Re: Another Answered Letter....

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Dearest , Thank you, dear for sharing this message..It really speaks to me about how you have a "heart of gold"...My Daddy always told me I had one and I truly feel you do also! A heart of gold in my humble opinion is someone whom is genuine and cares for themself first, not selfishly and cares so much for all others, regardless of whom they are. I believe there is no gender when I meet people... I believe as you do, we are all unique and special. Thank you again, my dear brother!

Namaste, LUNA <knightsintention@...> wrote: I'm going to do this again....I hope you don't mind......mail and an answer or two. With a few extras I hadn't expected to reveal, not yet anyway....these fingers are going to write me into an early......no wait....early done come and gone..... Why am I sharing my mail.....once again, I can't answer....... M>

wrote: Thanks for sharing this ! This was so me it is scarey. By the way did you know you resonate? You are one of Gods chosen ones! hugs, M Knights Intent <knightsintention > wrote: Resonate huh? ummm, shake, rattle and roll sometimes, lol, no, yes, that's been said a few times...not sure what it means, but it seems to be making some difference ....but then, I'm not doing it for me....I just do what "feels" to be what should be done at the time. Hopefully that will help others in this

journey. Thanks for your insight. D~ M-----wrote: Resonate maybe not the right word. I am one of your negative my space friends. Yes I belong to your page. There is a picture that draws me. It is in your photo album on my space. No not a stalker. It is a picture I believe of you and a dog. That is the picture that draws me. Would love to hear the story behind that picture. I am the MS M--- behind M--- and R--- on my space. R--- is in prison. We have been together almost 31 years. He is my best friend and my soul mate. I take him with me wherever I go even if I cannot do

it in the real world. He is sick. He is an inmate at the California Medical Facility it is a medical prison. As well as having a husband in prison I own 6 prison and have been an advocate for prisoners and ex-offenders for many many years. Why I tell you so you will know that I am not one of the enlightened ones nor am I a lightworker. I am just . Sharing this so maybe one day you will have extra time and share too. Resonate not the right word. From a Christian view point it is that feeling you get when you come in contact with someone who spends alot of time in God's presence. hugs, M--- Hi M---, Thank you for your email. Sorry if it has taken a little while to get to it, an d sometimes it does take time, as I like to try to answer them all. First, about the picture....it is a public domain picture

obtained from Google search, and has been a part of many bulletins. I liked it, as, one, it favored me more than not...and two, because I too have been out there on the streets, L.A. for one...and even the dof reminds me of one I had. The picture, very compelling. I found out this was actuallt taken somewhere in Canada by a lady photographer, although I don't have the details in front of me at the moment. Should you wish to find out more, Google "homeless", and click on photos at top instead of web...look for the picture, and when found, click on the link...it should lead you to the credit for the picture and the photogapher. I'm glad to have you on the list, group, whatever you'd like to call it. I don't see anything negative about any who appear there. All I see is people wanting to share, and sometimes it's not always bright or "light". Sometimes there's alot of pain, depression, fear, turmoil...it's all there. I too had my moments earlier on when my focus was more on, the greater world "reality", what was happening...where things were going. As time went on, I couldn't help but feel that, all I was really doing was feeling worse and worse....even contributing to the "shadow" of perceived misery. I know my temper was hotter, I stayed nervous, wondering if the world was just going to shut down any minute...shouldn't we all just head for the hills, or something. I didn't like that feeling. Even if I repeatedly shouted from every roof top, or blog, what was wrong in the world...it was me who was experiencing something I disliked very much. With an upbringing in the "christian" faith, with a twist, I had the "end time" senerios drilled into my mind from almost day one. It wasn't till about the age of 16, I decided enough...off I went. I went off and "experienced the world" and all it

had to offer. As someone who grew up receiving a "beating", on an almost daily basis, more times than not, just because I might have done something sinful...I can relate to aggression, pain, fear, hopelessness, survival, and a whole abundance of side issues. And when i say I was beaten...I'm not talking about a hand or a belt...I'm speaking of the entire hickory bush, handfuls of "switches" the size of your fingers...bundled together, more like...well, you see the picture. But one step further, there were cords, like the big orange extention cords...even rods. My brothers and I stood firmly still, without tears, while our entire backsides became shredded flesh, blood flowing like water. After all, you "minded" your parents...right...you stood still for it...endured it, least we not honor them. Ok, let me say, I said christian religion...it was alittle more...something like

