==From the long winded redneck’s wisdom== Re: Halloween venting (I'm whiny today)

[Guest guest]

 I have an idea how you feel. my first year I had to give up all my hunting and

fishing some thing I did a lot of being it was only a 1/2 hour drive to some of

the best hunting and fishing in the country were I lived and I was a nut for it

.. Every year I did up the house for Christmas and I was the one that took my

kids around begging for candy LOL. All of that was gone. Fact is that whole

December I was not even home but out of state trying to find out what was going

on and why I was so sick and that was my Christmas present that year as I found

out I had stills then flew home dec 24th night and got to tell my family. Well

things did not get better and then two years later at Easter my ex pulled her

games on me and so my life with my kids ended or did it?

 My son and I have stayed close but yes I missed a lot of his and my daughters

first. but I was the one he turned to when he needed help and it was my home he

came to live in when he wanted to get his life on track so giving up some of the

things I did before was worth it to give him the tools and support he needed for

life as he will use them from now on the others just a memory more for me then

him of a single night day or even hour. My daughter I missed more first as she

was younger but at lest we are talking now and she is studying to become a nurse

and part of it is because of my stills that as she got older she looked in to

not buying what her mother was telling her. Again will the things I gave up be

worth it? we shale see but if her schooling ends up helping some one deal with

it because of what she dealt with and learned from it you bet ya it will have

been worth it. 

 Now that’s all about me now you. You still get time with them you still see

there smiles and feel there hugs even when they hurt them still feel well. your

there to encourage them and help them to understand that some days things just

can not always go how you want them to but that is life and living in a world

that will throw you a curve now and then learning lessons like that early is a

blessing that we some times do not look at . When we are forced to slow down we

some times only look at what we think we are missing not at what we are also

given. We are given time to enjoy simple things more a monument in time becomes

so much more meaningful. When we can do things the meaning of doing them is

greater then it used to be. now the other side is at first it seams to always be

hard as that is when we are learning and adjusting and trying to get our heads

and bodies around the changes taking place and the changes seam to out pace our

grasp on them but

as time marches on it gets better maybe not in how stills is or effects us but

in out how we deal with the good and bad days how we learn to work with in

limits that we hated before. How we do things slower and maybe start things

earlier. for my self I started to hut again but with friends now not alone as I

used to and I do fish now and then now when I do any of them because there so

few and far between they are much more meaning full to me and I have more fun .

I now fish less then ever in my life I have not hunted in years but on a

computer but I practice with targets with gun, archery and now have the joy of

also training new shooters to the sport my wife and her sons and soon my

granddaughter. I have a friend that has invited me to go this year on his family

land and he will do all the work and I do not even have to walk so I may go this

year. fishing I enjoy watching my wife fish and seeing the smile when she gets

one fact is I rather that them me

getting it as I get a picture and can look at it many times over remembering

that day instead of an old mans memory that details seem to slip away at times

so hard as it feels now it will get easier in many ways so hang on and never

give up you want and desire just rearrange it and learn how to work with it and

never stop learning how to do both

Hugs and understanding

 

 

the  rednecks

Marty & G.

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