Re: Judy-Barb

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Aaaaaw Judy, I'm so sorry. Spring really is a tough time for those

affected with mood disorders, I have been fighting through myself. I

can't imagine coping with the intensity of feeling at 11.

I feel like your daughter but am able to separate from the feelings

and remind myself I am not my feelings, but I am an adult with many

years of practice at it. Not sure if it would be of any help at all,

but you could try this approach. Kind of similar to the " it's not me

it's the ocd " separation.

I find it easier to separate from the depression and walk with it.

The manic side, or more mixed state stuff, which I find is more what

happens in spring with the increase of light, is the hardest and from

what I understand the time to be diligent, which I'm sure you already

know. I find I can't read, listen, process information without great

difficulty, and the mind can keep chewing away, no escape...

TV is the only thing that works for me, and I try to read to focus my

mind. Not sure how it is for your daughter. I wish I had answers

for you. It is so heartbreaking to see our kid's lives stolen and

watch them suffer so.

BIG HUG to you Judy!

Barb

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> Hi Barb,

> Yes, my dd's clonidine was added after the zoloft. It is an anti-

hypertensive. My daughter has always been agressive, usually more so

when the bipolar is acting up, like it is now.

> I agree with your post. My dd and son are so difficult to treat. My

dd has never been stabilized. She seems to be getting to that awful

point again where I think she needs hospitalization. I'm praying she

can pull herself out of this despair. I just went into the shower to

cry last night after she went to bed, looking at this beautiful

little 11 yr old girl(who looks 8) with tears rolling down ,her face,

saying she was weird and not normal and feels differently than other

kids. I don't understand how this beautiful, girl with big blue eyes

and long curly hair said she wasn't going to be around too long.The

way she was looking at me, like she was searching for an answer. I

feel like I'm going to be sick after what she said last night.

> I hate this depression and this ocd. It's stealing my little girl

from me! She was doing so well the past few weeks, than BAM!!!!!

> The last time I had to hospitalize her was in March also.

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> Thanks so much for your encouraging words, and humor! I think I

need to go into the " sobbing stage " now!

> Hugs to you!!!

> Take care!

> Judy

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