christian, jewish, and 7th day all rolled into one. If you Google WWCG, The Painful Truth, Armstrong, and related, you'll understand what I mean...most have agreed it was a cult of mass preportions. I'll leave that there, where it belongs...I've move past that part of life...and only refer to it if I think it will help another. I detested anything that smelled of religion, or light, or God, or Jesus, or...you name it...it took years. And even then I was being drawn to "something". I did begin to study, read, absorb, anything but the bible, and mainstream religions. In each thing, I'd get to a point, where things just couldn't be put into a proper order of understanding, for me...so it would go to the "backburner". I had learned that, what I had trusted, believed, been taught....that authority, and law and way, met me at every step. After

all, I was always told that looking elsewhere was of "the devil"...I'd run into demons, into hell. If I could not trust what I was learning, out it went, and why, I suppose, that i studies so many differnt things. I still didn't come round very quickly...it still took along time. There were even points that i tried to "look back", and see if maybe I had missed anything...either in "that twisted religion", or in the more mainstream christian teaching....I found I couldn't do that. To do so meant I had to "tear it apart" and see what "made it tick". I've done that on many levels...I'm still doing it...for me...just for me...there are so many "missing pieces", and so many pieces that "can not possibly fit", so had to of been added, thus, distorted. I can not speak for anyone else's journey...I have only experienced my own, and all do. To sum it up,

I have found LOVE, and LIGHT, and sharing that in any way I can, is a much better feeling than I've ever known...it heals, it builds, it inspires, it gives hope, it gives possibility. I never fail to send love to everything that comes to my mind...evry person, every event, things on the news, the weather, those that are sick, those in pain...those seeking. Even if I failed miseribly to help anyone, I feel the love and loving thoughts I send, go beyond my perception, and power. I love from my deepest center, from my deepest state of being...I know what it is to feel what is not that. I have no blame for anyone....and I fought that for so long...I earned "this", I lived "it", I entertained my revengeful thoughts and held them inside...eating at me...until, finally...at some point....I just let them go...and.....I....cried them away for 3 days...it took that long to empty myself....and I was left

with....me now. I'm still making my mistakes...but their getting to be fewer...I let that go too. it's part of the learning. I stopped judging....I had been taught it; was the subject of it, saw it all around....I still find myself coming near such a thing, but try to be aware of it and stop....decernment, not judgement. I am sending you and yours love....you might call it praying....but I call it wrapping the whole thing in a blanket of love. Love "covers" everything...sickness, cell bars, those in "power", those near by...the heart of the "situations" and of the "beings" involved, all beat, at the core, with the same heartbeat. You seem to me to be a very strong woman...keeping busy with all that you do...expending your energy in such a way, I know it leaves you completely exhausted, even overwhelmed. I so too send you energy, to uplift, to

empower, to "lighten" your load. I read and posted a story earlier on that said something to the effect of: God heard you, he was really overwhemed with so many requests, and the angels are running at capicity...so, he ask that I drop in, just to let you know...."it's been taken care of". It is my understanding you may know exactly what that means. So, "Just M---", you are so much more than you realize, and you mean so much to so many. If you could see the interlinking vines of all of your actions, your contributions, your outpouring love.....as far as I can see.......it continues to grow beyond anything you can possibly imagine. Was that, a smile.............. With Much Love, Fussy? Opinionated? Impossible to please? Perfect. Join 's user panel and lay it on us. Ready for the edge of your seat? Check out tonight's top picks on TV.

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Thanks you Luna,

I wasn't even sure I was going to share that one....and after

re-reading it several times, I actually deleted it from HH, as it

didn't " vibrate " the same way it had when I posted it (thanks to those

who get it in their mailbox, it came back to life<wink>)....not even

being sure I had answered the letter in the correct way.

I think I was trying to show why I thought " being more of a light " was

the way to go, when in fact, that had not been my original route...at

least not in my mind. Showing others all the " crap " wrong with the

world, and everything else that went with it was my focus

then...perhaps that was it's own beginning light...to shine on what

was not light...but it didn't " feel good " .

I went on to try to show, in a " condensed way " , how I'd reached such a

position...perhaps, showing how we can change, as we learn.

I " thought " I had a lot of reasons to " blame " , and I wanted to go

after those of " like target " ...the authority, the ones in charge " ,

those who " inflicted lies and pain " . It took lots of work to " reframe "

my thinking.

On the inside, very deep, I was the way I am now...compassionate,

loving...he--, a push over. But near the surface...it was " give me

proof or get outta my way " .

