it all had On and sooo Much!

anyway! What I am Trying to get to-is this---It took a While-

stood by me,and What we figured was that i had never got over the

Post

natal Depression i HAD--7-8 Years Before..

Of course we only know this Now as I am Off Tablets and Better---

Don't get me wrong--a couple of incedents happened late last Year and

I look back and Think-- " Woh! was I WITH It?? " LOL

But on the whole--You get there..

as for Jobs---I applied for one not so Lonhg ago--But withdrew my

application at the last Minute--Why?

Well! The Job involved More Pay---I could use It,But It also Involved

a Move--further to Travel,even More Responsibility,and More Hours...

I sat Down and Concluded--quite quickly-That I would have to Trade a

Job where I LOVE Going to--

where I Bloom and Encourage all around me to Blossom,

where we are--Apart from the odd Snag--a great team and GOOD

friends-They have helped so Much at Times lately,

I would have to spend less time with my family.

Leave my 2 Girls to get to school on thier own,

I would be tired and so Less Patient---

and all for what???

More Money and More Respect in the long run?

Likewise--When My Husband Had the chance to " download " his Job--I/2

hours But 1/2 Pay---I encouraged it,so That we see each other More as

a Family--we have struggled Financially-But we Just Got used to Being

less Extravegant

I have no Doubt--Some will think I Lacked Confidence...to NOT Go for

the Job....But I feel God Gave me a Long Drawn Out Miserable

Depression so that I would appriciate More My Family,My Children and

My Health....

I would be TOTALLY Miserable without Money,But ebing that " down "

taught me,and it seems Lots Of Others to Look at what I had and not

get Greedy for more..

I also Know Someone-Who didn't quite Recognise the Syptoms--didn't

have such an Obserband-and she Ended u In a Phyciatric Unit,diagnosed

Bi-Polar.

she Is a Mess most of the time,as She still Tries to Deny it and

Messes with her Medication.

It is a Frightening Testimony of the 20th Century I think.

My Sister is Schizophrenic/Manic Depressive

and over here--The " Care In the Community " System--i.e close the

Wards

and Intergrate into society More--has Led to alot of people NOT

Getting the help they Need...

Anyway! Oh! I am Sorry! I didn't mean to Write so Much...But! AMANDA!

The grass Isn't always Greener...and susi! Thankyou for reminding me

of How far I have come---

Sure I will alwys have to Watch My Self--and tend to Worry It is "

coming back! " Too quickly! But! I quit smoking-I got ill-I got

better--I kick Butt and I tae-bo and apart from This Little Bit of

Raynauds I am Medication Free....

God Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot Change,

Courage to change Those things I can,

And wisdom to know the differance.

God Bless

Janet

BTW! says I am More like The girl he married NOW Than in the

last 14 years--

Apparently I was a sad Moody and angry person for so Long!

and very Soon--I will have the Bod to match!

Life IS SO GOOD!

In tae-bo_onegroups, " Susi " <susifloozi@a...> wrote:

> ,

>

> Sorry it has taken me so long to reply to your post, but there is

> something I wanted to share with you and I haven't had the time to

> put it into words until now.

>

> Most of you already know this, but for those of you who don't, I

was

> diagnosed with depression in February 1999. From the psychological

> testing I have undergone, it appears as though I actually had

> depression a lot longer than any doctor or therapist realized. One

> of the reasons that I think it went on so long undetected is

because

> I have a job that I am extremely good at, and that was one area of

my

> life where I felt confident in myself and good about myself.

> Whenever other things were going badly, I poured myself into my

work

> and kicked ass. I was able to shut out the other things that were

> going on.

>

> Well, that only works for so long. I thought I was " better "

because

> I was able to block out everything else and focus on my job. Last

> summer, I worked 30 days straight, travelling regularly and kicking

> butt. Eventually, I crashed. I pushed myself way too hard. I got

> worse and I didn't know how to fix it. In November, I ended up in

> the hospital because I didn't want to live anymore, but called 911

> before I did anything stupid. Since then, I've had to face a lot

of

> things about my life that I have been avoiding for a long time.

