Beauty, the Beast and Five Silk Ties

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Dear Humanity Healing Family,

I am grateful for this blessed forum of healing, prayer,

information, experience, strength and hope. On this beautiful autumn

day I would like to share with you a reflection on my healing

process from cancer and chemotherapy...

with my deepest appreciation to Liane, Saurab, Reiki Cheryl

and everyone who prayed for me and sent me Reiki. I believe that

this was an essential part of my recovery.

Thanks and Love,

Kanta

Beauty, the Beast and Five Silk Ties

This morning, I passed over the Chanel and the Paloma

Picasso..and spritzed myself with " Je Reviens. " An

olfactory message of celebration. I am returning. I'm

back. Refreshed, renewed, fully enaged in life. A

happy ending and a new beginning au meme temps.

Last night I had that flat feeling I have come to

recognize as signifying shift at depth. A quietly

auspicious occasion. To optimize and honor the

process, I have learned to stop " doing. " I had a

telephone appointment scheduled for 9:00 P.M., which

the client, who is normally a super-responsible woman,

forgot about.

It was very uncharacteristic of her...and yet it was

the highest good for all concerned. Because in

session, I pay 100% attention to the client and last

night, I needed to stay open and receptive to my own

process. So, the Universe supported us both perfectly.

I did what I often do when I need to rest and be open

to messages from Spirit. I watched a movie.

and I went to a dinner party last week and we watched

The Lion King. We enjoyed it so much, our hosts, Bob

and sent us home with our choice of a pile of

Walt's works. We took three. One of them was Beauty

and the Beast, which recommended. He's

educating me in classic Disney, science and

engineering. I'm turning him on to smooth jazz.

I've always loved myths and fairy tales. I was drawn

to the movie and found myself resonating with both

characters. Belle's love of books (things of the mind

and spirit) her absentmindedness(hypnosis, meditation,

creative daydreaming) and her yearning for travel and

exploration, for something more…finding her freedom

while seemingly confined (recovering from surgery,

chemotherapy) meeting her true love.

The Beast, also finding his larger, unlimited self,

his full inner beauty, while " trapped " in a body that

seemed to betray him….a body which, through

manifesting challenge, provided him a vehicle for

spiritual growth. Good movies are like dreams, where

all the characters play parts of you.

It's been almost a year since I began my sabbatical

and it seems like a dream come true. Last year at this

time I was planning my northward move. Like Belle,

loving my beautiful country homeland, and at the same

time, knowing it was my dharma to go. I didn't know

exactly what to expect, but I knew it would be good

professionally and romantically and so it is.

A sabbatical is more than a vacation. It's a sacred

inner journey, time off to learn, to be changed from

the inside out. Belle didn't expect to be imprisoned

by a beast. Once imprisoned, she was surprised to find

herself, not behind bars at all, but free to move

about in an enchanted castle. And once she saw the

true loving nature of the Beast, she and he were

transformed.

I didn't expect to get cancer. And though it is a

beast whose face is hated and whose name is dreaded…

and though many who are diagnosed with it feel cursed

with cruel imprisonment inside bodies which they feel

have betrayed them…and they ask, " Why me? " …somehow,

from the get-go I knew that on some level I chose this

karmic lesson. She close it to redeem her father (her

higher wiser self). And I, too chose it to help me

move to a higher level of consciousness.

I learned to rest. I learned to forgive more

wholeheartedly than ever before. Let go of stale

resentments. To trust more fully. I learned that I was

lovable and desirable, even with a scar from my pubic

bone to my navel and, for awhile, no hair. Even though

I felt at first hopelessly deformed and beastly, I

found my dignity, my power, my grace and my femininity

at a deeper level. My name, " Kanta " means " beauty that

shines from within. " I learned what that really means!

And I appreciate that. Thank you God, my teachers,

guides and angels, my beloved , my friends and

family… and thanks to my own wiser self, who dwells

within me.

I am refreshed, renewed and so happy to be back in

life with my energy, my health, and my work. Work is

different now. More than ever, I trust. I'm relaxed in

the knowledge that the writing, painting, Life

Coaching and Guided Imagery are all flowing from the

Source of all things and all I really need to do is

show up, open up and let it be done though me, not by

me.

Yesterday, I went shopping for gifts for the

groomsmen. I found five beautiful silk ties, just the

colors I wanted, to match the bridesmaids' dresses.

Navy, royal blue, purple, teal, cranberry. By next

fall, when we'll be married, we will have moved into

the house is building for us. To me, it's an

enchanted castle and he is the handsome prince. I'm

enjoying each visit I make to it, as I get to see the

process of his creativity taking beautiful shape. I

think enjoyment is the magic word, too. The enchanted

condition which illuminates our lives.

Wishing you joy and gratitude this harvest season. May

you rest deeply and return from rest to work and play

with lightness of heart. May you see yourself as with

the eyes of your angels...with love May you find your

beauty and feel compassion for your beast, knowing

that from the level of your own wise self, you are

already one. And your happy ending is not only

assured…but already yours.

Thanksgiving Blessings

and Namaste,

Kanta

also posted as a blog on my myspace page: www.myspace.com/kantanancy

copyright Kanta Bosniak November 2007