She had mentioned she was one of the " unenlightened ones " , a negative

friend. No one with that much love and commitment, and drive, was

negative. I don't know that I expressed myself as I had meant to, it's

just the way it came out....trying to keep any negative notion on

myself in the writing, and uplifting, possibly, hers.

So, " Just M---, is not.....JUST...she's making a difference to a lot

of people, I wanted her to know that, even if I had to show here,

light sometimes comes out of the darkest places...hope springs from

where that flicker constantly burns.

And now, I have explained my explaining...and I stand confused....

There seems to be a lot of discussion about, not taking things

personally...I have pondered this. I don't take many things,

personally, anymore...yet...when it comes to another, who has sought

me out, for some reason, in some way...then it does become, personal.

They are bringing me, allowing me, to be in a place where possibly few

are allowed to penetrate...and, if I somehow miss the mark, fail to

elevate...fail to help, as I see and feel it, I do take it

personally...to the core. It is there any real power is tested and

revealed.

Like a doctor who does surgery, and misses something, overlooks, fails

to provide what he could have at the moment needed,,,,I'll show you a

person alone in his study with a stiff drink, and tears swelling up in

his heart....wondering, questioning, face to face with theirselves.

Personally? Yes, in my own learning and in doing this, towards the

service of others, there is no other way. It's all about getting

personal. [PERSON - ALL - Y ou].

Now, if I can just remember everything I just said.

> Resonate huh? ummm, shake, rattle and roll sometimes, lol, no,

yes, that's been said a few times...not sure what it means, but it

seems to be making some difference ....but then, I'm not doing it for

me....I just do what " feels " to be what should be done at the time.

Hopefully that will help others in this journey.

>

> Thanks for your insight.

>

> D~

>

>

>

>

> M-----wrote:

> Resonate maybe not the right word. I am one of your negative my

space friends. Yes I belong to your page. There is a picture that

draws me. It is in your photo album on my space. No not a stalker. It

is a picture I believe of you and a dog. That is the picture that

draws me. Would love to hear the story behind that picture.

> I am the MS M--- behind M--- and R--- on my space. R--- is in

prison. We have been together almost 31 years. He is my best friend

and my soul mate. I take him with me wherever I go even if I cannot do

it in the real world. He is sick. He is an inmate at the California

Medical Facility it is a medical prison. As well as having a husband

in prison I

> own 6 prison and have been an advocate for prisoners

and ex-offenders for many many years. Why I tell you so you will know

that I am not one of the enlightened ones nor am I a lightworker. I am

just . Sharing this so maybe one day you will have extra time and

share too. Resonate not the right word. From a Christian view point it

is that feeling you get when you come in contact with someone who

spends alot of time in God's presence.

> hugs,

> M---

>

>

>

>

> Hi M---,

>

> Thank you for your email. Sorry if it has taken a little while to

get to it, an d sometimes it does take time, as I like to try to

answer them all.

>

> First, about the picture....it is a public domain picture obtained

from Google search, and has been a part of many bulletins. I liked it,

as, one, it favored me more than not...and two, because I too have

been out there on the streets, L.A. for one...and even the dof reminds

me of one I had. The picture, very compelling. I found out this was

actuallt taken somewhere in Canada by a lady photographer, although I

don't have the details in front of me at the moment. Should you wish

to find out more, Google " homeless " , and click on photos at top

instead of web...look for the picture, and when found, click on the

link...it should lead you to the credit for the picture and the

photogapher.

>

> I'm glad to have you on the list, group, whatever you'd like to

call it. I don't see anything negative about any who appear there. All

I see is people wanting to share, and sometimes it's not always bright

or " light " . Sometimes there's alot of pain, depression, fear,

turmoil...it's all there.

>

> I too had my moments earlier on when my focus was more on, the

greater world " reality " , what was happening...where things were going.

As time went on, I couldn't help but feel that, all I was really doing

was feeling worse and worse....even contributing to the " shadow " of

perceived misery. I know my temper was hotter, I stayed nervous,

wondering if the world was just going to shut down any

minute...shouldn't we all just head for the hills, or something.

>

> I didn't like that feeling. Even if I repeatedly shouted from

every roof top, or blog, what was wrong in the world...it was me who

was experiencing something I disliked very much.

>

>

> With an upbringing in the " christian " faith, with a twist, I had

the " end time " senerios drilled into my mind from almost day one. It

wasn't till about the age of 16, I decided enough...off I went. I went

off and " experienced the world " and all it had to offer.

