Sights, smells, sounds and sensations

[Guest guest]

Dearest Ellen,

I'm posting this to the group because you have hit a chord that I experienced a

few times in my years of mental stress and anxiety. In the most severe of those

times and yes, for me, before a breakdown, I also had hightened senses of smell,

touch, sound. I'm not saying your going to have a breakdown just that I did

read a psychiatric article about this topic and it stated that very often in

times of stress and illness patients do experience this and it can also be very

detrimental especially if they grew up in industrial areas of smells that were

toxic, lets say, offensive and then those same smells as an adult can trigger

emotional responses. I hope I'm making sense as I want to. Please use those

hightened senses to your advantage by giving yourself the good senses of touch,

smell, sight and sound to soothe your injured body and " mother in law " soul and

the nasty ones as a warning of time to slow down and rest. All this is of

course my musings so please don't take any of it as gospel, yea right, like

anything I've ever said is gospel, lol.

And the self medication topic was the very one and I were discussing last

night. I don't want to wear my Nitro patch today because a terrible headache is

so hard to deal with when with his mother. Although sweet as can be, rather

clueless ya know? Makes me want to just be home and in bed and we are taking

her to the city for a friends day. I wish you luck dear.

Re: Serious Ultram possible problems - Tom and gang

Tom dear,

When you say you tell the doctors everything does that include things

such as stressers and the like? Reason being, we know stress can

trigger a flare of the joints, as well as, lack of sleep and now I'm

finding sounds and smells can bother me also. I try to decipher all

this myself, thinking perhaps, I'm just over sensative, over tired,

overwhelmed, over everything.

Example: I have to go to my mother in law today since I won't be

able to go tomorrow (Thank G-d); I will be working instead. My

mother in law and I do NOT get along but I must pay omage to the

Queen of Mean (a requirement) therefore, make the pilgrimage down

south and endure her harrassment for a few hours. The sad part is

I'm being kind, she's truly the embodiment of " hell " . I have

undescript pain - is that something you'd speak of in the doctor's

office?

By the way, the only time I " abuse " my hydrocodone is when I have to

see the MIL (mother in law). In otherwords, even if there is no pain

I'll still take one, just to make things more bareable. The drug

scares me for that reason alone and it's the only time I'll take it

even if I don't need it. Not something I enjoy doing but it's better

than chopping off the heads of people around me.

Take care and be well.

Ellen

[Guest guest]

My darling :

Thank you for your candor, I appreciate your honesty and worry. I'm

always quite concerned about my mental state of being so I'm in

constant check with myself.

I've been through many years of therapy and as I'm in grief

counseling as we speak but seem to be holding together quite well for

the most part. The only thing I can't seem to handle is the MIL but

the good news is that I'm not the only one. She's not very nice to

Rubin (our son), constantly talks about her other son, 's

brother, who is " successful " financially, married to a thin woman,

has two grown children that she basically ignored when they were

little, and have moved to a huge house AFTER their children went off

to college. She's a very monetary person, viewing only those with

possessions as rich and on her " level " .

Again, I'm using kind words to describe a woman (I think she's a

woman) with horrific morals and standards. She has no use for me,

never even tried to like me but used me for whatever purpose suited

her at the moment.

Normally, I'm able to adjust my attitude and aquire what I need to

get into someone's good graces (if you would), but there's no no

graces with this woman, there's no more trying to please her, there's

no more respect for my elder when it comes to her.

OK, that's enough heartburn for one day. I'm going to go drink some

seltzer, settle my stomach, and breathe for a few moments. I have to

let the negativity go.

Again, , thank you. I know I can always turn to you and

everyone else here for support, caring and love; you all have mine.

Take care and be well. Happy Mother's Day!

Ellen

[Guest guest]

My darling :

Thank you for your candor, I appreciate your honesty and worry. I'm

always quite concerned about my mental state of being so I'm in

constant check with myself.

I've been through many years of therapy and as I'm in grief

counseling as we speak but seem to be holding together quite well for

the most part. The only thing I can't seem to handle is the MIL but

the good news is that I'm not the only one. She's not very nice to

Rubin (our son), constantly talks about her other son, 's

brother, who is " successful " financially, married to a thin woman,

has two grown children that she basically ignored when they were

little, and have moved to a huge house AFTER their children went off

to college. She's a very monetary person, viewing only those with

possessions as rich and on her " level " .

Again, I'm using kind words to describe a woman (I think she's a

woman) with horrific morals and standards. She has no use for me,

never even tried to like me but used me for whatever purpose suited

her at the moment.

Normally, I'm able to adjust my attitude and aquire what I need to

get into someone's good graces (if you would), but there's no no

graces with this woman, there's no more trying to please her, there's

no more respect for my elder when it comes to her.

OK, that's enough heartburn for one day. I'm going to go drink some

seltzer, settle my stomach, and breathe for a few moments. I have to

let the negativity go.

Again, , thank you. I know I can always turn to you and

everyone else here for support, caring and love; you all have mine.

Take care and be well. Happy Mother's Day!

Ellen

[Guest guest]

My darling :

Thank you for your candor, I appreciate your honesty and worry. I'm

always quite concerned about my mental state of being so I'm in

constant check with myself.

I've been through many years of therapy and as I'm in grief

counseling as we speak but seem to be holding together quite well for

the most part. The only thing I can't seem to handle is the MIL but

the good news is that I'm not the only one. She's not very nice to

Rubin (our son), constantly talks about her other son, 's

brother, who is " successful " financially, married to a thin woman,

has two grown children that she basically ignored when they were

little, and have moved to a huge house AFTER their children went off

to college. She's a very monetary person, viewing only those with

possessions as rich and on her " level " .

Again, I'm using kind words to describe a woman (I think she's a

woman) with horrific morals and standards. She has no use for me,

never even tried to like me but used me for whatever purpose suited

her at the moment.

Normally, I'm able to adjust my attitude and aquire what I need to

get into someone's good graces (if you would), but there's no no

graces with this woman, there's no more trying to please her, there's

no more respect for my elder when it comes to her.

OK, that's enough heartburn for one day. I'm going to go drink some

seltzer, settle my stomach, and breathe for a few moments. I have to

let the negativity go.

Again, , thank you. I know I can always turn to you and

everyone else here for support, caring and love; you all have mine.

Take care and be well. Happy Mother's Day!

Ellen