One

> of the things I have had to do is cut back on the work I do so I

can

> devote time to taking care of myself. I needed to figure out who

> Susi REALLY was deep down inside.

>

> I'm sort of going on and on, but what I am trying to say is this.

A

> person can have a great career, but that doesn't necessarily mean

> that their life is by any means complete. There are so many

> different facets of our lives that need attention, and we all may

> focus on different facets first.

>

> You have a husband and a family...those are two things I would LOVE

> to have. You are a fabulous person who brightens every one of my

> days. You work in a grocery store and have lost weight in the

> process!!! LOL...that's a HUGE accomplishment as far as I am

> concerned! You have done 5 DAYS straight of Advanced tapes! Be

> proud of yourself and who you are. The career will come in time.

>

> Susi

[Guest guest]

Susi!

Thankyou for sharing that with the Board..

It is a Similar Thing that happened to me..I had Post natal

Depression

with my 1st child---Oh! They called it the Blues--But at 6 weeks old

I

had her looked at Becaused I was sure The Gas men Had abused her--Go

Figure! You would have thought the doctors would have Sussed

something

wrong then heh?

When was 10 months old I found I was Pregnant with

vanessa,and

so Had The Most Peculiar pregnancies ever--In My Opinion..

When V was Born--I had a Marvellous Home Birth BTW!...So! again I

got-- " You had a Great Birth why are you Blue? " Mentality, off

everyone---But I spiralled,down ,down!

Luckily! I had a Good Health Visitor-and Espescially a GREAT

Partner..And I got help--

Skip 7 years---I decided to Quit smoking--as You all Know I did this

and have been Off cigs for almost 3 years Now---

BUT! -My Hubbie--didn't really want me too-as I got so Darn

Nasty...

Bear with me--I am Getting there--It is relevant! Honest!

Anyway! I QUIT---JUST LIKE THAT--NO Supplements or Patches--Just That

is IT-I Am NO LONGER A smoker!

it was HELL--For all---That was In the July of 97--By the August-I

had

Ballooned 15 lbs--and felt so ill---Off to the Doctors--And he Put Me

On Anti-Depressants...and put on a Further 28lbs

Now! I too---am VERY Good at My Job-I am A CATERING MANAGER IN

Education,and Had Struggled to " Get My Authority " over these women

who

had been there so long--MY Assistant Cook Is My Pre-descessors

Daughter and For some reason had ASSUMED She would get this

Job---so I had To win her over as well..and she is a STRONG

Charcter.

But! I got the Respect and didn't want to lose it

I felt If They Knew I was Depressed they would USE It against Me--I

was Extremely Paranoid,And although at Home My Life was In

Tatters...I

don't know how we all Stayed together--At work I was Strong and

composed and ALLTOGETHER!!!

I WAS FRIGHTENED To be off sick though!

By The January of 98--i FELL Big time--I had been having Wierd

paranoid Illusions for a while,and Had taken to Writing to a guy in

Amsterdam,where I had Expressed my Thoughts on Life--

that This life was an Existence and that Only when we died did LIFE

Really

Begin--That all the suffering we had to endure was Gods Test to

Decide

our worthiness--and so On--

I won't Bore you with anymore..anyway!

was Driving me to work one day-and we Got within 2 miles of

work when

i

suddenly couldn't do it--I literally Said-Stop the car-I cannot go-I

cannot cope anymore..and he Turned around and Took Me Home and to the

Doctors.

Other Incidents Involved the Day I Got him to stop the car In The

Town--Dark night,Raining and windy and I Just got out and

walked--Don't know where to---all Because The Children were talking

too Loudly--Depression seems to Amplify Noise with me!

another time--Crossing a Carriageway--I deliberatly Slowed down

hoping

the Oncome Car would hit us all--Yes! We were all in the car--I feel

Ashamed now But at the time I wanted out so bad and That Big car gave

me the answer--- Pulled the wheel!

