Re: Please Help me before I fall...

[Guest guest]

C, I am new to this list and will leave spiritual advise to those here who are more experienced than I am. I strongly encourage you to talk to both your doctor and some type of therapist about what is going on with you emotionally. You don't need to go through all of this alone, and post-partum depression can be quite serious for some people. So please reach out to people such as your doctor and some type of therapist who  can help you through this difficult time.Sending you loving support,TammyOn Jul 3, 2007, at 12:11 PM, redheadparadis wrote:I'm not in a good place. I have a 4 week old newborn, I lost my mother in December from LMS and realizing she was the glue that held my family together. I am the oldest child and not doing well physically on many meds and depressed, anxious, sad, and mostly angry all of the time. I don't even feel like writing and I love to write. I just know I need help fast, and I am being drawn here for some reason and I need direction fast before I let go completely. I have a 14 year old going through divorce issues and teenage issues, as well as a an 11 year old son and I just can't do it all anymore.Help me, please I am going crazy.Credheadparadis

[Guest guest]

Dear C:

I'm new to the group but as a mother of 3 children myself I feel your

pain! It sounds to me that you are being bombarded physically and

emotionally! The death of your Mother, divorce, a new baby,

medications, raising a teen and preteen, and just life in general! No

wonder you feel like you are going crazy! Hormones could be a cause

as well. I had post partem depression after the birth of my youngest.

Everyday seemed like it lasted forever, I was so tired, so emotional,

so hopeless! Now that child is 18 and I can barely remember the place

I was in after his birth.

I was put on meds for depression and anxiety after my divorce and

honestly they messed me up even more then I was. Is there anyone you

can talk to like a minister or healthcare provider? I started going

to Unity church and the staff their was very helpful to me. I learned

how to use positive affirmations to get me out of my depression and

have used them every since. There may be a Unity church near you.

They have a prayer line if you'd rather keep it anonymous. I also

worked with Community Mental Health and regularly talked with a

counselor there for a long time. Their fees are determined by your

income.

I would also like you to know that I am sending you White Light and

LOVE! You will get through this and you and your children will be

stronger emotionally and have learned many lessons! I know it doesn't

seem like it now. Just take one hour at a time. Get as much rest as

you can, let things that don't matter go like dusting, vacuuming,

ect. Eat healthy, drink lots of water! Keep telling yourself, " I AM

healthy, happy, and whole! "

Much LOVE!

Sheila

>

>

> I'm not in a good place. I have a 4 week old newborn, I lost my

mother

> in December from LMS and realizing she was the glue that held my

family

> together. I am the oldest child and not doing well physically on

many

> meds and depressed, anxious, sad, and mostly angry all of the time.

I

> don't even feel like writing and I love to write. I just know I need

> help fast, and I am being drawn here for some reason and I need

> direction fast before I let go completely. I have a 14 year old

going

> through divorce issues and teenage issues, as well as a an 11 year

old

> son and I just can't do it all anymore.

>

> Help me, please I am going crazy.

>

> C

>

> redheadparadis@... <mailto:redheadparadis@...>

>

[Guest guest]

Remember that we are all connected. You are not alone. You have

come to the right place.

The compassion and love that is generated by the members of this

group is extraordinary. Know that you will be in the thoughts and

prayers of all that see your letter. Those of us that do energy work

will add you to their distant healing lists.

Please feel free to write Liane, Stefanie or myself privately if

there is a wish to discuss more in a less open way.

We are all connected. We care. We are here for you.

Metta,

Chris

>

>

> I'm not in a good place. I have a 4 week old newborn, I lost my

mother

> in December from LMS and realizing she was the glue that held my

family

> together. I am the oldest child and not doing well physically on

many

> meds and depressed, anxious, sad, and mostly angry all of the time.

I

> don't even feel like writing and I love to write. I just know I need

> help fast, and I am being drawn here for some reason and I need

> direction fast before I let go completely. I have a 14 year old

going

> through divorce issues and teenage issues, as well as a an 11 year

old

> son and I just can't do it all anymore.

>

> Help me, please I am going crazy.

>

> C

>

> redheadparadis@... <mailto:redheadparadis@...>

>

[Guest guest]

Please know that we are never given more than we can handle. I was in your shoes once. Not with the same problems but with physical, mental and emotional abuse from my husband for 28 years. And I did survive. My two daughters were also abused.

Tell yourself that you are a SURVIVOR no matter what life brings. I AM sending you Love and Healing Energy to help you deal with these things.

Love & Light, Marilyn

----- Original Message -----

From: redheadparadis

Sent: Tuesday, July 03, 2007 10:11 AM

Subject: [] Please Help me before I fall...

