Feeling stuck!

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Hey there!

I mostly lurk here, and the info is incredible, but I'm feeling pretty stuck

these days and

thought I'd see if anyone could offer some help.

I started BFL for the 2nd time last September - did the challenge then did a

second. I

started off at 190 lbs (not sure of bf% as I was too scared to look). I am

currently at 155

lbs and 30% bf% (my husband and I got our own calipers and did our bf%). I was

sure that

my bf% was lower and now I'm totally bummed. I don't feel like I look 30% bf,

as I'm

wearing size 6s and my size 8 jeans are a bit too big for me now (I'm 5'5 " ) I

would have

pegged me in the upper 20s maybe. Actually, I was inspired to get my bf% on my

own by

the postings here and by reading BFFM (which I loved and gave me lots of info).

I thought

I needed to make some adjustments since I've kinda plateaued for a while. I now

am in

the process of cleaning up my act, but, man oh man, do I feel discouraged!!!

I should also mention that my husband and I are trying to conceive and I could

possibly be

pregnant - but I just as easily could not. In that vein, my acupuncturist

started me on an

herbal progestrone since my luteal phase was too short and everything was

pointing

towards progestrone deficiency (I had a difficult miscarriage over a year ago

that was

probably low progestrone related). I don't know if that would have any effect

on my

weight loss, I sort of doubt it. I know that for a few weeks there I was

getting a little bit

sloppy foodwise.

My emotions are all over the place and that could be from feeling disappointed

at my bf%.

Too bad I didn't check it when I started as I'm sure I've made great progress.

But I so so

so feel stuck and am trying so hard to shift things around and make changes.

Last week I

ate so clean and not one pound was lost. Then I decided that this week I would

have no

full free day (I was going a little crazy there on free day), moniter my food

carefully and

ride my bike to the gym everyday as opposed to driving. I also do 3-5 dance

classes a

week so I stay pretty active. Plus, I have an active 5 year old that I

homeschool - so not

many opportunities to be sedentary for me : ). Yesterday I was trying to do a

1400 cal/day

low carb day a la bffm and towards the end of the day I was craving carbs and

had them.

And then I felt so guilty for not sticking to my plan : (!

I did my calculations and it looks like if I want to be at 20% bf, I need to

lose 20lbs of fat.

And that feels so hard for me right now. It hasn't always, and if I'd seen some

movement

on the scale in the last few weeks, I'd probably feel a little more optimistic.

I'm still doing

the HIIT and the pyramiding weights for ubwo and lbwo. I'm lifting heavy and

cardioing

hard. I'm active, I have my goals set out, need to work on affirmations and the

like, but

that's pretty familiar ground for me.

What am I doing wrong or what should I change?????

Please help!!!