There were Lots of other silly Incidents too

I worry what affect it all had On and sooo Much!

anyway! What I am Trying to get to-is this---It took a While-

stood by me,and What we figured was that i had never got over the

Post

natal Depression i HAD--7-8 Years Before..

Of course we only know this Now as I am Off Tablets and Better---

Don't get me wrong--a couple of incedents happened late last Year and

I look back and Think-- " Woh! was I WITH It?? " LOL

But on the whole--You get there..

as for Jobs---I applied for one not so Lonhg ago--But withdrew my

application at the last Minute--Why?

Well! The Job involved More Pay---I could use It,But It also Involved

a Move--further to Travel,even More Responsibility,and More Hours...

I sat Down and Concluded--quite quickly-That I would have to Trade a

Job where I LOVE Going to--

where I Bloom and Encourage all around me to Blossom,

where we are--Apart from the odd Snag--a great team and GOOD

friends-They have helped so Much at Times lately,

I would have to spend less time with my family.

Leave my 2 Girls to get to school on thier own,

I would be tired and so Less Patient---

and all for what???

More Money and More Respect in the long run?

Likewise--When My Husband Had the chance to " download " his Job--I/2

hours But 1/2 Pay---I encouraged it,so That we see each other More as

a Family--we have struggled Financially-But we Just Got used to Being

less Extravegant

I have no Doubt--Some will think I Lacked Confidence...to NOT Go for

the Job....But I feel God Gave me a Long Drawn Out Miserable

Depression so that I would appriciate More My Family,My Children and

My Health....

I would be TOTALLY Miserable without Money,But ebing that " down "

taught me,and it seems Lots Of Others to Look at what I had and not

get Greedy for more..

I also Know Someone-Who didn't quite Recognise the Syptoms--didn't

have such an Obserband-and she Ended u In a Phyciatric Unit,diagnosed

Bi-Polar.

she Is a Mess most of the time,as She still Tries to Deny it and

Messes with her Medication.

It is a Frightening Testimony of the 20th Century I think.

My Sister is Schizophrenic/Manic Depressive

and over here--The " Care In the Community " System--i.e close the

Wards

and Intergrate into society More--has Led to alot of people NOT

Getting the help they Need...

Anyway! Oh! I am Sorry! I didn't mean to Write so Much...But! AMANDA!

The grass Isn't always Greener...and susi! Thankyou for reminding me

of How far I have come---

Sure I will alwys have to Watch My Self--and tend to Worry It is "

coming back! " Too quickly! But! I quit smoking-I got ill-I got

better--I kick Butt and I tae-bo and apart from This Little Bit of

Raynauds I am Medication Free....

God Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot Change,

Courage to change Those things I can,

And wisdom to know the differance.

God Bless

Janet

BTW! says I am More like The girl he married NOW Than in the

last 14 years--

Apparently I was a sad Moody and angry person for so Long!

and very Soon--I will have the Bod to match!

Life IS SO GOOD!

In tae-bo_onegroups, " Susi " <susifloozi@a...> wrote:

> ,

>

> Sorry it has taken me so long to reply to your post, but there is

> something I wanted to share with you and I haven't had the time to

> put it into words until now.

>

> Most of you already know this, but for those of you who don't, I

was

> diagnosed with depression in February 1999. From the psychological

> testing I have undergone, it appears as though I actually had

> depression a lot longer than any doctor or therapist realized. One

> of the reasons that I think it went on so long undetected is

because

> I have a job that I am extremely good at, and that was one area of

my

> life where I felt confident in myself and good about myself.

> Whenever other things were going badly, I poured myself into my

work

> and kicked ass. I was able to shut out the other things that were

> going on.