I'm not in a good place. I have a 4 week old newborn, I lost my mother in December from LMS and realizing she was the glue that held my family together. I am the oldest child and not doing well physically on many meds and depressed, anxious, sad, and mostly angry all of the time. I don't even feel like writing and I love to write. I just know I need help fast, and I am being drawn here for some reason and I need direction fast before I let go completely. I have a 14 year old going through divorce issues and teenage issues, as well as a an 11 year old son and I just can't do it all anymore.

Help me, please I am going crazy.

C

redheadparadis@...

[Guest guest]

Hello beautiful C,I don't have children. So the post depression of having a child I can't completely grasp. However, I have suffered depression most of my life, and was actually on medication for almost 3 years. I'm not a doctor, but when I was on them I felt stuck emotionally. I was able to cope with life, but I had a hard time moving on with things. I think the meds effected that for me. My personal opinion is that most meds do more harm than good. There's so many other ways to recover. That's my personal opinion. Do what you think is best for you, but try to be aware of yourself while you're taking them. It also sounds like you're just feeling overwhelmed emotionally. Everything has kind of lost its color for you. Here's something I encourage you to try. This is something that I have set up in my own house. I would find a small nook in your house. It could be a corner of your bedroom, or maybe even just a little quiet part of the living room. Just a small area. Decorate it with warm comforting colors. Put a pillow on the ground to sit on. Decorate the wall with positive affirmations like "I am a strong woman", "I love myself", etc.... Quotes, and even pictures and art that touches you. Make this a little place of quiet and serene (to the best of your ability) that you can visit and just be. This is your space, your refuge. You can grieve, or laugh, or meditate. Anything you want. This is your special place. Once you teach your mind that you're safe here, you will start to let go when you visit. You will naturally start releasing what you need to shed. Keep a notebook nearby to write down anything that comes to mind. Try to keep a clear open mind to any messages you might be receiving from your spirit guides. Sometimes they come in whispers, or it's a fleeting thought you catch and wonder "Where did THAT come from?". The hardest thing to do is to keep an open mind when you feel that the world is crashing in on you. Let your body and mind go through it's process. At the end of the day before you go to sleep remind yourself that no matter how hard the day has been you're still alive, and you still have choices. I love you, and wish you incredible light to penetrate your dark,Stefanie>> > I'm not in a good place. I have a 4 week old newborn, I lost my mother> in December from LMS and realizing she was the glue that held my family> together. I am the oldest child and not doing well physically on many> meds and depressed, anxious, sad, and mostly angry all of the time. I> don't even feel like writing and I love to write. I just know I need> help fast, and I am being drawn here for some reason and I need> direction fast before I let go completely. I have a 14 year old going> through divorce issues and teenage issues, as well as a an 11 year old> son and I just can't do it all anymore.> > Help me, please I am going crazy.> > C> > redheadparadis@... <mailto:redheadparadis@...>

[Guest guest]

Dear C,

I read your message and felt what courage it took for you to

post that you needed help..Many people would just suffer and possibly

have a turn for the worst but you were strong enough to share this

with me and I feel encouraged to help you for I see in you light. You

may be thinking, light? How does this woman see light? Sweet C, you

have just lost your mother, have a newborn child, a daughter whom

also needs you, your son whom needs you and so much on your own plate

but yet still rached out for help to me and all of your brothers and

sisters here!

I see that you take meds for various physical and emotional

challenges..I can relate to you on that part. I have Fibromyalgia and

Depression and it has been very ruff also. But what is important is

YOU! I feel it may be in your best interest, as another of the group

members said to talk with your doctor or visit your ER to gain some

assistance and advice on dealing with the many struggles you are

facing, dear. It seems you are very overwhelmed with so many things

happening at the same time and it is difficult to see an end to the

sadness and depression you feel. I also love to write and feel so

sad when I am so low that I cannot. I want to try to find some

amazing and magickal words to help you feel ok.

What I would like to say though is that I feel you are

defintiely NOT alone when you feel sad, depressed, anxious, don't do

the very things you love, don't feel motivated, many of us do, dear.

It is seeing that you are feeling depressed, knowing you are not

alone, We/I am here for you and my prayers are with you!! I am a

Budddhist, just beginning my learning of compassion and love...First

I have learned that loving myself is number one and when I get that

down, I can give so compassionately and lovingly to all. I will tell

you one thing my Dad always told me...No matter what anyone tells

you, even yourself, YOU ARE SPECIAL AND DESERVE HAPPINESS, it is NOT

selfish and I again will say you are in my prayers, dear! LUNA

[Guest guest]

Dear C,

our friends in here have shared some interesting ways and suggested routes for

you to

consider all done with the knowledge that yes we are all connected , we are like

pieces of

net and eachone of us are holding this net together, whether by sharing

knowledge or by

supporting each other before being able to share in the healing of all humanity

...

now to my share of friendly advise , please try to allow some time for your self

... you can

meditate in this time .. the more you feel you have things (thoughts, ideas,

etc) racing in

your mind you can plan to have someone babysit the kids and give your self some

time ..

silently meditating .. sometimes we don't get our cosmic guidance on the spot ,

but we

trust that it will come eventually .. but untill it comes you will feel peaceful

and stress free

... the more you do it the better really .. I don't claim to have went through

the same as you

did .. but I had my share really of things that I even felt that I was

collapsing my self .. it

was when I gave my self the opportunity to clear my mind with silence meditation

, I was

able to put my mind of rest as well as my heart from having to worry about what

Im

suppose to do .. or why did this happen to me anyway ,, or all sort of other

questions ..

