My first post...I think its time I share something.

[Guest guest]

Hi everyone. My name is Keesha and I joined the group a few weeks ago

and have just been reading all the emails.. I do see a lot of support

and understanding and that is what makes me feel safe about sharing

some of my experience..and I have been looking for some time for that

safe place because I have a lot to say.

Just now I was awaken by once again the same dream I have been having

for about the last 5 years perhaps longer but the frequency and

intensity of the dream has become stronger. It has slowly become more

detailed and longer and perhaps that has more to do with myself being

more aware of other things in me that I had not accepted until now..

I have a gift that I have not yet completely honed. I can hear things

in places when I am not actually there, I can hear many things in

other forms too. I also have stong preminissions through dreams and

visions, sensations about events or people so many forms of recieving.

And more frequently i see this small light almost like a star with my

bare eye..it either is on the wall from time to time or just floats or

flashes..a lot of times its when I am writing (I am a writer so) and

the light flashes on my screen a lot.

Recently my life has changed so much as I have removed a lot of

unhealthy relationships and habits. I just have always noticed that I

see things so differently than most of my friends and I understand the

world in a totally different way..its almost like they live in a

different space than myself and for a long time I was depressed from

being misunderstood. I noticed I became very angry when people were

inconsiderate and just did not see how they hurt others and I was even

more angry at the continual lack of conscious thinking of others..I

also can determine a lie through a sick feeling I get in my stomach

when its something of great magnitude or of a smaller sensation with

other fibs...lies angered me as well and my anger surprised others and

myself as I have always had so much compassion for others. One day i

just came to terms with and knew I had to walk away from the

relationships and some that i even tried to make work just could not l

last as I felt physical pain from certain actions I would witness or

forsee. I am able to have more compassion and understanding for those

cases now yet at the same time I believe that for myself it may not be

a good idea to go back into relationships of those levels.Even though

I understand and love the people we do not exchange healthily and

equally and its just like Im in another place.

so back to my dream..I definitely feel as though for all these years

I have been receiving a message about this huge change about to take

place.. I feel that it is taking place ...bigger than the world but

the world is in it and its important to us because we are in this

world at this time. In my dream, most people are not ready for it. I

see a lot of natural disasters..a lot of water rising and fire,

earthquakes..for so long those dreams had scared me until now that I

have found so many other resources of the same claims and so many

others feeling like the end of what we know is taking place and a lot

beyond the physical eye. SO, I feel more comforted and not like I am

crazy. I just saw it again as i mentioned early on that I had this

dream that woke me..the crazy thing about the dream is that it felt as

though time had elapsed..I was in the past, present and future all at

once ( its hard to explain) but I knew that that was the case. I

wonder if this is a message for our future or perhaps it is the truth

for a presence or state of the universe?

I do have more to share and perhaps someone could offer understanding

or some other explanation to my experience here.

thanks for reading..Peace, Love and Light...

Keesha