[RE] Re: My Pain & Prayer Request

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I have found that the best way for me to forgive myself is when I go to bed every night I simply say "Creator, show me what you see in me".

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Stefanie My Love;

Dear Heart! Thankyou so much for a beautiful warm and loving welcome, etc. I believe you are right I do first need to forgive myself and to find my self-worth and to love myself as others do. I know I need to do it,and yet I'm having trouble doing it. Infinate love to you my dearest sweet and loving sister!! Love,Light,{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}},Prayers Blesssings !! I love you so very much !! MUCHA LOVE HUGS to you my dear sister !!

Namaste:

Your Soul Sister Lara xoxo

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Subject : [] Re: My Pain Prayer Request

Date : Wed, 17 Oct 2007 19:55:34 -0000

From : "Stefanie"

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Hello beautiful Lara, and welcome to our wonderful family! [:*]

I feel your pain very strongly, and the first thing that popped up into my head is on the lines of what Cheryl wrote. Forgiveness. This is what's going to help you heal my love. It's a hard road to live in anger and pain. The forgiveness I feel you need is not for your step-dad. That will come when you're ready, but I feel like you need to forgive yourself first. Please forgive yourself. Find your self-worth and love yourself like others love you.

Here's a very powerful exercise you can do to help you down a road of self-forgiveness. Sit down and write everything it is about yourself you are angry at. Write down what has made you so angry and hurt (like your past with your step-dad). Write down whatever you feel you need to and don't hold anything back! Then once you feel you have it all, and all those emotions are saturating the paper/s you're writing on. Take the paper, and burn it. While it's going up in flames allow your heart to let go. Out loud say "I forgive myself". Let it all fade away like the paper. Then release the ashes outside in the wind. Let the anger and pain fly away with the ashes.

You don't need it anymore.

Most of us in this group have had incredibly difficult childhoods or experiences as victims. Most of us are also empaths and can really understand on a deep level the pain you're going through my love. Know we are here for you as you heal and grow.

Infinite love to you, Stefanie

> > Dearest Friends: > For 8 yrs from when I was 13 until I was 22 yrs old I was verbally > and emotionally abused by my ex-stepdad. I was in survival mode for > those 8 yrs plus about 4 yrs or so afterwards and I've only just > started remembering and working through it all as of about a year and > half to two yrs ago. I am in therapy with a wonderful therapist whom > I trust and I can talk to her about anything and everything. I hope > all is well with you. I'm really not doing well at all, I'm a > complete emotional mess. My head or my mind know's that's It's Not My > Fault, and that I'm Worth It, but my heart still hasn't gotten it > yet. So I know that in the back of my mind, but at the same time the > feelings of not feeling worth and feeling like it's my fault, etc are > so extremely over powering so much so that I forget that I Actually > Am Worth It and that It's Not My Fault, etc. Right now oh how I wish > there were never such a thing as feelings as I'm in so much pain. I > know god's doesn't give us more than we can handle, but it sure the > hell feels like alot more than I can handle. but I guess it must not > be otherwise I wouldn't be going through this right now. I'm just a > complete mess and it feels like everything is coming out backwards. I > know I'm angry , but I still have yet to find it as it burried way > deep down in side somewhere so! instead of getting angry I upset and > depressed, etc and can't stop crying,etc, and am feeling unworthy and > unloved and not valued, and whatever else goes along with it all. > This is just so dam unfair. I'm also still not sleeping very well or > not getting much sleep at all if any and I cry myself to sleep and/or > wake up crying. Sometime I have so many dam feelings like now I don't > even know what they all are besides the fact that I've always had > trouble identifing my feelings. I live at home with my mom and my new > step-dad but I'm not really able to talk to either of them most > especially my mom as she has never been emotionally available to me > ever since I was little and I don't think she will ever be. I'm so > very much in need of being held and comforted and a great big hug, > but as usual I don't have anyone here at home to do that. I guess I'm > still very much in need of some serious and I mean serious healing > prayers. Even know as I'm sitting here writing this I feel like I > could burst into tears again at any second and I can feel the tears > starting to roll down my cheeks this very second. > > Love, {{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}} Blessings, > Your Sister Lara xoxo > Feeling unworthy, unloved and not valued in Tolland,CT >