I was able to clear my mind , and felt more able to cope with a fresh mind ..

able to have a

stress management tool at hand ..

some friends suggested that you seek a local circle of friends and do group

meditation

together and healing as well .. depression can be serious if we didn't act right

away .. if

you already have medications and having other alternative therapiess at the same

time ..

make sure to consult your doc before stopping those medications ..

if you find it hard to specify sometime for meditation ... you can try to do

that at night

before you go to sleep or try to wake up early before everyone and do it at dawn

time ..

you don't have to think or visualize anything just focus on your breathing and

try to

dismiss any thought that comes to your mind ... total silence ... think of

nothing at all ..

even if thoughts were trying to intrude on you while meditating .. acknowledge

it then

dismiss it as soon as you can .. to goto back to your meditation..

it was said by wise people .. that the best duration of meditation is a minute

per year of

your age .. lets say your 30 springs old .. then do a 30 minutes meditation ..

but in those

times of wanting more ... you can do as much as you want really there is no

limitation ..

until you feel the weight on your chest is lifted , then you can do it as you

like really ..

let me try to motivate you alittle in here .. when you do meditate enough , you

will remove

your own chest weight (stress) , this will bring abundance and sometimes it

might feel like

you are about to fly really , like a feather light body .. you will feel ecstasy

and joy ... this is

just something to look forward too .. just don't work on that too hard , try to

make it as

natural as you can .. please remember that when we work on our selves sometimes

stress

hold on our bodies and make us believe that we cant do it .. or its not working

... this is

just a message for us to do more .. and disregard what we might that comes as

this, and

when stress hold on our bodies .. the body actually resist change from happening

... just

let go and surf on the ride of change ... allow your self to relax ... allow

your self to be

healed .. and attract healing energies toward you ..

may your heart be blessed .. may your spirit become stronger , may you see the

light...

Love and peace

Sami

> C

[Guest guest]

I am new here also.I have 5 childer of my own three are grow now and

I know haw hard it is when you are raising them. You are going

through a lot in your live right now and you need some time to

regroup your self. if you need to talk we are here.

Love Always

Lynn

-- In , " Sheila " <specialeeffexx@...>

wrote:

>

> Dear C:

> I'm new to the group but as a mother of 3 children myself I feel

your

> pain! It sounds to me that you are being bombarded physically and

> emotionally! The death of your Mother, divorce, a new baby,

> medications, raising a teen and preteen, and just life in general!

No

> wonder you feel like you are going crazy! Hormones could be a cause

> as well. I had post partem depression after the birth of my

youngest.

> Everyday seemed like it lasted forever, I was so tired, so

emotional,

> so hopeless! Now that child is 18 and I can barely remember the

place

> I was in after his birth.

>

> I was put on meds for depression and anxiety after my divorce and

> honestly they messed me up even more then I was. Is there anyone

you

> can talk to like a minister or healthcare provider? I started going

> to Unity church and the staff their was very helpful to me. I

learned

> how to use positive affirmations to get me out of my depression and

> have used them every since. There may be a Unity church near you.

> They have a prayer line if you'd rather keep it anonymous. I also

> worked with Community Mental Health and regularly talked with a

> counselor there for a long time. Their fees are determined by your

> income.

>

> I would also like you to know that I am sending you White Light and

> LOVE! You will get through this and you and your children will be

> stronger emotionally and have learned many lessons! I know it

doesn't

> seem like it now. Just take one hour at a time. Get as much rest as

> you can, let things that don't matter go like dusting, vacuuming,

> ect. Eat healthy, drink lots of water! Keep telling yourself, " I AM

> healthy, happy, and whole! "

> Much LOVE!

> Sheila

>

>

>

> >

> >

> > I'm not in a good place. I have a 4 week old newborn, I lost my

> mother

> > in December from LMS and realizing she was the glue that held my

> family

> > together. I am the oldest child and not doing well physically on

> many

> > meds and depressed, anxious, sad, and mostly angry all of the

time.

> I

> > don't even feel like writing and I love to write. I just know I

need

> > help fast, and I am being drawn here for some reason and I need

> > direction fast before I let go completely. I have a 14 year old

> going

> > through divorce issues and teenage issues, as well as a an 11

year

> old

> > son and I just can't do it all anymore.

> >

> > Help me, please I am going crazy.

> >

> > C

> >

> > redheadparadis@ <mailto:redheadparadis@>

> >

>