Dear

[Guest guest]

Dear ,

Your story touched me as I went through a very similiar phase with my

former spouse. What I have never understood is that so many use

their children as pawns in a power struggle or as weapons to wound

their former spouse. They refuse to see that the ones most hurt by

this are their children. Our first duty as parents is to our

children. Ego should never interfer with this.

You are right. You need to forgive yourself so you can move past

this and grow. Have you seen the blog on the Humanity Healing

MySpace site?

Please feel free to contact me if you need to discuss this further or

would like some help with meditation techniques.

Metta,

Chris

>

>

> Hi, I'm going through some big challenges right now. It seems as if

> nothing is going right. Every time I start to feel better I get

knocked

> down. I'm not sure what is blocking the blessings but I feel as if

I'm

> in the black hole getting further and further sucked in. I do my

best

> to think positve and lately it's been difficult. I have this

feeling of

> wanting to hide cuz this blackness seems overwhelming. I currently

am

> going through many challenges in my life. Tryng to get back to

> meditation and it's hard. I feel as though nothing I do is right

and

> what is the point of being on this earth. My biggest challenge is

> losing custody of my children and now dealing with their dad.

> Everything he says/does triggors anger and the need to defend

myself.

> I'm at te point where I just don't know what to do. I pray daily

> sometimes hourly and it doesn't feel enough. I would like to know

how

> to let the darkness go so that there is room for the light. I need

to

> forgive mostly myself and don't know how to do that so that I can

really

> let go of the things holdin me prisoner. Thank you for listenting

>

> Blessings! ~A~

>

[Guest guest]

ty ty ty for the link....I'm heading there now! I bought this

expensive printer for photography prints and it sucks ink like my van

sucks gas (giggle).