Guest guest Posted January 11, 2008 Report Share Posted January 11, 2008 Dear MY Wonderful Stills Family, I am so sorry many of you have gotten bitten by the depression bug.(not quite as bad as the flu bug,but almost!) This has always been a hard time of year for me and it seems others feel the same way. My year has started off lousy and the way I feel now,I can't quite see the light at the end of the tunnel.I have been sick with my heart since the last couple of weeks in Dec. and a week ago I got food poisoning.After I got over the throwing up etc. I still felt awful and now besides thinking I was going to have a flare,I now worry that I will have another heart attack! I was feeling so sick, then I called my Rheumy who reminded me, that I had probably lost all of my potassium from being sick! duh! I have had trouble maintaining my potassium for a long time now,but of course I immediatly think the worst.When my potassium is low, the only thing that feels good is laying down.I hate it.The hardest thing is that I am still at one of my sister's.I was told that maybe if I do better this weel I can go home a week from today.My hubby is going up today to check pipes,get the mail etc.but I can't go,because the trip takes 4 hours and I'm not strong enough! I just want to pick up my dog (he's been with friends) and go home to my cottage and stare at Lake Huron.I miss my home my dog and my husband so much.Bill has to stay at my son's during the work week,it's closer to his office.Plus I get to feel like crap in the meantime.I pray for an early Spring (like next week) I want to plant flowers and walk in the water and feel human.I guess I just want to whine, that it's not fair.My sisters have been wonderful,but I need to be independent again.Sorry for being such a downer,I don't feel like I should say this stuff to my very caring,but not quite understanding family.I know they love me and think as long as I don't have to do anything but lay here and be taken care of I should be content to let them do everything for me.That is just not who I am or want to be.Thank you for listening,I just wonder why it isn't enough that I have Stills,I guess I just needed another reminder to slow down.lol love Elly P.S. Please stay as healthy as possible and I pray you pain is minimal. --------------------------------- Never miss a thing. Make Yahoo your homepage. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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