I Find You There

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I Find You There

In the years now passed. (eternal it seems),

I walked my merciless journey

one heavy step at a time.

Cursing life for all of the profoundly simple words,

emotions,

and realities

which eluded me.

I was one with nothingness.

Becoming blind and hollow

because fate had never told me

or showed me

that you were always there-

yet destined not to be found because I would blink.

...I never knew.

I never imagined.

Today

my eyes are open.

My mind is clear,

and my bad dreams and tears are over,

for in today,

I can reflect back

and

I find you there.

Grand joy yet grand sadness.

Joy in that you are finially found.

I have pinched myself

and yes, I am awake!Yet I hold the sadness

in knowing

that your life until now

was a reflection on mine.

In our seperate worlds,

we unknowingly shared togetherness.

A oneness,

as you also were wandering lost.

Dreaming.

Crying.

Hoping.

Praying.

Today,

awake and alive,

in my morning coffee

or in my winter night's blanket

I find you there.

In every rainbow

and every redbird

which has held wishes

since the beginning of time,

I find you there.

The morning sun

with open arms,

giving warmth and light

to an otherwise dying world,

I find you there.

At night,

looking past the stars,

deep into the Heavens

which hold them

like bright dancing puppets,

I find you there.

Yet,

Within this splendor.

Within this joyous numbing awe.

This newfound/ first found life,

I catch myself blinking

and nervously ponder...

Are you meant

to find me here?

-Randy