>

> Well, that only works for so long. I thought I was " better "

because

> I was able to block out everything else and focus on my job. Last

> summer, I worked 30 days straight, travelling regularly and kicking

> butt. Eventually, I crashed. I pushed myself way too hard. I got

> worse and I didn't know how to fix it. In November, I ended up in

> the hospital because I didn't want to live anymore, but called 911

> before I did anything stupid. Since then, I've had to face a lot

of

> things about my life that I have been avoiding for a long time.

One

> of the things I have had to do is cut back on the work I do so I

can

> devote time to taking care of myself. I needed to figure out who

> Susi REALLY was deep down inside.

>

> I'm sort of going on and on, but what I am trying to say is this.

A

> person can have a great career, but that doesn't necessarily mean

> that their life is by any means complete. There are so many

> different facets of our lives that need attention, and we all may

> focus on different facets first.

>

> You have a husband and a family...those are two things I would LOVE

> to have. You are a fabulous person who brightens every one of my

> days. You work in a grocery store and have lost weight in the

> process!!! LOL...that's a HUGE accomplishment as far as I am

> concerned! You have done 5 DAYS straight of Advanced tapes! Be

> proud of yourself and who you are. The career will come in time.

>

> Susi

[Guest guest]

Thanks for sharing Janet. You are a true survivor. That husband of

yours sounds terrific. Welcome to the taebo depression group. There

are quite a few of us here, and some, like me, who will be on

antidepressants for life and are OK with that. I'm glad you are doing

so well. If you attack taebo like you attacked all of the problems in

your past, you will surely kick butt and have the body to show for it.

The girls may need some therapy some day, not just because of what

they've been through with you but also because depression runs in

families. Three of the 8 people in my family were or are on

antidepressants and have been or still are in therapy and there's 3

others who should have done one or the other or both, but probably never

will. Thanks again for sharing.

Elena

JBunny wrote:

>

> Susi!

> Thankyou for sharing that with the Board..

> It is a Similar Thing that happened to me..I had Post natal

> Depression

> with my 1st child---Oh! They called it the Blues--But at 6 weeks old

> I

> had her looked at Becaused I was sure The Gas men Had abused her--Go

> Figure! You would have thought the doctors would have Sussed

> something

> wrong then heh?

> When was 10 months old I found I was Pregnant with

> vanessa,and

> so Had The Most Peculiar pregnancies ever--In My Opinion..

> When V was Born--I had a Marvellous Home Birth BTW!...So! again I

> got-- " You had a Great Birth why are you Blue? " Mentality, off

> everyone---But I spiralled,down ,down!

> Luckily! I had a Good Health Visitor-and Espescially a GREAT

> Partner..And I got help--

>

> Skip 7 years---I decided to Quit smoking--as You all Know I did this

> and have been Off cigs for almost 3 years Now---

> BUT! -My Hubbie--didn't really want me too-as I got so Darn

> Nasty...

> Bear with me--I am Getting there--It is relevant! Honest!

> Anyway! I QUIT---JUST LIKE THAT--NO Supplements or Patches--Just That

> is IT-I Am NO LONGER A smoker!

>

> it was HELL--For all---That was In the July of 97--By the August-I

> had

> Ballooned 15 lbs--and felt so ill---Off to the Doctors--And he Put Me

> On Anti-Depressants...and put on a Further 28lbs

>

> Now! I too---am VERY Good at My Job-I am A CATERING MANAGER IN

> Education,and Had Struggled to " Get My Authority " over these women

> who

> had been there so long--MY Assistant Cook Is My Pre-descessors

> Daughter and For some reason had ASSUMED She would get this

> Job---so I had To win her over as well..and she is a STRONG

> Charcter.

> But! I got the Respect and didn't want to lose it

> I felt If They Knew I was Depressed they would USE It against Me--I

> was Extremely Paranoid,And although at Home My Life was In

> Tatters...I

> don't know how we all Stayed together--At work I was Strong and

> composed and ALLTOGETHER!!!

