On A Serious Note...

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I'm making this a new thread and it may get deeper than any here wish it

would go. I've had it on my mind for a few days now and it has worked

it's way to the need to try to write it out. Some may not want to hear

it; some may take issue with at least some of it. Yet, I think it's

something that has to be brought up. What comes to mind, comes to be

healed, or, maybe to point the way towards it.

This was after the post about the 10 year olds who harmed the other

child. It brought to mind, many of the other crimes related to children,

that have come out over the years, and I break down. I take issue with

anything that involves a child, and you could say, if there's a deep

dark part of me, it must relate to such a thing.

I don't know about you, but first, when I was a kid, you learned certain

things, usually...regardless of how you learned it...and that was to be

respectful, be polite, be human; to respect life and living. And kids

prior to that in years past learned it even more so. There were lines

you didn't cross. I'm not entirely clear on what happened since, there

are many factors.

I hear so much crap about personal responsibility. Yes, we need to take

personal responsibility, but we also need to be aware of " root causes " .

Those should be the focus of energies, otherwise, the same problems will

continue to exist. A drinker should not drive after drinking. We know

this; the driver should have personally responsibility for their selves

and their actions, yet...in general, there is a deeper or root

problem..a gene? family history? a medical condition? Whatever it is,

it's there and that must be addressed, or the same results will always

be the issue.

Look, if I go find a snake infested swamp, and I decide I'm going to

destroy every snake I see, so I feel safe, secure, or whatever, how does

that make any sense? If that's what I'm addressing, then doesn't it make

more sense to go find the " den " , the " root " of where they come from? If

I go for this den, then, I have a greater possibility of " solving the

problem " for all time. There will still be snakes around, but as they

are addressed, the success I'm trying to achieve becomes greater, does

it not? Now, I apologize to snakes for using them in this example, but I

hope the point is becoming clear.

I have a beautiful wonderful daughter, as well as a few other kids. As

an extreme thinker, and even no different than a lot of parents would

think, I've let my mind go, to follow thoughts all the way through to

potential conclusions. This is what thinking is...you follow a line of

thinking until you do not wish it to go further, decide against a

possibility, and go with another line. This is how decisions are made.

Except, I sometimes follow them all, and then decide. It is better to

not do this. When you catch yourself where you don't want to be, back

out, and go with something else. After all, thoughts do begin

creating...while you have the power, uncreate anything that doesn't

follow with the best idea for you. And if need be simply say " clear " .

Clear that thought, that image or idea. We don't want to feed it.

Now...I will say " clear " here and now before I explain this next

thing...because I have followed the thinking, in grave detail. If you

have just eaten, you might wait to read it. I don't mention it now to

upset you... but to get to the next part, I must.

Early on, when I would hear the stories of children being harmed, my

anger went through the roof. My anger coming online is not something

anyone would want to be near. If I had a wellspring of internal power,

fed by many past harms and hurts, that must be what fed it, because let

me tell you...there's no power on earth that could go up against it...or

so the feeling goes. Many reading this know what I mean...everything

goes blank except what your feeling, and it may not even be related to

what's happening then.

When this rage hit, over a newscast...something I thought to be

completely beyond me..it was someone else, not close to home, I'd lose

it. Ever blow a hole in your tv set? I would follow my thoughts out. Had

it been my child, not any power that exist would have prevented me from

what would be the effect. The SOB responsible would find them selves

tied to a tree in the middle of some swamp...kelp alive for 3 days, all

the while, trimming up, joint by joint...having them experience what

real pain and horror was, until nothing but a living torso and head

remained to be left of the swamp to decide.

Shaken? It took me some time, but that line of thinking shook me too. I

didn't like it. It was not the kinds of thoughts I wanted, yet, every

time I heard about these things, there it was, to be redefined even

more, more detail, more substance...more hated. I knew there wasn't a

court, or judge or police on the planet I would have allowed to pull

their stupid b/s and get in my way, unless of course, they had decided

they were one and the same as the one I would be after, which they would

of been...get in my way.... " bye " .

It took a little while to understand how thoughts could draw the very

things I was creating in my mind...perhaps, by putting the thoughts out

there, I was creating it " into the collective " . I might have been

thinking it, and somewhere else, someone was acting on it, as if it was

their own thoughts, or feeding further what their thoughts may have

been.

As this began to dawn on me, I was using " clear " hot and

heavily...because the thoughts would still come " for feeding " . And the

more I seemed to be feeding them, the more I seemed to see more and more

of this stuff.

I began to shift my focus to questions of what people were doing these

things to children. Was it their own upbringings? If so, what would

cause it to become all this now? I had anger for a lot of things, but I

could never see myself doing such a thing. This may have been about the

same time I spanked my daughter for about the first and last time. I saw

that look in her eyes as if I had let her down, that look killed me. All

of a sudden I saw much of my childhood. After all, didn't all the kids

of my era get their a**'s beat almost everyday too? We turned out

alright didn't we? Didn't we? I don't think so.

These kids doing these things aren't doing them for a new kick...the

adults who are abusing aren't doing it just to have something to do.

