Seeing a new psychiatrist - need help

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I started to see a new psychiatrist yesterday. My old one has moved.

She was the one that said that I could be bipolar. The defining

characteristics of a bipolar pirson, were things I could recocnise

myself with. I have no stressful story about it, on the contraty, it

explained a lot of things for me.

And yesterday I met this new one, and he wasn´t so sure I was

bipolar. He thought I was a better match for a borderline

personality. And then he wrote down on a whiteboard the defining

characteristics of a borderline person.

Having trouble connecting with other people.

Hard to feel empathy for others.

No impulscontrol.

Terrified of separations.

Careless about yourself and others.

And when I asked where he got it from, that I should be borderline,

he refered to something a psychiatrist wrote about me in 1999, when

I was separating from a boyfriend, after seeing me for an hour.

Notice that she never mentioned the word borderline.

So now he is talking about changing my medication, and when every

other doctor read my journal he will read that I am a borderline

personality.

I feel so helpless. I am not borderline! I´m not even sure I am

depressed or bipolar. I feel I have to defend myself, and it´s not

because I also think that I can´t connect with other people. I am

very good at that, and very good at having long relationships. It´s

not because I think I have no ematphy with others. I have always

have a very good empathic feeling, even as a child.

I am not terrified of separation in general. I am terrified of Hans

death, and I guess I share the fear of losing your soulmate with

many others, and that doesn´t make any of us is borderlines.

I think my impuls control is average. I don´t have a story that I

have to do the first thing that comes to my mind. And sometimes I

act from impulse of course. That is not a problem for me.

Careless about myself and other people. It has happened of course. I

don´t see it as a common behaviour for me, far from. I am very

caring to all my loved ones, my friends and family and people I

don´t know too.

Well, this really got my stories running. I am afraid, and can´t

stop thinking about this. I could really use your help now! Do you

think I am borderline? How do I work with htis? Please help me!

Love,