Cathy Re: How many parents still...

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they do be of to have of some tablets one chews and it sticks to the

plaque on the teeths. not sure of its safety as not aware of what

might be of in it but this might work to use if it is of safe and

have of the child brush until the pink is all gone. they do of this

at times to the dentist/ but for some they might like of this game.

some may not/

for those that are of new here. My name is of sondra and am of adult

with autism in the state of Ohio. I to be of mom to 4 teenagers and

young adults with aspergers syndrome. the oldest is of now 21 and the

youngest is of 15.

I to love animals and have of a dog, and two rabbits and a cat. but

my health and emotional states are of not well right now and so feel

it would be of best for me to find all homes for my pets except the

dog because she is of getting old she is of 9 years old now. and her

health too is not as good as it use to be. I to fear the day they

suggest of me to put of her to sleep because she has been of my furry

baby for much time now and a great source of comfort for me.

I to be of right now going to what the husband refers to a break down

and so it is of been not so good for me in my ability to function.

this happens too much for me and hate of it and lack why it happens

to me. I to just get of a sad and it gets stronger and stronger and

then cant seem to find any reasons or motivations to speak, connect

or be around the family of me and find self sleeping and laying in my

office isolating away. I to wish had of anwers to what triggers of

it and it causes me great scare and fears because do not have

supports. I to just end up crashing emotionally and it causes me to

not have a voice in what happens to me in such things as this.

inside what I to feel is of just my brain tingles and is of numb sort

of feeling and I to feel heavily sedated and not so not understand of

this. I to have of no energy to do even the basics of this of self

care and it just leaves me feeling as if the soul of me leaves and it

leaves of this empty body with no outlet for a voice except to tyoe

of them.

I to so much want a safe place and often shout to many of need to be

of in an independent living center or a group home where the care

will be of constant and can support me when I to need of it. when the

family of me does nothing it leaves me vulnerable to the crashes.

I to be of have of my grand baby here so she is of motivating me to

be up and connecting some just by her presense here. I to love of

that baby girl much so. she too has been of much sick off and on for

much of the month of november and spended of 8-9 hours in the ER with

her a few days back because they suspected of spinal menitgitis, then

it went to they found a mass they felt might be of a trapped areas of

infection between her esophugus and spine and then later found it to

be of very swollen nyph lodes and then they suspected of luekemia and

so they did of that and found of her to be of much anemic but that is

because the whole month she has been unable to eat much. she has run

of high fevers and not eating and then at one point much vomitting

and such, then she got better to only within 2 weeks get of sick

again. each time she gets of sick we see of her getting more and more

OCD and anxious and so worried much over this. it was of hard for me

to see of them papoose of her to boards to do IVs and a cat scan and

things that was of hard to hear her scream for us to help of her and

we could not.

then my youngest two are of causing me much stress over choices and

the husband being of non existent much of the time leaves me

vulnerable to much of this. I to be of just feel so much sad , fear

and angers to my soul right now even though the brain feels of tingly

and numb and heavily sedated. my body has no energy and to even walk

causes me great exhaustions.

sondra