*Living Wide Awake And Conscious*

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*Living Wide Awake And Conscious* Living

wide awake and conscious is a goal that emanates from my soul. I didn't

listen to my soul's longing for over forty years. Now, I

simply can't or won't ignore it. If I lapse into hours or afternoons of

blindness I am only faced more dramatically with the realization that

numbly going through the motions is stifling. I crave

awareness, even when it costs me the security of my old paralyzing

behaviours. What I already know has provided me in the past with a

measure of comfort. Now even that has been lost to a new hope for a

more peaceful and harmonious existence. Like all human beings I began to learn from the moment of birth. I learned the warmth of a loving touch and the joy of a brilliant smile. I learned other things too. I learned what to be afraid of and what caused pain. I

developed my skills in speaking honestly and also in knowing how to

hide the truth. I learned to recognize acceptance, respect, nurturing

and compassion. There were also the lessons of mistrust, ridicule, loneliness and anger. Living in a conscious state means being aware of all these emotions. I

am awed by my ability to quickly recognize what I am really feeling -

even if I hold myself in a state of denial to avoid facing a truth.

I don't have to live this way. I could ignore the urgings to awaken and

explore each reaction that arises. Sometimes these feelings are easily

assimilated into my life. It's the times when I have to breathe through them that makes me want to run with lightening speed in another direction.

The choice to stand and be really in the moment is too powerful a pull

for me to walk away from. I suspect that to resist a conscious

awareness would be as difficult as it sometimes seems to embrace it.

The big difference - and the strongest reason I keep following this

path - is that the rewards are so empowering. Each time I stop, listen

and understand, I move forward in my life. Then something synchronistic always happens to give me a sign that I am where I am meant to be.So shadows or rainbows - come forth. I am ready, awake and willing. Love~All~Ways*~Karma*