I WANT THE GROUP TO KNOW THE GROUP TO KNOW

[Guest guest]

went the nerologist today , there is a good chance that i have small

peripheral neuropathy, i did labs because it could be do to the

pacreatitus and poor absorbsion of vit,or maybe the onset of diabeties

or even do to hep. c. which i have anti bodies 4 but im not active,

bottom line is he told me that i have to face the fact that i will

probly never be pain free and the 2 spinal fusions have twisted and

messed my body up,my foot doc pretty much said the same thing, its

almost like telling u your life is fucked, sorry im just really

upset,so im glad i just read what u sent me because it was right on time.

there is more to my situation that i dont know if i mentioned, i want

the group to know this,

,I HAVE NOT INCULDED ALL THE INFORMATION OF MY LIVING SITUATION,THAT

HAS MUCH TO DO WITH MY HEALTH ,I FEEL STUCK, BAD RELATIONSHIP

ABUSIVE, VERBAL AND MENTAL GAMES HE MAKES ME FEEL GULTY. I AM A

CODEPENDENT, AND IVE BEEN DIOGNOSED,HE KNOWS THIS,HE TELLS ME IM A

JOB AND HE GOES TO WORK JUST TO FEED ME, NO LOVE NOTHING TO LOOK

FORWARD TOO,(HIS WORDS) PLUS HES GETTING SICK TRYING TO PULL OFF THE

WORKING AND TAKING CARE OF ME,MY 3 CATS AND MY DOG,( I DO AS MUCH AS I

CAN,)PLUS HE FEEDS ALL MY OUTSIDE CRITTERS,WITCH IS SOMETHING I LOVED

TO DO BUT CANT NOW .,HE THINKS(HE HAS MANAGED TO MAKE ME COMPLETELY

DEPENDENT ON HIM,MY FAULT) BY THRETENING TO LEAVE ID BE UNABLE TO

SURVIVE BUT IN TRUTH,IN MY HEART, I KNOW ID BE FREE,BUT I CANT LET

HIM GO ,TRYED AND IT TURNS INTO IVE USED HIM 4 ,7 YEARS ,, ITS TOXIC I

CANT FIGHT

ROOMMATE WHOS HOUSE I LIVE IN IS FIGHTING COLON AND LIVER CANCER, I

DONT PAY RENT BECAUSE I DONT BRING IN ENOUGH INCOME,

ILL LEAVE IT AT THAT, I TRUELY TRYING TO FOCUS ON HEALING MYSELF, BUT

MY MIND IS WORKING OVERTIME,TRYING TO USE ' " THE POWER OF NOW " BY

ECHART TOOLE, BUT ITS ALMOST LIKE I HAVE NO SKILL TO REMEMBER AND APPLY,

LOVE TO U.

LAURIE