There's a reason...maybe more than one...and it's not all personal

responsibility. There's taking it, for sure...but you still have to find

and go to the root cause or your wasting your time. I'm not saying that

we blame the parents, and the schools, and whatever else comes up. There

may need to be things addressed there, but that's not the root causes.

They will soon be killing the little man in Florida that molested and

buried the little girl there. Getting what he deserves right? Is he?

I've already told you what I would have done back then...killing

wouldn't have been good enough. What of the parents? You know their

hearts are ripped out at the core...the father went on to get a law

passed and spoke before congress, yet, how did he sit there in some

bogus court room and let others attend to this? Why wasn't he over those

chairs? There's a lot of questions.

Then you have the boys spoke of in the other post. Now they will be free

under new names to live their lives. While parents remain grief stricken

for the rest of theirs. The boys have committed the unpardonable sin?

Correct? The very fact they are still breathing is enough. Right? What

will they do now? et me tell you what might happen. The pressure, as

they mature will become to great to bare, and most likely, they will

become drunks, drug addicts, perhaps hurt a few others because of this

rage within, and sooner or later, kill themselves, if someone doesn't do

it for them.

Unless of course, they try to bypass that thinking, and want to find the

deeper cause...the root of how and why they did it to begin with. They

will never be free of the grief, or self hatred for the thing. Many will

say they have none, and that they are unable to feel. But let me ask you

this? Even on your worst day, your darkest hour, your angriest moment,

in your bitterest grief...what are you doing? Everyone feels...either

pain, or pleasure...there is no in between. There may be a mix of one

and the other but there is no in between. What do you do with feelings?

To move passed what you believe is painful, you might be willing to do

anything...even if it would bring more pain.

Let say I take over the world.....just suppose. What happens next? I

take down the corporate structure and do away with the b/s corporate

statues, the law. It serves no purpose whatsoever. Now what? Do things

change overnight now that everything is free...the people are free to

live their lives the way they see fit. No! I think that many things may

need to be done so that other things could be undone first. You wouldn't

need police of course. present day police are nothing short of corporate

security, protecting the property of the corporation, that would be you

too by the way. it is " law enforcement " ...you are secondary.

Do you remember " peace officers " ? They were there to " keep the peace " .

To help. They weren't there to arrest and harass you. They were like the

" parent figure " , or older sibling, to make sure no harm came to you,

otherwise, they were not really there.

You see, in a newer world, people wouldn't change overnight...a lot

would, yet, some would still do as they have always done, what they have

learned to do. Root causes didn't just go away. This is where what is

required is " loving understanding " . When you go to the hospital for

something like cancer...does the doctor go to slapping you all over the

place, letting you know what a piece of chit you are for having arrived

in this condition? Well???? Would it be closer to the truth that they

will run whatever test they need to, and look for....what????? A ROOT

CAUSE, while addressing the immediate concerns.

This is how the rest of the world would be. There's a lot of issues

needing addressed...and burying them in the graveyard or the prison

system won't ever change it....ever.

For those who may have suffered abuse at the hands of a husband, wife,

relative, parents, etc...when ever did threats and deterrents work?

When? If anything, it fueled anger and hatred within...it feed fear. It

did nothing else.

Somewhere in my childhood, I learned to respect people, elders, even the

" law " , although I took issue with anything that smelled of authority.

That to me equaled the license to inflict harm... " respect " ,

yes... " like " , hell no.

But it kelp me from going across some imaginary line. Somehow, that line

has been moved for some, those who do some of these things. That " stuff "

inside comes spilling out into the lives of others. If you go with the

thought that they choose to be here for that, to bring attention to

things for the rest of us, then by God, we need to get the messages

don't you think?

Well, this is not my problem, my issue, doesn't affect me, outside of my

sphere of existence....NO IT'S NOT. IF it comes to YOUR ATTENTION, it

comes to BE HEALED.

But how? That is the question, isn't it? How do I help? What can I do?

You can LOVE. It is what changes everything....EVERYTHING. I don't know

all the right answers, but I do know that if I send love directly into

it, I have done the most powerful thing I can RIGHT NOW.

I don't know what to say about the boys being set free to live their

lives...seemingly free from what they have been a part of...but I do

know I can choose to send them love, and to their entire situation, that

the loving, right things will come out of it. And, right now, that's all

I can do about it, unless of course, I want to revisit my swamp with the

issue and become angry...and feed the collective, which in turn feeds

more of it, somewhere.

And I can send love to the little boys family, to the parents, and into

their hearts. I have nothing but compassion for them...I feel and can

only imagine...and I am filled with extreme empathy and have to leave

that connection, else it consume me.

I must put love into it at the fullest measure I am capable of...the

universe has it's own plan at work here...I empower it with love.

Here it is, this new changing world...are you truly aware of it's

meaning? We are " becoming one " ...to become one on love and compassion.

This is complete healing. Would we leave some part of us to rot away,

cut off, unloved, and still expect to be whole? That's

impossible....THAT's IMPOSSIBLE! We have to come to a place where we

love every part pf ourselves. And if there is a part that ails us, we

must administer love...we must find the root causes and change it...love

it.

We're not there yet, but, we are trying....we are, right?

With Love,

D~