Re: Reintroducing myself to the group

[Guest guest]

Awwwww, ((((Colleen and Jake)))). It always sucks when the OCD comes

back strong. Been there. The one thought that I've clung to in the

past when we've had a relapse, is that it got better before and it

will again. It just takes time. That waiting and trying different

things is awful though.

Is he on meds? As our son got bigger he needed to up his dose. Just

a thought.

BJ

>

> My name is Colleen. I am mom to Jake (OCD/GAD), age 10, and Ian,

> age 7.

>

> Jake has suffered from GAD for years, but the OCD didn't manifest

> until last January.

>

> Jake's main OCD struggle is the bad thought OCD.

>

> He entered an intensive outpatient program last January in

> Pittsburgh, PA. He was in the program through May.

>

> He struggled a tiny bit through May and early June, but the OCD

> really seemed to be in check toward Mid-May through the end of this

> December.

>

> He seemed to have some trouble with the thoughts right after

> Christmas. He said the voice in his head was saying mean things

> about him and other people. Then, the thoughts transferred to what

> he calls " inappropriate sexual thoughts " .

>

> This is exactly how everything started last year at this time.

>

> Then, this morning he told me that the voice in his head was telling

> him to do harmful things to others. He told me that he was doing

> his best to fight it back, but it really bothered/worried him.

>

> Just a little bit ago, I asked him how he was doing, and he opened

> up a bit about the harmful thoughts. He really struggled with

> telling me that the voice was telling him " kill " thoughts-

> especially about me.

>

> This is now exactly where we were last year.

>

> I am so heartbroken.

>

> I know that OCD waxes and wanes, but to be totally honest, I was

> hoping that I never had to hear my son tell me again that the bad

> thought OCD was telling him to kill me.

>

> Jake has seen a therapist once a week since his discharge from the

> program, so I called her this afternoon and left a message about all

> of this.

>

> I just needed to vent to someone who knows what I am going through.

>

> Thanks for listening.

>

[Guest guest]

Oh Colleen, I can imagine how hard this is, to " go back " after all

the progress!

Maybe with the knowledge that he got past this before, it'll help him

know he CAN again make progress and maybe it'll even be at a faster

pace. (we can all hope!)

My son (almost 19) struggles with scrupulosity/bad thoughts and it is

hard to watch/hear. For him, though, from his viewpoint, the OCD

just makes his thoughts worse/repetitive but the thoughts are " him. "

(anyway, long story)

Those " kill " thoughts must have been so horrifying to him when they

began -- can he handle/understand them better after all the

therapy/work, are they still as distressing to him (versus just he

hates them, depressed they're back sort of thing)?

I've been lucky in that I have always had a " bit of OCD " but can

shrug off thoughts, compulsions, never has gotten out of control

(cross fingers, knock on wood!)

(((hugs)))

>

> My name is Colleen. I am mom to Jake (OCD/GAD), age 10, and Ian,

> age 7.

>

> Jake has suffered from GAD for years, but the OCD didn't manifest

> until last January.

>

> Jake's main OCD struggle is the bad thought OCD.

>

> He entered an intensive outpatient program last January in

> Pittsburgh, PA. He was in the program through May.

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Colleen

My heart goes out to you, because I feel that only a parent that has actually

experienced this nightmare truly knows how you feel. My ds(6) has the " bad

thoughts " also. I swear, with everything I have gone through with my kids, these

" thoughts " are the worst nightmare imaginable.

Is he on any meds?

Hugs

Judy

[Guest guest]

Click on edit membership and try choosing " digest " version to receive

emails, then you will only get one email. To unsubscribe post to

Louis Harkins the question, I'm not sure how you do this.

Barb

> >

> > My name is Colleen. I am mom to Jake (OCD/GAD), age 10, and Ian,

> > age 7.

> >

> > Jake has suffered from GAD for years, but the OCD didn't manifest

> > until last January.

> >

> > Jake's main OCD struggle is the bad thought OCD.

> >

> > He entered an intensive outpatient program last January in

> > Pittsburgh, PA. He was in the program through May.

> >

> > He struggled a tiny bit through May and early June, but the OCD

> > really seemed to be in check toward Mid-May through the end of

this

> > December.

> >

> > He seemed to have some trouble with the thoughts right after

> > Christmas. He said the voice in his head was saying mean things

> > about him and other people. Then, the thoughts transferred to

what

> > he calls " inappropriate sexual thoughts " .

> >

> > This is exactly how everything started last year at this time.

> >

> > Then, this morning he told me that the voice in his head was

> telling

> > him to do harmful things to others. He told me that he was doing

> > his best to fight it back, but it really bothered/worried him.

> >

> > Just a little bit ago, I asked him how he was doing, and he

opened

> > up a bit about the harmful thoughts. He really struggled with

> > telling me that the voice was telling him " kill " thoughts-

> > especially about me.

> >

> > This is now exactly where we were last year.

> >

> > I am so heartbroken.

> >

> > I know that OCD waxes and wanes, but to be totally honest, I was

> > hoping that I never had to hear my son tell me again that the bad

> > thought OCD was telling him to kill me.

> >

> > Jake has seen a therapist once a week since his discharge from

the

> > program, so I called her this afternoon and left a message about

> all

> > of this.

> >

> > I just needed to vent to someone who knows what I am going

> through.

> >

> > Thanks for listening.

> >

>

>

>

>

>

>

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