vibrations and SIB issues

[Guest guest]

cheryl, one things that comes to mind for me as well on vibrations is

of that my body is of always in a hyper reactive state and it causes

such anxiety in me that it causes the arm hairs to be up on my arms

and so I to find self rubbing my arms much into my clothes and such

to get the hairs to lay back down. but when I to do of swings or

vibrate or things of this the in put is of more powerful than my

current state that the powerful vibrate tends to numb the aneity

states within me. now this is of one cause. but then it is of also a

tingly tickly sensation and so it gives a powerful stimulations to

the body, for the mouth I to be to like of strong spicy foods and

will eat of them until the whole mouth, gums, tongue is of numb

inside of me. When my brain feels too cluttered the swing tends to

lull if you will the brain to a calm state. But I to have of off and

on stims much so to the mouth and chin areas of hitting, flicking and

or tapping the mouth areas of me when expected to sit for too long to

focus and or attend to an event or social setting.

One of the SIB things I to do and still do and need to learn to find

a differnet outlet to is I to pinch hard the inside of my upper

thighs and cause huge brusies and not aware of doing it but when

agitated have done of that as well as dig and scratch at pinch at the

skin of my arms when crosssing them frimly and feeling as if going to

go to a meltdown state soon if cant find an escape to get away. I to

also hit of the head with my right fist if really losing of control

and feeling overlwhelmed and or over loaded by inputs around me or

sudden change.

I to also have of one of thos vibrating pillows and have remved the

device that causes the vibrations and use that as a stim toy for self

when need of that in put but it is of adversive to my hands. Yet like

to mow of the grass because of the complete strong powerful

vibrations to my whole upper body and the deep pressure of pushing

the lawn mower helps of me but I to hate of the noise of them. but

after a short time it goes to a white noise and then numbs of my

hearing too from all the background noise.

but this is of just rambling of sharing from being triggered by the

words and concepts of vibrations and hammock like bed things. lastly

the grand mother of me as a child had of one of the older ones and

for me never could coordinate of the body to get on it because it

always flipped of me off of it.

sondra