> I WAS FRIGHTENED To be off sick though!

>

> By The January of 98--i FELL Big time--I had been having Wierd

> paranoid Illusions for a while,and Had taken to Writing to a guy in

> Amsterdam,where I had Expressed my Thoughts on Life--

> that This life was an Existence and that Only when we died did LIFE

> Really

> Begin--That all the suffering we had to endure was Gods Test to

> Decide

> our worthiness--and so On--

> I won't Bore you with anymore..anyway!

> was Driving me to work one day-and we Got within 2 miles of

> work when

> i

> suddenly couldn't do it--I literally Said-Stop the car-I cannot go-I

> cannot cope anymore..and he Turned around and Took Me Home and to the

> Doctors.

> Other Incidents Involved the Day I Got him to stop the car In The

> Town--Dark night,Raining and windy and I Just got out and

> walked--Don't know where to---all Because The Children were talking

> too Loudly--Depression seems to Amplify Noise with me!

> another time--Crossing a Carriageway--I deliberatly Slowed down

> hoping

> the Oncome Car would hit us all--Yes! We were all in the car--I feel

> Ashamed now But at the time I wanted out so bad and That Big car gave

> me the answer--- Pulled the wheel!

> There were Lots of other silly Incidents too

> I worry what affect it all had On and sooo Much!

>

> anyway! What I am Trying to get to-is this---It took a While-

> stood by me,and What we figured was that i had never got over the

> Post

> natal Depression i HAD--7-8 Years Before..

> Of course we only know this Now as I am Off Tablets and Better---

> Don't get me wrong--a couple of incedents happened late last Year and

> I look back and Think-- " Woh! was I WITH It?? " LOL

> But on the whole--You get there..

>

> as for Jobs---I applied for one not so Lonhg ago--But withdrew my

> application at the last Minute--Why?

> Well! The Job involved More Pay---I could use It,But It also Involved

> a Move--further to Travel,even More Responsibility,and More Hours...

> I sat Down and Concluded--quite quickly-That I would have to Trade a

> Job where I LOVE Going to--

> where I Bloom and Encourage all around me to Blossom,

> where we are--Apart from the odd Snag--a great team and GOOD

> friends-They have helped so Much at Times lately,

> I would have to spend less time with my family.

> Leave my 2 Girls to get to school on thier own,

> I would be tired and so Less Patient---

> and all for what???

> More Money and More Respect in the long run?

>

> Likewise--When My Husband Had the chance to " download " his Job--I/2

> hours But 1/2 Pay---I encouraged it,so That we see each other More as

> a Family--we have struggled Financially-But we Just Got used to Being

> less Extravegant

>

> I have no Doubt--Some will think I Lacked Confidence...to NOT Go for

> the Job....But I feel God Gave me a Long Drawn Out Miserable

> Depression so that I would appriciate More My Family,My Children and

> My Health....

> I would be TOTALLY Miserable without Money,But ebing that " down "

> taught me,and it seems Lots Of Others to Look at what I had and not

> get Greedy for more..

>

> I also Know Someone-Who didn't quite Recognise the Syptoms--didn't

> have such an Obserband-and she Ended u In a Phyciatric Unit,diagnosed

> Bi-Polar.

> she Is a Mess most of the time,as She still Tries to Deny it and

> Messes with her Medication.

> It is a Frightening Testimony of the 20th Century I think.

> My Sister is Schizophrenic/Manic Depressive

> and over here--The " Care In the Community " System--i.e close the

> Wards

> and Intergrate into society More--has Led to alot of people NOT

> Getting the help they Need...

> Anyway! Oh! I am Sorry! I didn't mean to Write so Much...But! AMANDA!

> The grass Isn't always Greener...and susi! Thankyou for reminding me

> of How far I have come---

> Sure I will alwys have to Watch My Self--and tend to Worry It is "

> coming back! " Too quickly! But! I quit smoking-I got ill-I got

> better--I kick Butt and I tae-bo and apart from This Little Bit of

> Raynauds I am Medication Free....

