still feel like crap...wednesday.... (whine...sorry...)

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ok...I feel like crap!!!! (whining...)

my chest feels like an elephant landed on it and wont get off. If I

stay in bed or sit and doing nothing, I can breath without much

pain. If I get up to move around, do dishes, laundry, or any other

ordinary thing, the pain begins to increase slowly and my energy

level goes away.

Lifting up either arm, I can feel the tension/pressure/ache as if

the muscles have been strained with excersize. (but I havent done a

damn thing cuz I dont have any energy!)

I drove my friend to the doctor yesterday afternoon since she

couldnt drive and I had volunteered a month ago. While we were at

HER doc appt, our mutual friend called and told us she sprained her

ankle while working and needed to be picked up at the Urgent care.

The two of us finished up at the doc appt and went over to Urgent

care, where she was just getting called into the back. We decided

to go down the street to the Marine base and check out the

commissary while we were waiting. By this time I was feeling a bit

sharper pain while taking bigger breaths and feeling a bit drained

of energy. (I had stayed in bed all morning to store up energy)

We killed an hour at the commissary just checking out the prices of

things we would come back for next month. During that time, I

gradually became more and more uncomfortable with the pain,

breathing, and energy loss. It was such a major relief to sit down

in the designated smoking area so she could have a smoke! (I didnt

even care about the smell I was so worn out!) I felt so rediculous!

I can usually run laps around the commissary and this time I was

moving SLOW as a snail, stopping to 'look' at stuff.

We picked our friend up at Urgent Care (she was on crutches, had a

brace on her foot, and ibuprophen in hand) and made our way through

MAJOR 5pm traffic. As I drove 2 miles per hour on the Hwy

52 'parking lot', I kept shifting in my seat due to the constant

discomfort I was feeling.

It is just not something I can really discribe...pressure, tension,

aching...it was like the discomfort you get when you have been

driving for several hours straight and need to get off the road to

stretch out..but with breathing pain added.

Now...I am USED to severe pain. I am USED to being 'down' due to

the lower back problems. But this is rediculous! Even in pain I

have been able to do everyday 'normal' stuff. Last night, I had to

go to bed before the sun went down because I was so tired and

aching! I couldnt even get the clothes out of the dryer and fold

them. took them out, got his stuff for work, and I had him

pile it in a heep in the corner, to do today. (it is still there)

I hate this feeling!!! I cant DO anything! I have stayed in bed

all morning and still feel as if I have been doing a thousand chores

and need to sit down...ugh!

The worst part is the fact that I cant go to a doctor until NEXT

WEEK. I get to feel like total crap for another 5 days before I

will get into that clinic. And even then, no guarantee the Navy doc

will figure out what is going on.

sorry guys...had to vent. It is frustrating to feel helpless. I

have a life, things to do, people to see, stuff to accomplish!

Dammit!

Anne

in Santee