Guest guest Posted May 30, 2008 Report Share Posted May 30, 2008 Thanks for you support and encouraging words I will make it. I have a feeling that this being sick with stills with me is going to bring out my true friends and family. Will see what happens. I talked to a lawyer today about my rights in case he does leave me. I also changed my Will today regarding the children that are not his bio children. I have been married before and I will be damed if I will be sick and skrewed in other ways im to smart this time around for that. Your love and friendships make me so happy thanks to you all Love you friend,  Ann Fultz Im at a really bad low in life         Does Stills bring on Depression?? Because I have to say when Im out of a flare its not as bad when I get a flare like I started 2 days ago all I want to do is cry and it takes everything out of me emotionally. I take Prozac and antianxiety meds daily well I only take the antianxiety as needed daily. but when im like this I have to take 2. I have always had emotional problems do to my past. I have always been on some kind of antidepressant for it but, I just feel like I'm slipping in a hole that I cant seem to get out of and when I do my husband will say something so mean and nasty that I just feel more worthless in every way. I sent him the email about how Nissa did better but not great after the show on mystery diagnosis and well he read that she works full time in the ER and wanted to know if I thought I could do that. I asked. " Do what? " Work full time. I felt like I was hit by a Mack TRUCK. I had a great job working like 10 hours a week and bringing home $325 and that was a great job with all kinds of extra incentives too. I hung on and hung on ill till I could hold on any longer from the Stills. I gave up the job in April and since applied for SSD. MY husband is very unhappy with me not working and its all on him and Im sure its a stress but I dont know what else to do. I wrote in my blog on Stills Web that my husband is very supportive. I laughed today when I read it because he was in the very beginning, even encouraged me to stop working. Now that reality kicked in he is not happy. I think its also because 2 of our kids is not his and he hates that he supports them as well. I get some support for them but its not much.Well I supported him many times when he was sitting around not working and drinking months on end *Trying* to find a job when he first moved to NY and I even paid his child support before we gained custody of his son who I since have adopted out of my own funds. Im sorry every one Im going on and on....I'm in pain physically and emotionally and I just know Im going to have to go back on the pred crap. I see my DR tonight at 8 pm maybe he has a plan for me to disappear some where on to a Stills Island where no one can hurt me lol! Wouldnt that be great! Depressed and feeling alone. Ann Fultz                                      _________________________________________________________________ Give to a good cause with every e-mail. Join the i知 Initiative from Microsoft. http://im.live.com/Messenger/IM/Join/Default.aspx?souce=EML_WL_ GoodCause Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 31, 2008 Report Share Posted May 31, 2008 glad to see ya did this and your right stills really lets US know who are real friends and caring family are. It still is so sad that some can not handle living with the idea of a family member with stills .I would hate to see what they would be like if they had to deal with what we do day in and day out. I will say I did not know my ex had a twin brother just like here LOL. the rednecks Marty & G. “Some men rob you with a six-gun - others with a fountain pen.” 7 days with out Jesus makes one weak Before giving someone a piece of mind be sure you have enough to spare! Buy a gun support the constitution and Piss off the liberals Gun control is a steady hand. Fight Socialism...Vote Republican we outlaw guns, only outlaws will have guns. Stills ; An illness I know to well! To learn about Stills http://www.stillsdisease.org/stills_info Re: Nissa Penland Thanks for you support and encouraging words I will make it. I have a feeling that this being sick with stills with me is going to bring out my true friends and family. Will see what happens. I talked to a lawyer today about my rights in case he does leave me. I also changed my Will today regarding the children that are not his bio children. I have been married before and I will be damed if I will be sick and skrewed in other ways im to smart this time around for that. Your love and friendships make me so happy thanks to you all Love you friend, Ann Fultz Recent Activity * 3 New Members * 5 New Photos * 1 New FilesVisit Your Group Meditation and Lovingkindness A Yahoo! Group to share and learn. Yahoo! Health Early Detection Know the symptoms of breast cancer. Yahoo! Groups Join a program to help you find balance in your life. .. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 31, 2008 Report Share Posted May 31, 2008 glad to see ya did this and your right stills really lets US know who are real friends and caring family are. It still is so sad that some can not handle living with the idea of a family member with stills .I would hate to see what they would be like if they had to deal with what we do day in and day out. I will say I did not know my ex had a twin brother just like here LOL. the rednecks Marty & G. “Some men rob you with a six-gun - others with a fountain pen.” 7 days with out Jesus makes one weak Before giving someone a piece of mind be sure you have enough to spare! Buy a gun support the constitution and Piss off the liberals Gun control is a steady hand. Fight Socialism...Vote Republican we outlaw guns, only outlaws will have guns. Stills ; An illness I know to well! To learn about Stills http://www.stillsdisease.org/stills_info Re: Nissa Penland Thanks for you support and encouraging words I will make it. I have a feeling that this being sick with stills with me is going to bring out my true friends and family. Will see what happens. I talked to a lawyer today about my rights in case he does leave me. I also changed my Will today regarding the children that are not his bio children. I have been married before and I will be damed if I will be sick and skrewed in other ways im to smart this time around for that. Your love and friendships make me so happy thanks to you all Love you friend, Ann Fultz Recent Activity * 3 New Members * 5 New Photos * 1 New FilesVisit Your Group Meditation and Lovingkindness A Yahoo! Group to share and learn. Yahoo! Health Early Detection Know the symptoms of breast cancer. Yahoo! Groups Join a program to help you find balance in your life. .. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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