Re: Questions for Sondra

December 15, 2008

not have any memory of a fear of showers as a young child but as older

and or teen was to experience a shower and it hurt of my body to have

of the pwoerful feel of water pounding at me, but not know of why or

what happened but now take of showers okay and like of them, but still

cannot stand of the rain to hit of my skin at all as this causes of me

sensory overlaod and even now have of to have a very high motivator in

place for me to go out into the rain or sometimes can talk self into it

for a short time but usually get of strong negative moods later for it.

the only time i to take a bath now is if too cold and want of the body

of me to warm up or plan of to shave as cant shave standing up as not

coordinated to take one foot up as again lose cordinations of self and

tumble over.

about the bike, neverhad of a trike, did be of to have of a bike with

trainer like wheels as a kid but was not good at coordinating of self

to do that well. but as adult did learn of to ride a bike and then

forgot of how and for some reason could not balance of self and or get

of the bike to stay up right but then did of get a bike things that had

of a trailer things that you hooked to it, it was of like a stroller

things and so this helped of balance it out like traniner wheels but

again one summer with a friend found self doing the bike by self and

seemed able to do it and was happy in that but then it was of several

years since then to even be on a bike and so had of to relearn of it,

each time I to relearn of it , I to have of no sense of how to keep the

bike up as when I to try to peddle the bike slowly just falls over and

so cant know of how to keep it up right and such but then with a full

summer practice can ride of it but the next year my brain has of to

relearn of it. Not sure why my brain does not retain of the memory or

skill of bike riding so occasional will sahre here I to just learned to

ride of a bike and will feel happy to only lose it again.

with swimming never had of a lesson , I to just jumped in 12 foot of

water and did of a sloppy sort of doggie paddle and so learned to swim

with no training or learning of this. my learning of things is of so

very uneven some things that seems complex can be of easy for me and

things that others find easy is of hard. and things others have shared

to me once you learn a certain things you do not lose it but for me not

find that to be of true.

same goes with roller skating cant in line or ice skate but with much

practice can balance self to roller skate. but it isof rare for me to

do that now because fear of falling is of strong in me more so now than

for years but had of this same sense of falling as a child.

sondra

December 15, 2008

I to also will share at time my memory is of good and sometimes not

and or some times a memory will come to me of only one age areas and

the next time it will be of a same issues but older age group so

wanted of to clarify if things do not always seem consistent with my

response because one in the not too past accused of me of the lying

and so it might appear of that but it isof because of what age my

memroy is of reflecting from.

I to also found I to think it was here or Debi here teached me

the fibromyalgia can interfer with memory and while this is of not a

comfort it is of a better comfort than being of parkinsons and

alzheimers such as the birth mother of me has. her memory is of

severely impacted on some days and much clear on other days.

I to plan as i to shared will be of to try of to take of some video

things of the birth family of me soon because will go to the birth

fathers home for Christmas eve this year. the odd is that while is of

married to the step mom he is of also to invited of the birth mother

of me to hims home each year for christmas too. so it will be of hard

and yet will be of good to get of videos of her and hims and the

sister and brother of me and the two nephews who I to know are of

spectrum. the one will be of 4- or 5 and still says little to no

words and cries much and has of what is of termed flat affect. it

will be of interesting to see the gains or non gains he has maked

because the nephew is of in complete denial of him being of autism

but he is of much like of self at that age of being of a non talker

and having very little awareness and much anxiety. that was of last

year so interested to see of the changes, Hims brother is of much an

aspergers sort of profile.

sondra

December 15, 2008

Sondra,

I experience the same phenomena of rememberence....where at age 4 things were

one way and at age 30 things were different; however, where the time as present

is of stipulation to the current interpretation of both or either....having

autism is perspecitve and we can not choose interpretations...

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Subject: Re: Questions for Sondra

To: Autism_in_Girls

Date: Monday, December 15, 2008, 10:30 PM