Stuff...

[Guest guest]

Ok, new attempt at writing from the big ole monster computer in the

backroom. Now this this is like 900 years old...it runs on the " Merlin

Operating System " . And I'm pretty sure it's got " Dragon Inside "

processing. If it thinks too hard about something, this thing breathes

fire....I've seen it.

The latop, sniff, I've ran every scan and fix software ever designed,

had it in front of two tech's online, and went and " hen pecked " through

every file Windows decided to create...looking, for that one thing...the

THING, that would change the state it was in. [sniff]....and everytime I

came to a block, I'd have to shut down and start all over again.

It's actually been telling me on each boot up that I had better back

things up...over and over agin. It started even saying, " we mean

it " ...and even went so far as to yell to me these last few times, " we

said back up - failure is eminent " . I kid you not.

Restoe points don't work, files are corrupted, won't repair...can't burn

to disk to save at least some of my stuff...and my stuff insofar as the

laptop goes, has reached over 64 gigs. " No way " ...yes way.

I've even got a couple mindmapping projects for HH in there somewhere,

and looks like that's where they will stay.

Book chapters, articles, links to thousands of resources, website

productions....you name it...it's there.

I'm attempted a back up to xdrive online for some of it, but it doesn't

look good at the moment.

Go one step further, these newer computers, like the laptop and home

computer, both don't come with disk to reformat and start over...they

put that over on d: drive, for some strange reason. I did manage to copy

the home computer to disk, the d: drive package for later use, 18 disk

and 7 hours later...I at least have that set. But it does no good for

the laptop, whole different concept there.

Will it copy over from D: when I go to redo it? I can't be sure at this

point...it's wait and see. I can't copy D: to disk...nothing works, and

what does, takes a longgggggggggg time to do so.

I can't say I didn't try.....everything...I even made up stuff to

try...who is tech support to tell me it can't be done...lol.

Which kind brings me to this...

" Letting It All Go " . When something happens, that just throws a whole

big bag of monkey chi~ in your plans...you have to let it go. Well, no,

you don't have to I suppose. You can try...you can fight it...you can

rnt and rave...throw something...scream. But, just perhaps, it's better,

to just laugh your as~ off and " let it all go " . The truth, as I've begun

to see it is, you can just about expect something BIG is fixing to

happen....the universe stepped in and cleared your thinking, " your

stuff " ...so, whatever it is, could come in.

It may be hard to see when your right in the middle of " your

stuff " ...all swirling around you like caught in the middle of a tornado,

trying to grab at it to take back some kind of control. But, maybe, it's

time, to just let it all go. And in that inflow of the space created,

your prepared to receive something even better.

Those people who are or who have experienced the great stroms know this

all too well... " it was all just stuff anyway " . What mattered

most....mattered then too...not the rest of it.

I've hed the experiences of two house fires, where everything was lost.

I've even walked away from a house full of stuff. It doesn't

matter....it's all stuff...the material stuff, and the other stuff. What

matters is sitting in your chair right now....that's it. That and where

you go with it now.

[sniff]....but I do miss that little laptop...[sniff]...I'll revive it,

create new life...springing forth new ideas and possibilities....and

maybe even, more stuff...

Love D~

[sniff]

if there are mispellings...blame the dragon...