-- OT 'If I Ever Leave This World Alive'

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Very sorry to hear about the loss of your friend..

Diane..42

Yeah, um this past Friday I was talking to (my best friend since

h.s.) on the phone and she tells me that (her brother) said Bill has

just died. I've known Bill or as we used to call him since I was like 3

or 4. He was only 23 and he'd shot himself. Though we think its over a

girl, no one knows what really happened. I've just come from the visiting

services with my Mom and I actually wasn't gonna go but I figured my Mom'd need

me, 'cause she always does. We saw people I've not seen since I was 7 or 8 and

it bothered me that I didn't even remember what he'd actually looked like

til we went to the casket (yes it was an open casket, don't ask I dunno

either). I remember running around with him, Jessie (his little sis), Casey

(his

big sis) and my little brother when we were kids but for the life of me I can't

remember much else. And that bothers me. I've accepted that I've lost my

childhood, in more ways than one, but I hate

that I can't remember them and the actual good times we did have. I don't

know, I just didn't want to upset my parents with this; they're already there

as it is so...Okay I'll shut up now.

: )

Dear ,

I am so sorry about the death of your friend. I do know exactly what you're

talking about - not remembering things.

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