>

> As someone who grew up receiving a " beating " , on an almost daily

basis, more times than not, just because I might have done something

sinful...I can relate to aggression, pain, fear, hopelessness,

survival, and a whole abundance of side issues. And when i say I was

beaten...I'm not talking about a hand or a belt...I'm speaking of the

entire hickory bush, handfuls of " switches " the size of your

fingers...bundled together, more like...well, you see the picture. But

one step further, there were cords, like the big orange extention

cords...even rods.

>

> My brothers and I stood firmly still, without tears, while our

entire backsides became shredded flesh, blood flowing like water.

After all, you " minded " your parents...right...you stood still for

it...endured it, least we not honor them.

>

> Ok, let me say, I said christian religion...it was alittle

more...something like christian, jewish, and 7th day all rolled into

one. If you Google WWCG, The Painful Truth, Armstrong, and related,

you'll understand what I mean...most have agreed it was a cult of mass

preportions.

>

> I'll leave that there, where it belongs...I've move past that part

of life...and only refer to it if I think it will help another.

>

> I detested anything that smelled of religion, or light, or God, or

Jesus, or...you name it...it took years. And even then I was being

drawn to " something " .

>

> I did begin to study, read, absorb, anything but the bible, and

mainstream religions. In each thing, I'd get to a point, where things

just couldn't be put into a proper order of understanding, for me...so

it would go to the " backburner " .

>

> I had learned that, what I had trusted, believed, been

taught....that authority, and law and way, met me at every step. After

all, I was always told that looking elsewhere was of " the devil " ...I'd

run into demons, into hell.

>

> If I could not trust what I was learning, out it went, and why, I

suppose, that i studies so many differnt things.

>

> I still didn't come round very quickly...it still took along time.

There were even points that i tried to " look back " , and see if maybe I

had missed anything...either in " that twisted religion " , or in the

more mainstream christian teaching....I found I couldn't do that. To

do so meant I had to " tear it apart " and see what " made it tick " .

>

> I've done that on many levels...I'm still doing it...for me...just

for me...there are so many " missing pieces " , and so many pieces that

" can not possibly fit " , so had to of been added, thus, distorted.

>

> I can not speak for anyone else's journey...I have only

experienced my own, and all do. To sum it up, I have found LOVE, and

LIGHT, and sharing that in any way I can, is a much better feeling

than I've ever known...it heals, it builds, it inspires, it gives

hope, it gives possibility.

>

> I never fail to send love to everything that comes to my

mind...evry person, every event, things on the news, the weather,

those that are sick, those in pain...those seeking. Even if I failed

miseribly to help anyone, I feel the love and loving thoughts I send,

go beyond my perception, and power.

>

> I love from my deepest center, from my deepest state of being...I

know what it is to feel what is not that. I have no blame for

anyone....and I fought that for so long...I earned " this " , I lived

" it " , I entertained my revengeful thoughts and held them

inside...eating at me...until, finally...at some point....I just let

them go...and.....I....cried them away for 3 days...it took that long

to empty myself....and I was left with....me now.

>

> I'm still making my mistakes...but their getting to be fewer...I

let that go too. it's part of the learning.

>

> I stopped judging....I had been taught it; was the subject of it,

saw it all around....I still find myself coming near such a thing, but

try to be aware of it and stop....decernment, not judgement.

>

> I am sending you and yours love....you might call it

praying....but I call it wrapping the whole thing in a blanket of

love. Love " covers " everything...sickness, cell bars, those in

" power " , those near by...the heart of the " situations " and of the

" beings " involved, all beat, at the core, with the same heartbeat.

>

> You seem to me to be a very strong woman...keeping busy with all

that you do...expending your energy in such a way, I know it leaves

you completely exhausted, even overwhelmed. I so too send you energy,

to uplift, to empower, to " lighten " your load.

>

> I read and posted a story earlier on that said something to the

effect of: God heard you, he was really overwhemed with so many

requests, and the angels are running at capicity...so, he ask that I

drop in, just to let you know.... " it's been taken care of " . It is my

understanding you may know exactly what that means.

>

> So, " Just M--- " , you are so much more than you realize, and you

mean so much to so many. If you could see the interlinking vines of

all of your actions, your contributions, your outpouring love.....as

far as I can see.......it continues to grow beyond anything you can

possibly imagine.

>

> Was that, a smile..............

>

>

> With Much Love,

>

>

>

>

>

>

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