Guest guest Posted July 23, 2007 Report Share Posted July 23, 2007 , You are one amazing person...You really brought me into your world. I felt as if I was the one driving the car, looking for that destinaton but not knowing and realizing, after reading the end of your stories...You just amaze me still!!! You are such a wonderful person! I do believe, yes, everything does have a purpose as you so eloquently stated in your true story at the end that all of the circumstances in life do have a REAL purpose and reason, no matter if it is " good " or " bad " ... Thank you for reminding me! Namaste! LUNA > > ( A true story) > > > It's been more than 20 years ago now, when I had just left a > relationship, which hadn't worked out. > > We had actually tried to work it out several times, but we were just > very different in our thinking and ideas. We parted mutually, and on > friendly terms, so much so even that we both left our apartment, her > going to her mother's and me...well, we'll get to that. > > We left the apartment just as it was, fully furnished, fully as if we > were coming back, and knew we weren't. Except for some clothes, > everything else stayed. Furniture, tv's, personal effects... > > It was a time of self cleaning perhaps...none of it mattered, and we > welcomed each other to what they wanted...neither accepted...so it > all stayed. > > I spent the next few days at a motel simply not caring if I made > another choice or not. I pondered the different things I had tried, > mostly failed at in one way or another. I felt drained, alone, numb, > uninspired. > > I spent time in self reflection and even self hatred. I had millions > of ideas yet they seemed so void of life...not that I hadn't had some > successes, maybe alot looking back, certainly many after, but I > didn't care if I had another idea again, while pondering a new one, > something, anything. > > After a few days I left the motel...out of money, out of time...time > for what I didn't have a clue. I had one small backpack, those kind > you get in the military, with a few clothes. > > Talk about not having a clue...I didn't have the slightest idea about > what to do, where to go, what my plan was.....I had none....none > whatsoever. > > Oh, sure, there were places I could have went...friends, family, > relatives, etc... But it's like I was waiting for something. > > I found myself hours later on the interstate with my thumb out. Now > if you want to know what a fool is, stop sometime to pick up a hitch- > hiker and ask him where he's going. If his reply is, " I'm not > sure...I'll know when I'm there " . Run!!! Just kidding... > > I just went. Place to place, ride to ride. I stayed on the interstate > except to grab some sleep somewhere, anywhere, or to eat...somewhere. > > A little knack I'd picked up long before made it alittle easier. I > could approach a manager of a diner or at a motel and offer any kind > of work for a meal...for a room for the night to shower and get some > sleep...almost always worked well...Perhaps more than half the time, > they refused to hear of work/pay...more times than not I'd have an > entire menu dumped out on the table, providing more for later, even > money in the bottom of to go meals. Few nights were actually spent > out in the open, yet, there were enough of them > > Maybe six weeks into this listless going, I had about decided to try > heading to Hollywood...I had a brother there I hadn't really spoke to > in years but the last I had heard, he was somewhere in the 7000- 8000 > block of Hollywood Blvd. Even then, that information could have been > very outdated, as he moved often back and forth between California, > New York and England...he designed his own furniture as well as did > some acting, well, a certain kind of acting. But I had no clue if I'd > even run into him...but at least I'd picked a point to head for. > > It was about this time, I think it was outside of Flagstaff. I had > slept the night under a small bridge. It had started raining hard > late into the night and I still hadn't found an exit for a motel that > would exchange work, even for an early check out...lots of out of the > country owners run those places, enough said. > > I had just, at that moment, reached the interstate roadway when a car > pulled over to give me a ride. > > It was an older car, full of people. Now, I've had alot of rides and > some can be much better than others...I learned to read people fast. > > There was one woman, in her mid twenties, along with three kids, not > all that old. Also, there were three other guys, which it turns out > were all hitch-hiking, and she had picked them up along the way. > > The first thing ask me was " do you have any gas money, we're all > pitching in as we can " ? You can just about see my hand on the door > handle, already knowing I can not contribute to this request as much > as I would love to. > > I said how sorry I was that I didn't, I'd run out along time ago, but > they could help me if they could just put me out at the next exit at > least. > > She would hear none of that, just a friendly smile breaking across a > very pretty face hidden behind days of driving, decesions, stress and > more. " That's ok, we'll figure something out " , she said. Though I'm > not sure the other guys liked that much. > > My feeling over the next little while was she was wanting to start > dropping these guys off as close as she could to where they were > going but she needed this to happen faster...it ended up that one by > one they all were let off to grab other rides...they were feeling > they could do much better faster themselves than a woman trying to > figure out all the things she must have been thinking about right > then, her fuel situation, money and kids who were overheating , tired > and hungry. > > I didn't