Buying Knickers

[Guest guest]

Dear Shelagh,

I'm so glad that you mentioned not buying any new clothes you might not wear

out. I would not buy myself anything, either. My question was, why would I

need new clothes? Some of my things were getting threadbare. I also went to my

hairdresser when no one was there (I called ahead to make sure) and we planned

my funeral. We just stood in the middle of the room and hugged each other and

bawled. I never stopped crying for 3 weeks. You don't want to believe this,

it's like someone has played a cruel hoax on you.

I love the story about the fish and the black lagoon. We need to be able to

laugh. Tears are healing, but not 24/7. I much prefer the laughter, it's

really good medicine. Haven't you ever heard the term " die laughing? " I love

to laugh and so does my sister. I tell her the same jokes all the time, but she

doesn't remember because she has Alzheimer's, but it's like a colonic cleansing

for her. When I talk to her the next day, she remember how much we laughed the

day before. I look at her and I am thankful I have CML. I still drive my car,

go shopping, cook a little, count out my own meds, read and pay my bills online.

She cannot do those things, so who is in a better place?

It sounds simple enough to take a pill or two every day, but what do you do when

the side effects come to the surface? I remember when I was on Gleevec, I was

so full of fluid, I dropped 40# immediately after getting off of it.

What do you do when little kids want to play with the water bags under your

eyes? Enjoy the day you are in for tomorrow it may change. What do you do when

you don't sleep nights or fall asleep the moment you pick up the newspaper.

Right now F8 is embedded in my forehead, but hopefully it will be gone by

tomorrow. LOL

Carpe Diem,

Lottie Duthu