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Hi my legs feel like they are 100lbs and are really sore, I have dishes to do

before I can make supper. I wish our roommate would do more around here as she

doesn't do much she goes in spurts at times she will do a lot then other times

she is lazy. I know I am lazy, but I have my sciatica hurting I cannot find

anything that helps the muscle relaxants don't help they just make my head spin,

I wish I could find something that would help. I tell the Dr and he doesn't

listen he says 'take the morphine pills and the muscles relaxants and anti-spasm

pills they will take the 'knots' out of your back' but they don't help! I am

feed up and with the meds it makes my stomach feel upset I am just tired of

being a experiment, he doesn't know what to give me as nothing helps. I wish he

would just send me to someone that could help but he doesn't do anything to do

anything that wants to do anything. I know if I could loose more weight it would

help but due to being on the meds I cannot lose weight and am always am tired. I

know I shouldn't complain there are ppl that are worse off than me this bugs me

that I feel sorry for myself when I see those ppl and knowing I am just wasting

my life as like today I feel rotten I haven't even gotten dressed I am still in

my jammies and it is 2:30pm I got up at 10am but haven't got the energy to do

anything else I just want to pull the blankets over my head and hide from the

world for a few days and let things go on without me but I cannot do it, I know

I need to get out and do something every day but it is an effort to get off the

lazy boy chair. Sorry to complain when there are others more ill than me I know

I should be turning more to the Lord but at times I wonder if He is watching or

does He have His answering machine on and forgets to check the messages! I am

really sorry to grumble I know if I have a down day like this then tomorrow will

be better. Later k