>

> God Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot Change,

> Courage to change Those things I can,

> And wisdom to know the differance.

>

> God Bless

> Janet

> BTW! says I am More like The girl he married NOW Than in the

> last 14 years--

> Apparently I was a sad Moody and angry person for so Long!

> and very Soon--I will have the Bod to match!

> Life IS SO GOOD!

>

> In tae-bo_onegroups, " Susi " <susifloozi@a...> wrote:

> > ,

> >

> > Sorry it has taken me so long to reply to your post, but there is

> > something I wanted to share with you and I haven't had the time to

> > put it into words until now.

> >

> > Most of you already know this, but for those of you who don't, I

> was

> > diagnosed with depression in February 1999. From the psychological

> > testing I have undergone, it appears as though I actually had

> > depression a lot longer than any doctor or therapist realized. One

> > of the reasons that I think it went on so long undetected is

> because

> > I have a job that I am extremely good at, and that was one area of

> my

> > life where I felt confident in myself and good about myself.

> > Whenever other things were going badly, I poured myself into my

> work

> > and kicked ass. I was able to shut out the other things that were

> > going on.

> >

> > Well, that only works for so long. I thought I was " better "

> because

> > I was able to block out everything else and focus on my job. Last

> > summer, I worked 30 days straight, travelling regularly and kicking

> > butt. Eventually, I crashed. I pushed myself way too hard. I got

> > worse and I didn't know how to fix it. In November, I ended up in

> > the hospital because I didn't want to live anymore, but called 911

> > before I did anything stupid. Since then, I've had to face a lot

> of

> > things about my life that I have been avoiding for a long time.

> One

> > of the things I have had to do is cut back on the work I do so I

> can

> > devote time to taking care of myself. I needed to figure out who

> > Susi REALLY was deep down inside.

> >

> > I'm sort of going on and on, but what I am trying to say is this.

> A

> > person can have a great career, but that doesn't necessarily mean

> > that their life is by any means complete. There are so many

> > different facets of our lives that need attention, and we all may

> > focus on different facets first.

> >

> > You have a husband and a family...those are two things I would LOVE

> > to have. You are a fabulous person who brightens every one of my

> > days. You work in a grocery store and have lost weight in the

> > process!!! LOL...that's a HUGE accomplishment as far as I am

> > concerned! You have done 5 DAYS straight of Advanced tapes! Be

> > proud of yourself and who you are. The career will come in time.

> >

> > Susi

>

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> As Deb has said: " Fitness is a journey and it begins with the first step. "

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> God Bless

> Janet

> BTW! says I am More like The girl he married NOW Than in the

> last 14 years--

> Apparently I was a sad Moody and angry person for so Long!

> and very Soon--I will have the Bod to match!

> Life IS SO GOOD!

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Janet,

Thanks for sharing your story. You have been through so much and I am glad

that you are finally happy. You have a wonderful support system and

hopefully, you'll be able to talk to your daughters and will be able to

recognize any symptoms down the line and get them help if they need it. You

sound like one incredibly strong woman and I have no doubt that you will

achieve anything that you set your mind to!

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> I have no Doubt--Some will think I Lacked Confidence...to NOT Go

for

> the Job....But I feel God Gave me a Long Drawn Out Miserable

> Depression so that I would appriciate More My Family,My Children

and

> My Health....

> I would be TOTALLY Miserable without Money,But ebing that " down "

> taught me,and it seems Lots Of Others to Look at what I had and not

> get Greedy for more..

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Janet,

My mother feels the same way...that going through depression is a

life-changing even that will ultimately make you a better person.

She feels that everybody has something like that in her life...some

sort of difficult time (whether it be depression or something else)

that will challenge us. Congratulations on meeting and beating your

challenge.

Susi