Re: Re: dont agree/college

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Hi ,

I had a very hard time with college too and I failed a lot of classes, because I

refused to answer things the way the teachers wanted me to, if I disagreed with

them. I also was lousy at math. So, I did most of my college at a regular

university, but after failing math 3 times, because I freaked out when I had to

do my final and couldn't remember anything and so I didn't mark anything and got

an F on all my tests, I finally found an online school that did not require

tests. It is called AIU or American Intercontinental University Online. It only

took 11 months once I transfered my other classes and they never required speech

or tests of any sort. As long as I wrote essays and read the homework, I passed

the classes and I now finally have my degree. I left for college in 1998 and did

not finally graduate until 2007, but I am very glad that I did. So, if you don't

like speech, so what, they don't reguire it and they don't reguire tests either

and you do it

all from home at your own computer. It is spendy, but student loans and pel

grants consider it a fully accredited college and you get get scholarships and

financial help. It is great!

Esther

From: sondra <hfa2columbus (DOT) rr.com>

Subject: Re: dont agree

To: Autism_in_Girls@ yahoogroups. com

Date: Wednesday, September 3, 2008, 1:42 PM

jessica you life process mirrors of my own in many ways but the scary

man in the family of me was the maternal grandfather who was of also

a pedifile. He molested 3 of hims 4 daughters, he molested 21 of hims

grand daughters and was of raped of me and the one cousin of me but I

to lacked knowing this happened to this cousin until a year or two

ago. he did of this to foster girls and neightbor girls and no one

convicted of him and the mother and family protected of him instead

of the childrens to this family. the mother of me is of much ill in

her brain to let of this happen. she was of aware of it and not even

maked any attempt to protect of me and left of me in to the hands of

this monster often enough.

I to often had of anger to this for this because I to felt as if I to

suffered much because of it and for him he to lived of hims life to

the fullest because the family protected of him in this. the mother

never even had of a picture of me anywhere in her home but hads of

many of her father person sitting on expensive fancy like frames and

places. it shouted of to me my place in this world within the family

and outside of it. the church I to went to as a little girl many of

the pastors to know of it too and did nothing of this either. He to

often did of this crime to me because was of a perfect victim since

not had the ability in words to speak out and find help but it cycled

of me to crisis levels and severe SIB repetaedly which caused me to

be locked away from age of 13 to most of my teen and young adult life

into locked wards of the insitutional settings, being of restrained

and over medicated became of the only life i to had for many years

and the only people in the life of me were of severe mental

illnesses. they had of no child wards so often locked away to adult

wards. a cruel sick life that was of given me but i to comed to a

place where I to learned I to have of choices and can be of to be of

bitter to this all of life and stay locked into the state of never

recovering or can fight back and learn to turn it around to help of

others and so now I to speak of openly of all thngs in the life of

me. I to be of need to learn of boundaries of my words but lack how

to know which to keep fo silent to the thinking alone and which to to

let come to my lips or type out of my fingers as they dance on a key

board.

yes this is of why I to say if God picks of our parents then he must

be to not loved of me or cared for me and was of no more than the

birth family and for this I to say I to not agree. God did not pick

of any special parents for me but life gave of me to them, this is

where life shouild have malfunctioned and never let of me be of born

but because I to be of born anyways I to ahve t find ways to live of

hte life I to be fo given.

sondra