Thank you

[Guest guest]

Good mornning all fellow dragon slayers,

I would like to thank all of you for welcoming me into your community and your

lives. It is a great feeling to know I am not alone with this problem. I feel

really bad and feel blessed that my health has rebounded and hope all of you

that are not doing so wellkeep up the good fight and that maybe that will help

some of us down the road if our time of need comes to help slay the dragon a

little. It scares the hell out of me some of the drugs taht you guys have to

endure. I was on the Preds for a little while and was lucky to have no problems

weaning off of them. I have naproxen if I need it and this helps a little when

the joint pain kicks in. But I can deal with the joint pain because I have had

arthrirtis in my knees from the age of about 5 due to an accident when i was 4.

I played sports heavily all of my life and I sometimes wonder if the stress and

toll of all this on my body had anything to do with where I am at today?

You know when I think back to the last 3- 5 years I think a lot of things and

choices I have made in my life may have been a contributing factor.I am a

recovering gambler of 3 years now, I have not made a bet or played a machine in

just over 3 years. This almost cost me life and my marriage and kids, and led me

to make some bad choices that ended up with a criminal record.O think stress

palys a major role in how you deal and feel.

Just before I went into the hospital, I had a ot of stress, bills were piling

up, I suspected my wife was having an affair, and I was right, 1 week after

coming out of the hospital I found out she was having an affair with my brother

in law, my sisters husband. At the time it didn't hit me right away or I just

didn't have the strength to fight at that moment. I wasn't surprised at an

affair, I had put my wife through a lot the last few years, emotionally,

fiancially. It was the surprise that my brother-in law was the one! He was like

my best friend and I never would of thought this. MY wife and sister were best

friends.But i see him now for what he truly was, a scoundrel. He admitted to me

he used my situation, all my lying and problems to sieze the opportunity with my

wife at her most vulnerable.He used all my lies and secrets of the past to get

close to her. This blew my sister away as she was 6 months pregnant with their

3rs child when the affair started. My wife and I

reamin together, we have sought some counselling, and have committed to make a

go of it, We want to be a family with our 4 kids.Although my extended family is

destroyed as we and our kids were close and no longer have anything to do woth

each other.

Sorry for ranting about my personal life, my point was how much did stress

play a part in my breakdown? My doctor seems to think it may have progressed the

disease a ot faster than may have happened normally.

I have some problems remembering things now, and my memorey was always rock

solid. I am much moe emotional now and find myself breaking down in tears at

really silly things. I don't think my wife had ever seen me cry before.

I am so sorry for raving like a lunatic, this was suppose to be a simple thank

you for all being here and look where it has gone.

Thanx all for listening,

Mike

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