Re: confession - Karin and Tami

[Guest guest]

> >

> > I want to make a confession

> > In the school I didn't have the courage to stand and share what

I

> > was ashamed of.

> > I will do it now, and I hope you will not hate me

> > if you do, I will heal myself with the " I don't care vibe " .

> >

> > Back than, the thing I was ashamed of was

> > that I wanted my mom to die.

> > My reason was that I didn't come to visit her almost ever

> > and I felt so guilty.

> > So I wanted her to die so i wouldn't need to do something I

didn't

> > do...

> >

> > I don't feel bad telling you that.

> >

> > Any ideas?

> > Am I a monster?

> >

> > T

> >

> > > When I was in the school, one day asked us to share with

> > others

> > > something that we did and we are ashamed of.

> > > Usually these things are things that we kept a secret from

every

> > one, and

> > > telling 350 people about it, is not a easy thing to do.

> > >

> > > After someone made a confession, asked

> > > to raise the a hand if you ever been in this person's shoes.

> > > Well well well, from what I have witness, we are all " sinners " !

> > >

> > > So if you feel too embarrassed to talk about porn, maybe it is

a

> > sign that

> > > you *should*

> > > for your own freedom.

> > >

> > > I call to lovetheworkofBK from this stage, tell me your

darkest

> > secrets, I

> > > promise not to tell anyone

> > >

> > > Thank you for loving me so much

> > > I don't blame you

> > >

> > > T

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

[Guest guest]

Dear ,

I never expected to be thinking it, let alone saying, REALLY let

alone someone ever saying they understood it. I love that you

thought, " Die Motherfucker " about your dad. Thank you for loving the

monsters and being one, too. If the monsters get more love, they

might become LoveMonsters.

I think you are so right that what we we really want to die is the

suffering. The transformation of your family dynamics is so inspiring

to me.

Love you,

Karin

>

> Hi Karin and Tami,

> I have the greatest understanding that you can be ashamed of

wishing

> someone close to you would die. I see it as very human. Love and

> hate isn´t personal. Neither is wishing someone dead. What I really

> think you wanted dead was your pain and suffering. And when we are

> confused and believe our stories, we believe that the other person

> is the source of our suffering and if he or she just went away, we

> would be happy. So we wish that person would die, and that is

> nothing terrible with that. It is all very innocent. You are no

> monsters. You are two amazing, lovable woman, who just happened to

> believed your stories. And show me the person who never has

believed

> a painful story!

>

> You are not alone, far from. I used to wish my father would die,

for

> many years. I used to think: Die motherfucker, die!

> And my daughters father, oh boy...If wishes would come true I can

> tell you that he wouldn´t be alive today!

>

> And now it´s all gone. I don´t believe my painful stories anymore

> about them, and I see very clearly why I wished them away. What I

> really wished away was the pain.

>

> You are no monsters, no bad girls and I love you both very much!

>

> Warm hugs,

>

[Guest guest]

> >

> > Hi Karin and Tami,

> > I have the greatest understanding that you can be ashamed of

> wishing

> > someone close to you would die. I see it as very human. Love and

> > hate isn´t personal. Neither is wishing someone dead. What I

really

> > think you wanted dead was your pain and suffering. And when we

are

> > confused and believe our stories, we believe that the other

person

> > is the source of our suffering and if he or she just went away,

we

> > would be happy. So we wish that person would die, and that is

> > nothing terrible with that. It is all very innocent. You are no

> > monsters. You are two amazing, lovable woman, who just happened

to

> > believed your stories. And show me the person who never has

> believed

> > a painful story!

> >

> > You are not alone, far from. I used to wish my father would die,

> for

> > many years. I used to think: Die motherfucker, die!

> > And my daughters father, oh boy...If wishes would come true I

can

> > tell you that he wouldn´t be alive today!

> >

> > And now it´s all gone. I don´t believe my painful stories

anymore

> > about them, and I see very clearly why I wished them away. What

I

> > really wished away was the pain.

> >

> > You are no monsters, no bad girls and I love you both very much!

> >

> > Warm hugs,

> >

>

[Guest guest]

> >

> > Hi Karin and Tami,

> > I have the greatest understanding that you can be ashamed of

> wishing

> > someone close to you would die. I see it as very human. Love and

> > hate isn´t personal. Neither is wishing someone dead. What I

really

> > think you wanted dead was your pain and suffering. And when we

are

> > confused and believe our stories, we believe that the other

person

> > is the source of our suffering and if he or she just went away,

we

> > would be happy. So we wish that person would die, and that is

> > nothing terrible with that. It is all very innocent. You are no

> > monsters. You are two amazing, lovable woman, who just happened

to

> > believed your stories. And show me the person who never has

> believed

> > a painful story!

> >

> > You are not alone, far from. I used to wish my father would die,

> for

> > many years. I used to think: Die motherfucker, die!

> > And my daughters father, oh boy...If wishes would come true I

can

> > tell you that he wouldn´t be alive today!

> >

> > And now it´s all gone. I don´t believe my painful stories

anymore

> > about them, and I see very clearly why I wished them away. What

I

> > really wished away was the pain.

> >

> > You are no monsters, no bad girls and I love you both very much!

> >

> > Warm hugs,

> >

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