try to pry but let her know that whenever she needed to she > could let me off, or if there was anything I could do to help I > would, so much as it was. > > The next thing I know she's pulling into a shopping area beside a > truck stop. She had agreed to call some family back in regard to > getting some money wired to her so she could make it. > > Maybe it was her fatique. Maybe it was a feeling...she looked at me > and ask if I'd mind keeping an eye on her children, and if I did, > when she got the money, she'd get me further down the road. Needless > to say, I stayed. After all, where was I going anyway. > > It was hours before the money showed up and it wasn't even alot, but > it bought gas, got the kids fed, and feeling better. I had a coffee > forced on me because I refused a meal, knowing it might be the > difference in her getting to where she was going. > > Between the back and forth and waiting I had found out she had left > her husband...very bad situation and won't go into it...but was on > her way to Northern California, driving from, I think it was Ohio, > non-stop. She had left in the middle of the night. > > Now why she happened to be on the southern route instead of way north > was only contributed to have getting lost several times, mind lost in > so many thoughts. > > I took over the driving so she could sleep and on into the night we > went. > > It was sometime early in the morning, perhaps two, when we started to > enter " the grade " on I20. If you've driven to LA, from Palm Springs I > think it is, after you pass throught the wind farm there...you start > to desend from the high desert. It was about now that the car seemed > to be running faster, and faster, and faster still...it's like the > gas was being pressed to the floor more and more and more. > > Even as I started applying the brakes, it got faster. Now, going > somewhere in the neighborhood of 80 mph, I'm using my right foot to > try to feel out the pedal for maybe something caught on it, faster we > go...90...I'm pressing the brakes harder now...just a heaviness, > faster....96....the engine racing so loudly it wakes the rest up > wondering what's happening...faster still... 101....just topping the > last " hope " , the last and only, what you could say was the last > chance, before this road went down hill, literally, from " here " ...and > there would be no stopping this thing then. > > The weight of the heavy car, 106mph, the engine screaming and a grade > that makes the best very alert and riding their brakes....this was > it....... > > I pulled the shift out of drive, tried 3rd...nothing, 2nd, > nothing,...out of gear....the one place you don't want to be on a > grade... > > I put everything I had into that brake while at the same time easing > the emergency brake down while trying to make sure it didn't > catch...riding off the road, hoping for the gravel to do some > slowing.....and at that moment....at that crest...I got it to the > side at a " pull off " and slammed that thing into gear. > > How we stopped without going through the windshield, or worse, I'm > not sure....the motor still racing madly...I look around at everyone, > shaken, wide eyed.....SAFE. > > The engine wouldn't turn off so I got out and popped the hood...it > was dark...not a light, I couldn't see my hands it was that dark....I > felt around, feeling for the carburator, pulling back on the choke, > easily, effortlessly...it calmed down, till I let it go, grabbing it > again, I discovered the spring and a hooking link had vanished...it > was gone...nothing to hold it back. > > I felt my pockets, nothing, thinking, finally reaching down in front > of the car, the headlights no help...the grounds dark...I feel around > for something, anything. Finally, a piece of old wire. Fumbling > around I fashioned what I needed and connected it in place. It worked. > > I had to stand there, in front of the car for what seemed like > several minutes as the events of the past five or ten minutes rushed > into my being and tears exploded across my face, bursting out from > someplace so deep I can't describe it. > > For the first time since before I had left on this trip, I felt > something...and I felt it at it's ultimate force. That place that > there's no holding back any longer. > > Like a movie in fast forward I saw it all over again...and it fell on > me like a ton of bricks. Had I not been in this car at this time...I > came face to face with, not my mortality...I could of cared > less....but that of four people who sat just inside of this car. > > Did everything for the past few weeks, past few months, past few > years happen only to make sure I was here at this one moment....the > only one that really mattered at all? Had it been her driving... > > I climbed back into the car and made sure everyone was ok and as I > put it in gear to continue our trip, she reached over and put her > hand on my arm....and said, " I know who you are....I knew when I > picked you up...I know it now, and when you get back home, please > tell God Thank You " . Thank you. > > I didn't really know what to say then, as I drove the rest of the way > quietly...not realizing it but taking the freeway one way and then > the other, till I was out on Hollywood Blvd, driving down the whole > strip till I got a feeling a certain place would do. > > I got out and wished them a safe trip. I hugged them all and double > checked the linkage. They drove off to their new lives and hopefully > better circumstances. And as I turned and was about to decide what to > do then to see if my brother was even still here, in this big > city...there he was, one building over, four stories up, waving to me. > > DC c2007 > knightsintent > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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