Re: A Difficult Anniversary

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Carole my love, losing a child to murder is one of the most difficult tests in this world. I will send you as much energy as I can so that you may find peace, and be able to enjoy the beautiful memories of Christy without so much heartache attached. Remember that she loves you unconditionally. She watches over you with a smile and encouragement. She'll be with you during this time. Infinite love and release of the pain,Stefanie>> Dearest Friends,> I could use a little energy. October 17 is the second anniversary of > my daughter, Christy's murder. I'm having a diffiult time, especially > this year with my husband deployed over to Iraq. Christy was my > oldest child, and she was murdered by an ex boyfriend. I'm striving > to find peace with this. It's not been an easy journey. I'm growing > spiritually, but this one... it's taking a while. I know I'll > never "get over it," nor would I want to. I'd like to just gain more > inner peace.> Metta,> Carole>

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Thank you Sephanie. I knew I could bring this to our group. I

feel so loved and supported here. Yes, it's a difficult test to say

the least. I hold wonderful memories of Christy in my heart. I can

feel her watching over me. Thank you.

Love and Light,

Carole

--- In , " Stefanie " <diddiejar@...>

wrote:

>

> Carole my love, losing a child to murder is one of the most

difficult

> tests in this world. I will send you as much energy as I can so

that you

> may find peace, and be able to enjoy the beautiful memories of

Christy

> without so much heartache attached.

>

> Remember that she loves you unconditionally. She watches over you

with a

> smile and encouragement. She'll be with you during this time.

>

> Infinite love and release of the pain,

> Stefanie

>

>

>

> --- In , " Carole " <cbrum2005@>

wrote:

> >

> > Dearest Friends,

> > I could use a little energy. October 17 is the second

anniversary of

> > my daughter, Christy's murder. I'm having a diffiult time,

especially

> > this year with my husband deployed over to Iraq. Christy was my

> > oldest child, and she was murdered by an ex boyfriend. I'm

striving

> > to find peace with this. It's not been an easy journey. I'm

growing

> > spiritually, but this one... it's taking a while. I know I'll

> > never " get over it, " nor would I want to. I'd like to just gain

more

> > inner peace.

> > Metta,

> > Carole

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Good morning My lovely Carole,

I was sitting here , reading your message, and sincerely, my heart hurts. I have no words of comfort and yet, I want to much to embrace you and to hold you and say that everything will be fine, because we are here together. I can just give you this certainty, that we are united by our hearts , and our soul are connected in may different ways and in various levels.

As a mother my heart grieves with you, but as your soul sister, I just want to be here, sending you love and light, to be your strength and yoursafe place in such a painful time.

What can I say other then, I am here for you, and I humbly, at this very moment, I give you my only gift , my gift of tears.

May your heart be abundantly blessed , may your life be filled with many good things and with pure , most high love, my dear sister.i will be here, standing in prayers with you and for you, always, as long as you need it.

With deep respect for all THAT is.

Liane

> > >> > > Dearest Friends,> > > I could use a little energy. October 17 is the second > anniversary of> > > my daughter, Christy's murder. I'm having a diffiult time, > especially> > > this year with my husband deployed over to Iraq. Christy was my> > > oldest child, and she was murdered by an ex boyfriend. I'm > striving> > > to find peace with this. It's not been an easy journey. I'm > growing> > > spiritually, but this one... it's taking a while. I know I'll> > > never "get over it," nor would I want to. I'd like to just gain > more> > > inner peace.> > > Metta,> > > Carole> > >> >>

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My Dear Liane

I feel so loved and supported. Thank you for your prayers, support

and even tears. Although I didn't mean to make you cry. I guess

it's hard to read about a mother's pain without crying though. I

can feel the warmth and comfort coming from you and everyone else

that has responded . As I journey through this difficult time I

indeed feel comforted. I know my daughter is still with me in

spirit. I have grown so much since her death. Maybe it was a

divine lesson I had to learn. One I certainly didn't want to, but

have grown from.

Namaste,

Carole

> > > >

> > > > Dearest Friends,

> > > > I could use a little energy. October 17 is the second

> > anniversary of

> > > > my daughter, Christy's murder. I'm having a diffiult time,

> > especially

> > > > this year with my husband deployed over to Iraq. Christy was

my

> > > > oldest child, and she was murdered by an ex boyfriend. I'm

> > striving

> > > > to find peace with this. It's not been an easy journey. I'm

> > growing

> > > > spiritually, but this one... it's taking a while. I know I'll

> > > > never " get over it, " nor would I want to. I'd like to just

gain

> > more

> > > > inner peace.

