Welcome to the new Family Members and an Update on me

[Guest guest]

Hello my family!

    Sorry I have been lurking for so long, it seems as though I am lost all the

time these days. Welcome to our many new family members and glad you

found us. my name is Tracilyn (aka: Nanabuggsomd) and I live in Southern

land. I am married as well I have 4 daughters and a grandbaby along with my

much lovedcats.We are all here to help when and where we can.

    As hard of a decision as it was for me this year, I am unable to attend

conference because my

eldest daughter is getting married that weekend, and I promised I would take the

grandbaby while they

go on their 3 day retreat post wedding.  And yes, I am so greatful her making

the passage from being my

daughter to being a the woman I know that she is and she marrying a wonderful

man in the end. His mom has MS so

Chantele and him can relate quite well on the home front of worrying about our

respective parents and their health.

    As of today, I have been in and out of the resort here locally for many

issues including having kidney stones and start of

kidney failure due to only having one that functions and the other just there

collecting blood flow. I go this week for

another IVP and CT to see if we can find a reason for developing problems or if

it is related to either being diabetic or medication(s)

that we might could change. The big thing I want to say is that if you develope

sudden unexplained back pain and urination issues,

do not do as I did and try to be " HE MAN OR SHE WOMAN " get to the doctor. I

tried the tried and true cranberry fix for nearly a week and resulted

in being put into the resort for several days. It's not worth it, especially if

you have known kidney issues or diabetic. That was the first time

in many months that my doctor actually was quite angry with me. 

    On other fronts relating to health, I also have started to see someone

regarding

the depression related to the chronic health issues, family and friend deaths,

" normal " life changes and what not that I could no longer deal with. The wake up

call came when we lost a member of our group and it hit home that I had problems

and remember feeling so alone and desparate for someone to

tell me that I would be okay and that I was not alone. But in the end, I

realized many things were weighing me down and now I see the light becoming

brighter each day. Reach out if you need don't be afraid to do so. Many of us

think, it is just a blue day and I will be fine tomorrow because we don't

want another problem or think it will just go away. It can and will weigh down

even your family members over a period of time. The ultimate loss will be

either your loved ones or yourself. Neither of which are good to have happen

especially if you had a strong family and hubby/boyfriend relationship before

you

were diagnosed.  IN THE END THE HELP IS THERE EITHER THROUGH THE GROUP OR YOUR

HEALTHCARE PROFESSIONAL!

I must sign off for now as it is time to get the girls ready for school and I

must go to class this morning myself. For all of you that have been with

me      

during my long semesters at college, I am set to graduate with honors on January

15, 2009. I am looking forward to that day, it has been a long time

in coming and I feel like I have accomplished something beyond my dreams.

Love and Always prayers,

Tracilyn