> > > > Metta,

> > > > Carole

> > > >

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Dearest Beautiful Carole...I am so sorry, sweetheart. *warm hug of comfort* Please know I am sending you energy and love, along with prayers and love to and for Christy. Take such good care. Much Love & Light...Namaste. Much Metta.~Alison~Carole <cbrum2005@...> wrote: Dearest Friends, I could use a little energy. October 17 is the second anniversary of my daughter, Christy's murder. I'm having a diffiult time,

especially this year with my husband deployed over to Iraq. Christy was my oldest child, and she was murdered by an ex boyfriend. I'm striving to find peace with this. It's not been an easy journey. I'm growing spiritually, but this one... it's taking a while. I know I'll never "get over it," nor would I want to. I'd like to just gain more inner peace. Metta, Carole

[Guest guest]

Dear Carole,

Love & Blessings to you.

Namste,

Kanta

>

> Dearest Friends,

> I could use a little energy. October 17 is the second anniversary of

> my daughter, Christy's murder. I'm having a diffiult time,

especially

> this year with my husband deployed over to Iraq. Christy was my

> oldest child, and she was murdered by an ex boyfriend. I'm striving

> to find peace with this. It's not been an easy journey. I'm growing

> spiritually, but this one... it's taking a while. I know I'll

> never " get over it, " nor would I want to. I'd like to just gain more

> inner peace.

> Metta,

> Carole

>

[Guest guest]

Carole,

Sorry you're going through such a difficult time. I can't imagine

losing a loved one - especially so tragically. You are amazing strong

to have to deal with the loss of a child. My thoughts and prayers are

with you in this difficult time.

Love,

art4spirit wrote:

Dear Carole,

Love & Blessings to you.

Namste,

Kanta

>

> Dearest Friends,

> I could use a little energy. October 17 is the second anniversary

of

> my daughter, Christy's murder. I'm having a diffiult time,

especially

> this year with my husband deployed over to Iraq. Christy was my

> oldest child, and she was murdered by an ex boyfriend. I'm

striving

> to find peace with this. It's not been an easy journey. I'm

growing

> spiritually, but this one... it's taking a while. I know I'll

> never "get over it," nor would I want to. I'd like to just gain

more

> inner peace.

> Metta,

> Carole

>

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[Guest guest]

Christy is such a beautiful bright spirit! Carole my love, you and your daughter had a soul contract in this life. The experiences you both went through as she grew up were chosen for certain "reasons". Those specific experiences were something you both needed to experience. You chose each other so you could grow and ascend in a specific way. Before she was born she watched you grow up, and now that she's home again, she has the power to hold and protect you so much better than she ever could being on Earth. She will be there to greet you when it's your time to go home. She is with you very often, and shines her light to comfort you. You are very blessed, even though at times it might not feel that way. You are loved more than I think you're aware of. My deep love and ultimate respect for you and your strength.Stefanie> > > > >> > > > > Dearest Friends,> > > > > I could use a little energy. October 17 is the second> > > anniversary of> > > > > my daughter, Christy's murder. I'm having a diffiult time,> > > especially> > > > > this year with my husband deployed over to Iraq. Christy was > my> > > > > oldest child, and she was murdered by an ex boyfriend. I'm> > > striving> > > > > to find peace with this. It's not been an easy journey. I'm> > > growing> > > > > spiritually, but this one... it's taking a while. I know I'll> > > > > never "get over it," nor would I want to. I'd like to just > gain> > > more> > > > > inner peace.> > > > > Metta,> > > > > Carole> > > > >> > > >> > >> >>

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Sweet Carole,

As many of our lovely family have reached out to you with love

and hugs, so am I. I had a cousin murdered also, dear by an ex-

boyfriend a bit less than 3 years ago. I cannot imagine what you are

feeling or felt at the time for I do not have my own children. Some

humble words from a friend about such a loss of someone physically, for

she is, as Stefanie said, very much with you, dear through this time

which is difficult and is always with you. The words my friend said

about my loss that I feel humbly may resonate with you, my sweet,

lovely soul is this: " The pain never ceases but it does become more

tolerable "

As I read this, dear Carole, I think of my cousin, her name is

Dara. I feel that she and your daughter are in such a beautiful place,

truly and I feel the same as the lovely Liane and Ali and all the

family here when I say that I am truly here for you. To lose a loved

one in this way is horrible and so sad. I can give you my most warm

and heartfelt hugs and also I see a light in you, with the growing of

your spirituality. Take the time you need to heal from this. There is

no timeline for grieving. You are loved by all here in your family

here and by your sweet daughter, in my humble opinion. I will keep you

in my thoughts and prayers. Especially on your sad day, dear one! I

am sending you big hugs of love and light to you, my dear. Love, LUNA

>

> Dearest Friends,

> I could use a little energy. October 17 is the second anniversary of

> my daughter, Christy's murder. I'm having a diffiult time,

especially

> this year with my husband deployed over to Iraq. Christy was my

> oldest child, and she was murdered by an ex boyfriend. I'm striving

> to find peace with this. It's not been an easy journey. I'm growing

> spiritually, but this one... it's taking a while. I know I'll

> never " get over it, " nor would I want to. I'd like to just gain more

> inner peace.

> Metta,

> Carole

>

[Guest guest]

Dearest Carole,

I must humbly apologize for not mentioning your husband also. I

was a military wife, I have since divorced but to have your husband

away at this time is difficult. I pray this silly war is over soon for

your sake and all of the other military families with loved ones

there. I feel for you so much Carole, it is a very lonely life being a

military wife. If you need me, I am here for you in any way you need

me. If you would like to chat about our similar challenges and losses

or just to say hello. Please know as I see you already can tell, that

we all love you very much and care so much for you and what you have

shared. I will keep your husband in my prayers also for his safe

return. I have signed many a petition to the new '08 candidates to

have our loved ones back from Iraq. I know this is not the same as him

being here, but know that I have seen and maybe you have too, so many

people wanting this over for the sake of loved ones. Especially now

that I know another sweet soul whom has someone she misses very much.

Namaste, my friend, LUNA

>

> Dearest Friends,

> I could use a little energy. October 17 is the second anniversary of

> my daughter, Christy's murder. I'm having a diffiult time,

especially

> this year with my husband deployed over to Iraq. Christy was my

> oldest child, and she was murdered by an ex boyfriend. I'm striving

> to find peace with this. It's not been an easy journey. I'm growing

> spiritually, but this one... it's taking a while. I know I'll

> never " get over it, " nor would I want to. I'd like to just gain more

> inner peace.

> Metta,

> Carole

>

[Guest guest]

Dearest ,

Thank you for your comfort hug, energy, love and prayers. This

support is very comforting to me and means so much!

Much Metta,

Carole

Dearest Friends,

> I could use a little energy. October 17 is the second

anniversary of

> my daughter, Christy's murder. I'm having a diffiult time,

especially

> this year with my husband deployed over to Iraq. Christy was my

> oldest child, and she was murdered by an ex boyfriend. I'm

striving

> to find peace with this. It's not been an easy journey. I'm

growing

> spiritually, but this one... it's taking a while. I know I'll

> never " get over it, " nor would I want to. I'd like to just gain

more

> inner peace.

> Metta,

> Carole

>

[Guest guest]

Dearest Luna,

There is no reason to apologize about not mentioning my husband. We

are so tired of all these deployments. It's very difficult for me

to go through this anniversary without him. He's my second husband,

not Christy's dad, but is very supportive and keeps me centered. But

yes, you are right, I feel very loved and supported by this group.

I am sorry about Dara as well, but yes, I know that Dara and Christy

are in a better place than we are. I feel Christy's presence with

me more as this anniversary approaches. I used to hear about other

parents who lost their children and thought I could never survive

something like that, but I've learned that with my spirituality and

personal growth, that I can. I certainly didn't want it to happen,

but it has, and the only thing I can do is take what lessons I'm

supposed to learn and apply them to my life and work. Thank you so

much to all who have written me.

Love and Light,

Carole

>

> Dearest Carole,

>

> I must humbly apologize for not mentioning your husband

also. I

> was a military wife, I have since divorced but to have your

husband

> away at this time is difficult. I pray this silly war is over

soon for

> your sake and all of the other military families with loved ones

> there. I feel for you so much Carole, it is a very lonely life

being a

> military wife. If you need me, I am here for you in any way you

need

> me. If you would like to chat about our similar challenges and

losses

> or just to say hello. Please know as I see you already can tell,

that

> we all love you very much and care so much for you and what you

have

> shared. I will keep your husband in my prayers also for his safe

> return. I have signed many a petition to the new '08 candidates

to

> have our loved ones back from Iraq. I know this is not the same

as him

> being here, but know that I have seen and maybe you have too, so

many

> people wanting this over for the sake of loved ones. Especially

now

> that I know another sweet soul whom has someone she misses very

much.

> Namaste, my friend, LUNA

>

> --- In , " Carole " <cbrum2005@>

wrote:

> >

> > Dearest Friends,

> > I could use a little energy. October 17 is the second

anniversary of

> > my daughter, Christy's murder. I'm having a diffiult time,

> especially

> > this year with my husband deployed over to Iraq. Christy was my

> > oldest child, and she was murdered by an ex boyfriend. I'm

striving

> > to find peace with this. It's not been an easy journey. I'm

growing

> > spiritually, but this one... it's taking a while. I know I'll

> > never " get over it, " nor would I want to. I'd like to just gain

more

> > inner peace.

> > Metta,

> > Carole

> >

>

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Dear Sefanie,

I share your belief as well. I know that we choose our paths and make our contracts and that this was the way it was all planned out. I have still felt the incredible connection with Christy even in death. I believe that our paths were intertwined for a reason and the lessons will all be revealed to us at some point. Perhaps my lesson was to learn forgiveness. I'm not sure yet, and that is very difficult. I wish I could be that strong - to forgive. That has not happened for me yet. Perhaps that's why I'm still here and not Christy. Perhaps she learned her lesson and fulfilled her contract and I havn't. I know one day we will be reunited. I just never knew one could feel such pain. Thank you for your support.

Namaste, Carole> > > > > >> > > > > > Dearest Friends,> > > > > > I could use a little energy. October 17 is the second> > > > anniversary of> > > > > > my daughter, Christy's murder. I'm having a diffiult time,> > > > especially> > > > > > this year with my husband deployed over to Iraq. Christy was> > my> > > > > > oldest child, and she was murdered by an ex boyfriend. I'm> > > > striving> > > > > > to find peace with this. It's not been an easy journey. I'm> > > > growing> > > > > > spiritually, but this one... it's taking a while. I know I'll> > > > > > never "get over it," nor would I want to. I'd like to just> > gain> > > > more> > > > > > inner peace.> > > > > > Metta,> > > > > > Carole> > > > > >> > > > >> > > >> > >> >>

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Thank you, Kanta.

Namaste,

Carole

>

> Dear Carole,

>

> Love & Blessings to you.

>

> Namste,

>

> Kanta

>

> --- In , " Carole " <cbrum2005@>

wrote:

> >

> > Dearest Friends,

> > I could use a little energy. October 17 is the second

anniversary of

> > my daughter, Christy's murder. I'm having a diffiult time,

> especially

> > this year with my husband deployed over to Iraq. Christy was my

> > oldest child, and she was murdered by an ex boyfriend. I'm

striving

> > to find peace with this. It's not been an easy journey. I'm

growing

> > spiritually, but this one... it's taking a while. I know I'll

> > never " get over it, " nor would I want to. I'd like to just gain

more

> > inner peace.

> > Metta,

> > Carole

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Oh Carole, forgiveness will come. You are such an inspiration....Infinite respect to you,Stefanie> > > > > > >> > > > > > > Dearest Friends,> > > > > > > I could use a little energy. October 17 is the second> > > > > anniversary of> > > > > > > my daughter, Christy's murder. I'm having a diffiult time,> > > > > especially> > > > > > > this year with my husband deployed over to Iraq. Christy was> > > my> > > > > > > oldest child, and she was murdered by an ex boyfriend. I'm> > > > > striving> > > > > > > to find peace with this. It's not been an easy journey. I'm> > > > > growing> > > > > > > spiritually, but this one... it's taking a while. I know> I'll> > > > > > > never "get over it," nor would I want to. I'd like to just> > > gain> > > > > more> > > > > > > inner peace.> > > > > > > Metta,> > > > > > > Carole> > > > > > >> > > > > >> > > > >> > > >> > >> >>

[Guest guest]

I hope so , I really do. I know I'm the one not being hurt

by not forgiving.

Namaste,

Carole

> > > > > > > >

> > > > > > > > Dearest Friends,

> > > > > > > > I could use a little energy. October 17 is the second

> > > > > > anniversary of

> > > > > > > > my daughter, Christy's murder. I'm having a diffiult

time,

> > > > > > especially

> > > > > > > > this year with my husband deployed over to Iraq.

Christy

> was

> > > > my

> > > > > > > > oldest child, and she was murdered by an ex

boyfriend. I'm

> > > > > > striving

> > > > > > > > to find peace with this. It's not been an easy

journey.

> I'm

> > > > > > growing

> > > > > > > > spiritually, but this one... it's taking a while. I

know

> > I'll

> > > > > > > > never " get over it, " nor would I want to. I'd like

to just

> > > > gain

> > > > > > more

> > > > > > > > inner peace.

> > > > > > > > Metta,

> > > > > > > > Carole

> > > > > > > >

> > > > > > >

> > > > > >

> > > > >

> > > >

> > >

> >

>